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Sorry -- I can't seem to get myself to talk unless it's to a void where no one has to respond to me, but writing in my own notes where it feels like I'm still keeping it to myself is somehow worse. No need to engage with that, I'll be fine

It would help a lot if people would leave me alone. My mother keeps talking to me all day every day including when I'm not out of my room or bed yet. This happens every time I live here. I always go insane trying to think of ways to leave and literally never get far. How am I supposed to wait...

I wish I hadn't missed that concert but at least my animals are all individually the best and sweetest guys

I would get in my car and drive forever if I didn't need to make sure there was a destination

If nobody cared, I'd still survive. If I didn't want to, I'd still survive. I just needed a minute. This has been a very hard year. Years. Decade(s). We aren't born to live in luxury and when we do, it takes a toll on us too. This house is trying desperately to let go of me and my family. This...

Perfect temp outside :D

Gonna hang out with a friend tomorrow

I did not make it to the concert :(

Being near/in the presence of someone who genuinely cares is calming and comforting. He's home now and I had a crying spell like immediately, so guess stress cup is overflowing. I feel pathetic, and it makes me angry both that I feel that way and that I am not meeting my own standards. Deep...

I brought my best friend over and he took out trash for me. Just gotta finish washing my sheets and comforter. (Kitty puked on it.) Counts as therapy in my book lol Hopefully going to a concert (free) my brother plays in tomorrow. I hope I can move back to Sewanee some time

You're okay, I didn't mean to cause worry

Thanks, y'all. ❤️ I don't think it's bad stuff. I think it's just there in my head. I find it disappointing that I'm not my usual optimistic self, and I feel ashamed, yeah, but I don't think it's bad. I wish I could go back to just being positive all the time and people being impressed that...

It is beautiful outside 🏞️🌄🌅 💐🍄🌺🌷🌸🏵️🌻🌼🌱🌿☘️🍀🌳🌲🌳

I don't mean to trouble anybody. Let's just keep focusing on the positive. I drove to Illinois to view the eclipse and it was the one of the best things I've ever seen. I hope some of y'all got to see it in person, but online is nice as well

Sorry for rambling, I ramble when I'm tired, and I'm tired from working all day to make the house more livable. I mean, I just deep cleaned it, and I'm sure it'll need it again by tomorrow. With how things have been. Surely by the end of the week. I have been trying to get away from this house...

Gonna eat canned soup. House is as clean as I can get it in one day. There's a lot of it I can't reach, and it's still f*cking path shaped, but it's as good as I can get it. Helps relieve the intense claustrophobia taking over my life. If I could do anything I would go to the beach. 🏖️

I didn't mean to worry you, I'm sorry. Anyway. Cleaned every part of the house that I could. It felt better than moping, though the thoughts never left. Not sure if that counts as self harm, but it's better not to fight it. Just makes it defensive enough to push back. House is better than...