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I did my squats, it looks like the snow has melted, it's 49 degrees, and we get to walk the track.

That is a big part of the problem -- we know this location is temporary and now my husband is trying to get us to a permanent location, ASAP, so we can feel settled. So, my noggin moves from trying to determine the details of that to figuring out what my next vocational move is going to be, back...

I'm not allowed to make any big decisions right now. I feel like that's all I've been doing for the last several months. I'm just in this weird limbo wondering what's next. I'm bad at this.

I am so glad to hear this! You were blaming yourself pretty harshly last I remember reading one of your posts, so it's great to not only have you report that you are making progress but also to see that you did not blame yourself at any point in this post. That's huge. My mother was abused by...

Well, you did a fantastic job, then. She looks amazing. I thought maybe it was a truck stop item, but then it would have to be an item for the mothers of truckers (trucker mothers), right? I don't know where they shop.

I don't think I have seen mudflap girl with such a nice, golden tan. And with bacon? She looks delicious! So, is that a mudflap girl cookie cutter you have?

Quinoa, veggies, chickpeas, and walnuts with coconut aminos, 2 tablespoons of dark chocolate chips, and a cup of warmed-up cold-brew coffee

Wow! Was this really only a week ago? Life is nuts or maybe it's just me. I got through that orientation and my profile is active on the tutoring platform. I am getting restabilized on my meds right now. With the sudden realization that I do, in fact, have a mood disorder, I am thinking a lot...

I am sorry. It had been a very long time since I had a bad bout of depression. I forgot how damned impossible things can seem. I hope you feel better soon.

Me too. I had a boyfriend take off on a 3-week, apparently non-stop walking journey just because he was avoiding people he thought were out to get him. I went to see him in the hospital and he had no skin left on the bottoms of his feet and he looked like a skeleton. I remember having an...

That makes sense. Thank you. I often fail to realize that all of the time that I spent in the middle of nowhere has warped my sense of humanity and judgment and has caused me to reach for the 5 point harness even when I am walking into a mental health facility.

I commented on this as I was going to bed last night, but I thought about it more while I was in bed. I took a behavioral neuroscience class probably about a year before I started Lithium. I remember that I wrote a paper on keeping the hippocampus healthy and that in that paper, I cited...

This has been my primary argument for Lithium. Its long history is another thing that made me feel safer with it than with other medications. Doctors have tried to convince me to use other meds citing that Lithium has so many known side effects but part of that does have to do with how long we...

I don't think it directly affected my anxiety. What it did do was seemed to insulate my marbles so that when they got going, they weren't crashing into one another, anymore -- that's how I think of it. My emotions tend to feel like they constantly make impact in my brain. The Lithium cuts that...

Everyone is different, of course, but Lithium was the single most effective medication I have ever taken. I also lived in the desert for all but about 18 months of the seven years I was on it with no problems -- I was very good about forcing myself to stay hydrated, though. I am scared of meds...

That makes sense. I was just going over some details on Mental Health America's website, however, and what it said about the outward manifestations of paranoia fit me perfectly. I often make the excuse that being a persecuted minority (cleft-affected) has given me a history of shit and that my...

There is some overlap here. Thank you. My husband never saw me without Lithium, before. My relationship before my husband is what drove me to start Lithium. So, a lot of fear has come up in the last little bit about how my husband is really doing with all of this. This is exacerbated by his...

Not unless my PC diagnosed me yesterday. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder when I was 21. When I was 34, I went on Lithium. When I was 37, I was told I didn't have a mood disorder but continued the Lithium due to what I thought was trauma-related depression. But every damned mood...

Quinoa and peanuts with peanut sauce, two tablespoons of dark chocolate chips, and heated cold brew green tea.

Thanks! They have me back on more Lithium than I've been on in several months, so I have my fingers crossed. 😺

I've never had that. It sounds yummy. That was nice of her.

I often am not sure if I have paranoia or not. The best example I can give of thinking I might have paranoia is my husband. That man loves me. In the rare instances that he really has been short-tempered with me, I have rampantly verbally attacked him explaining how his behavior was completely...

Feeling less like my head might explode, today.

Thank you all. I am sort of wondering now after spending the last year tapering down from a therapeutic dose of Lithium if I might not be able to stay on a lower dose of Lithium and my current dose of gabapentin -- and maybe add something else if needed (or maybe swap the gabapentin because it...

I have not used a temp service before. I wouldn't try it now because I am too unstable and I really must get something solid under me or I'm going to continue to flounder. I think I would do very well in a government job because I thrive in structured environments. Thankfully, my husband is...