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many you have offered suport over the past few weeks. I thought this was a safe place. Until another member basically verbally attacked someone for feeling triggered over a sexual comment made by a stranger. It's "buying into the feminist language" and as long as we do it, we buy into triggers...

Nothing is by accident. This TED Talk came up on my Podcast list. I needed to hear this message. This applies to so many of us. The last couple of minutes is the most powerful. It talks about being beautiful in the midst of failure and being a new person no matter what the situation. We can...

1. I must have a foul mouth. My autocorrect just defaulted to the word f*ck. I even write the word frequently never mind saying it. Oh, but a good swear word really expresses the anger and confusion so well. In such a short syllable. 2. It is hard to let anyone inside the defenses: I may...

I have many intrusive thoughts sometimes. They're demented ear worms. Most of them are about the trauma, things he told me. What happened. What. Could, should, and didn't do differently. I re-experience it sometimes. One thought I get so often: "I'm better off dead." "Why didn't I die?" I...

Does anyone else want someone who is judgmental or just plain ignorant want that person to live just a day on your head? Just live with the anxiety, nightmares, intrusive thoughts, confusion, reliving the trauma, fear, etc. for just ONE day. Is it bad to wish that on someone? I just get so...

I went to a bike show today. I was with someone but it is the first time I've interacted with people in a group for ages. Maybe next time I can make it alone.

Found out my perpetrator went to prison for sexual misconduct. This is a common plea down for sexual assault. I keep thinking that lady had more guts than I did. If I had reported and he was convicted, he would have gotten confinement to military prison. I keep asking myself how many...

Had a social security hearing today. As I've mentioned before, I don't do complex instructions, noise, light- pretty any ongoing or sudden noises. Part of the process is a vocational representative pointing out to the judge that I can do a certain job even with my limitations. All of them...

I went to get help but have been hanging back. Honestly, I can't say that in some ways. I had a serious issues last week and wasn't really doing very well. I was focused more on survival and digging out of the mud than anything else. I got the "homework" done.

Anyone else lose a career because of PTSD? I had to resign and retire from my career because of PTSD issues. It sucks

so many don't report. If you're comfortable, please answer why you did or didn't report. The last two responses are actually questions about military service at the time of the assault. Did it happen when in military service or not? I was a Marine on active duty. I never reported to...

A series of totally lame jokes that are so dumb they'll make you laugh A series of jokes by Whyteferret posted May 26, 2016 at 8:44 PM

Yesterday I got a letter from "Fully Developed Claim" from the VA. I had applied for a raise in service connect. I initially thought that it was an effient turn around. I applied about a month ago. Highlights of the letter: 1. The accredited representative from the above referenced...

Sometimes by Whyteferret posted May 24, 2016 at 7:57 PM

I woke up at 3:00 And couldn't get back to sleep. I decided to do the workout (very) early. A few minutes after the first surge, I noticed a little critter running the same direction on the side of the road. "Hmmm. What is that? Wrong shape for a dog. Too small to be a raccoon. Maybe a cat...

I had a bad weekend, spending much of it sucidal, in an panic attack, running/physical activity, or sleeping. Trigger was seeing someone who reminded me of the perpetrator- I was behind and to the side. I took off out of the store and ran home. Chicken. So, today I had a meeting with my...

I have been so overwhelmed lately. Last night, I felt so depressed and hopeless that I used the national suicide prevention hotline. The veterans' chat function. You have the option to fill out an anonymous questionnaire before you chat. It gives the worker some idea of what's up. Long story...

Searching for something I don't even know what. Meaning? Purpose? Hope? I spent some time alone running in the woods today. I finally felt a sense of peace. It connected me to earth, air, fire, water, spirit. Fire transforms us. Air moves us. Water shapes us. Earth heals us. Spirit...

Last week my T gave what should be an easy assignment. It's not. How to handle stressors outside the house better and lower anxiety. It's just a worksheet to look at things differently. Ok doing such a good job even looking at it right now. *eye roll* It's not that I don't want to figure...

When things are overwhelming, start somewhere. There are times that I get so overwhelmed that there seems to be no start and no ending so I freeze in place. I am afraid to be wrong: afraid to fail. I want to control myself and my surroundings. Because it feels “safe.” It isn’t. Life will...

I met with my therapist today. That's fine. I trust him. But... Things didn't go very well otherwise. The bus always causes a bit over physical sensory overload but I usually do ok with it, especially if I am going somewhere quiet and/ or familiar. It comes down to being able to manage...

ok. Had a bit of an anxiety issue and had to take a lorazepam. It kicked it but between the tired from anxiety and the medication I am so exhausted. I have a bus ride ahead. Hope I make it

Just thinking... In social media, we have the ability to "follow" friends and threads. Follow....And we can see what the others are doing (in the forum anyway). Anyone else find that a bit of an odd word to use on PTSD site? :D:eek::)

I got caught in my Brain today. Who am I now? Different life to live After the assault that caused the PTSD, my life changed. I basically remade myself over time. I viewed the victim of the assault as someone else, if that makes sense. I took on another skin. I know/ knew they were the...

It was a weird day today and I'm feeling a bit unsettled. I stopped in at a Safeway to get something to drink on my way to the bus home from an appointment. There were two cashiers. There were two men ahead of me. The guy I was directly behind let me go first since he had a full cart. And...