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As I learn more and more and apply what I've learned to past experiences i gain more and more perspective about myself. Why I do the things I do, how seemingly random things affected my personal life. The intrusive thoughts aren't as constant as they were not so long ago but they are still...

My 2 cents after having mulled this over and applying what I've learned and i might be way off base... either A its an abusive relationship and you care for her or B you are projecting your damage onto them with concern. The only thing this says to me for sure is that you are looking to save...

Did things get better? I hope so.

My daughters mom and i were 9 years apart and i can tell you that without a shadow of a doubt if there was any power imbalance it was her hold over me. If she didnt like friends/family members i would ghost them. If she wanted something i got it for her. When she got morning sickness i got...

Absolutely, I have had asymptomatic periods of my life. Where I had it undercontrol. When I was working out 2 hours a day, eating healthy and supplementing my diet at near neurotic levels. I was helping children get bicycles and had a christian men's group I attended occasionally. And I avoided...

I am a combat veteran. For what its worth i have an arcom for valor against armed enemy combatants. When the rage comes i dont feel anything at all. Just rage. I personally have to remove myself before it happens or find something else to beat on because its like an on/off switch. I find that...

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As a complete layman abused by both parents and a combat veteran, learning as I go, I dont really care. Its an affliction i have to beat in order to reconnect with my 13 year old daughter. A month ago i wanted to run off into the woods. For 2+ years prior to that i wanted nothing. Nothing at...

When my counselor told me I had C-ptsd he also told me that at this point its chronic. If that helps at all.

I had dissociative amnesia. If thats what you're talking about. When i accidentally recovered my memories it was quite rough. I am starting to feel like me again but its still a struggle. I would be interested in this topic as well. If you experienced this was it like it just happened yesterday...

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I was almost him once in my life. About two years after i got back,, maybe 3. The self loathing outweighed the need for someone, anyone before anything happened. I knew about him and their kids. I was desperate to not be alone. In a dark dark place. And focused all of my energy on her. It was...

I was always on your husband's side of this love triangle but I can tell that on my best days I am a hell of a boyfriend. Making you happy is all-consuming. On my worst days, the only reason I'm not in prison is because I love my daughter more than I hated her moms boyfriend. My advice would be...

You are trying to figure out something that you cant relate to. Let me tell you how these things effect me. The first two seem to alternate as sweet slips away. -sweet I am 100% committed. Your wish is my command. I will plan my life around you. The friends you dont like i dont like. You are...

The heart wants something that the brain knows is toxic is how i understand it. He is being torn apart from the inside. The brain always wins. You are probably hurting him.

This 3 times now. Fking this. And its worse than you think. And if he has a reason to take it out on your husband, legitimate or not... You are really playing with fire.

I don't know the guy and can only speak from how I would feel. It wouldn't be good. For so many reasons.

Ya, i just figured out what FWB is. Ya you may have opened a can of worms you werent ready prepared for... If he is anything like me, i really dont know. Good luck.

If you treat him well, listen to him and accept him despite knowing his secrets? For me that would be everything. You should feel good about being a good person and stay a good person. I am not trying to assume what youre really feeling but i can say that if you were to act on feelings, if you...

My exwife cheated on me in iraq while i was going thru some real traumatic things. War is hell. I associate the way she acted with how some women act. Not everyone wants a relationship. Some people just want to play. When i was dating, i stopped in 2018, i was 100% in it for a committed...

He wants something you cant give him and you remind him of what that is. For me its the idea of love and belonging that gets me the most. I dont feel like anybody will ever live up to it. You need to let him work thru it. He may come back, he might not, i dont know. What i do know is the more...

Hi everybody. I was recently diagnosed with C-PTSD. I had a mental block on my time in iraq, 2004. Which i broke when i accidentally called my CO because i recognized his face on facebook on an account that i made to specifically look for my old unit when i was trying to talk to the va about my...