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Hi, I haven't been here in a while but I was reading posts and I've seen that many victims of sexual abuse particularly as a child have gone on to find partners, get married and have families. I'm curious about that because I have avoided EVERYTHING to do with sex since I was abused as a child...

I have been trying to work through things with my therapist about my childhood. It has been going on for a couple years now. I actually have 2 therapists, 1 from the VA and one from a private hospital. They think if I talk about everything I will get better. It's been 30 years since I was a kid...

Being that it's around Valentine's Day, I always get thinking about ever being closer to other human beings. I'm 42 and have NEVER been in ANY relationship with any sex. I know I'm attracted to men just because that's the feeling I get when I see them (I'm a female), but I have never even been...

I'm wondering if anyone else has ever experienced being in a state hospital in the US? I had been in "the best" trauma hospital in the US but my insurance ran out. The doctors told me they couldn't help anymore so they were sending me to the state hospital. They didn't realize or didn't care...

I was wondering if others have thought about hurting those that have hurt them? How have you dealt with it? I obviously know that legally you can't just go out there and really hurt them, but I have thought about confronting one of the people that have hurt me and if anything happened then I...

I grew up in an abusive household from the get go. I know that now. I have always blamed myself for the inadequacies of my life no matter how small. I have always explained my existence as something tainted. I had no other reason to explain why so much evil took place in my life so early on...

I am curious to see if anyone is close to being like me. I know most people who experience trauma are afraid of the outside world and have every right to be. They experience all kinds of symptoms that would make anyone want to separate themselves from others. The thing is, with me, I also have...

I am wondering if others have questioned their dissociation? My therapist recently asked me when I first experienced it, and I tried to remember back to the first time I ever slipped away to that peaceful place away from all the danger I was in. I know I was young, but I couldn't give her an...

I don't know about everyone else here, but I have had a tendency to downplay things about myself. I guess because I was afraid to see what was beneath everything else. I had gone through numerous therapists and didn't like any of them. It was for good reasons too. I just never felt comfortable...

I have known I was always a very stoic person, but my Mother is like that too. The thing is, it is disturbing to me that I can't connect to many things that have happened in the past or present day. I just disconnect or go numb. My dog just had to be euthanized a little more than a week ago...

I went to see my therapist today and she reiterated something that has come up quite a bit in our sessions over the past few months. She keeps telling me how bad I am at setting boundaries and that it has everything to do with my past. I let people walk all over me. I am afraid to say no to...

I have a 15 year old Shepard mix that I have had since she was 6 months old. She had been abused like me as a puppy and I got her at the local pound. I live alone with her and a cat and she has been the one I have told all my problems and secrets to for the last 15 years. Right now she is at the...

Hi everyone. I am wondering how therapy works for people as a majority. Its not a pol per se but I'd like to see how many therapists let their patients email them throughout the week. My reason being is, I signed a contract recently with my psychiatrist that I wouldn't email her because they...

The last threads i read on TMS were from 2011. Does anyone have some updated information on TMS? Has anyone had it done? I have a friend thats about to have it done in the next couple weeks, and I was thinking about it for myself. I just was wondering if anyone here had it done?

I was just going off the recent thread that talked about marriage partners expecting sex. I didn't want to hijack that thread so I thought I'd start a different one. I have never had sex beyond when I was raped and abused as a child. I wonder how many other people are in that category? To me...

Hi all....I just got out of the hospital because of my most recent self injury. I am trying to move forward, but it seems like I always take 2 steps back. I'm the type that doesn't trust anyone to stay very long. They leave as quick as they come. That's been the MO. The problem is, my new...

Just wondering if its my OCD or if other people feel guilty after saying things about their past in therapy? I saw my therapist today and told her things I never said before. I never talk about anything because of the fear of being wrong. Mostly this is something I have had from childhood. I...

I couldn't find another thread in here with both so I figured I'd start another one. I was using one in place of another. I would self harm so I wouldn't drink. Then I would drink so I wouldn't self harm. Now I have moved to the point that I am doing both. It sucks because my threshold is high...

I wonder if others have a hard time dealing with the fact that they aren't Mothers or have families of their own? Do you always have to do something just for your Mom though you are a grown up woman who wants afamily of your own? I always thought I would eventually have a family but I am so...

I am wondering if other people worked in jobs where they had to deal with people who had PTSD and psychological illnesses and were supposed to help those people or interact with them in any way? I worked in a job where I was trained in psychological illnesses and how to deal with people that I...

I am wondering if it's worse for you to hear the surprise in a therapist's voice when you tell your story? Does it change the way your therapist - client relationship goes? What happens when they say things like you are the worst case I have heard? Does that make it easier to talk to them and be...

The only person I can really relate to in the world is this person who spent 6 months in a state hospital with me for childhood sexual abuse. We both should never have been there, but didn't have the money to pay for private care. We got lost in the state system and that's a long miserable...

I was sexually abused for most of my childhood by family members. Not to mention emotionally abused. I decided after I was 12, and stopped myself from committing suicide, that I would only do useful things for society. I wanted to work in law enforcement and put people in jail. That worked well...

I'm wondering after a recent post if I'm even doing the correct therapy. On an online support group a Psychologist told me that the only thing that truly work for PTSD was Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). I know CBT from my OCD therapy and he's talking about exposure therapy. Right now I'm...

I was just wondering if anyone here has been sent to a State Hospital for PTSD? In Massachusetts if you can't pay your insurance or hospital bill, no matter what your diagnosis, they send you to a state hospital. Believe me it makes the trauma ten fold worse then when you went in. They don't...