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    I Finaly Understand My Purpose.

    I have been here before. As I looked back at my life and pondered all the ups and downs. All the light and all the dark. I realized; that I am very old in regard to the flow of time. My spirit has always been vibrant beyound the colors. But; I am like a reluctant rock standing in the great...
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    Death This Is My Breath !

    When I went the Ronin way sheading my skin, you asked me why, why why? Hell all the diamonds and gold won't say it true! Time stands still... hearts beating black; Stumbling down like fools, Bending down on my sunshine. So I hang my breath, I embrace my death! Hell yeah; now you have my Buckskin...
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    I Am Surprised I Am Still Around...

    This is the end~ For the true colors I adore, falling down all the doors... Deep blue and flowing down; Beneath, the Catholicism dancing under the skin... What was the only Sin? Was it my turned down light; was it your turned down eye, or was it all just a lie??? Hell; you have to love your...
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    I Am Still Running Through The Night!

    Please tell my heart to stay! Hell I was 12 years old running down the night. The old quide marridian road. Creatures of the night were sniffing down my trail. Hunting me with a thirst of souls. My heart told me to keep on running don't stop go. I ran the souls of my shoes off, pounding...
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    Why Don't They See Me?

    Damn and double damn, they still don't know me! For my Family... I was a thousand miles away when that God damn phone rang. The Rine Stone Cowboy was playing on the vinal. The damn phone rang and my heart stopped. Not one damn word; just a dead ring, I already knew you see. Grandpa and I...
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    It Burns Me Deep!

    What burns me is that all life is sacred. From breath till death and beyound. We all must find our way back or fade. Let love rule and hold on tight, because it's going to be one hell of a ride!
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    They Burnt Holes In My Soul !

    In case you did not know something very important about me: I am a survivor; I never give up no matter how deep the wound or despairing the pain. I not only pick my broken self up; I lend a helping hand to others that have fallen down. I never quit a job unless I was promoted or career...
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    I Am The

    Hell I never met my match when I flame on. I am scared of me there. My fire belongs to me. Time for me to chill down and sliw my flow. Let love rule one heart beat at a time. Till the light within calms the storm!
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    The Sun Is Shining Above The Clouds...

    My story began in the darkness of humanity. Sorrow consumed me and hardend my persona. Fear controlled me and enshrouded my heart. Madness shattered my mind and divided my soul i to bits and peaces. Yet, love saved me and calmed the storm. I am very greatful for the beautiful ones in my...
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    I Am Slipping Back And I Am Afraid.

    I am so afraid of that dark place after all these years. I never spoke of it, I just ran away from the nightmare and would not let anyone in. I do not like the person I became to cover up and hide the terror. Eventualy I had to face that part of me and love myself back into the light...
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    Hell I Guess It Is All Candy Cane And Christmas Trees Then.

    This is the sound of silence and it is the only sound within my soul. These words stand still beneath my sorrow!
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    Canticle

    I Forgive You, Please Stay I had to face her blood demons down and hold her close to my light within. I swam across time and dove through the undertow. She is with me now and all you blood demons can kiss my feet!
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    You Wanted Me To Carry These Wounds In Silence, Well Hell No; Them Days Are Long Gone Beneath Me!

    Hell yeah I took the night down and ran all the tables. I rode the nightmare to the ground and put on the hearts smiles in the light of day for you. A simple thank you would be right as rain!
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    Life Is A Walking Contradiction!

    I know life meant well to reach out. I just dont thtnk it understands how too connect with me. I have always wanted to be a part of your life. But I am too broken to connect with the world. We are so very different despite our kindred spirits. Mist look back at childhood and see the good...
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    I Will Follow You Down

    You are not alone! The storm will listen to my howl and calm the chill beneath. Our beating drum will echo soul to soul, and breathe the soothing fire within. This night will embrace the heaven sky, and time will stand still.. Rest your sorrows there and turn down the pain. Let the storm...
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    If You Are Going Through Hell Keep On Moving!

    I have been alone for all my years with this heavy stone of burdens. Very few could break through all my fear and goodbye tears. It was no easy endeavor for me to put on a smile and do the dance. Yet, I would fake it till I made it for the gratification of my job, loved ones and society...
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    Struggling To Breathe, Afraid To Trust And Ready To Turn Down Thr Night!

    My trigger is ancient, I have survived the constant sorrows and struggled to subdue the raging storm. The light my soul has faded down and I am lost again. I am not afraid of the wild shadows, I rode my nightmare through the darkest night and said hell yeah with a grin. Adrenaline helped me...
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    Ptsd, Dd And My Long Dust Road!

    Chaos put it's strings on my soul before I opened my eyes to this world. My Father was madness and my Mother was insanity... My Mother was diagnosed with manic depression; "that is what it was called back then" she also suffered PPD... My father was hell fire beyound control and beyound the...
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    Other Intro: I Have Harbored This Storm Of Sorrows Forever It Seems. I Have Seen To Many Dark Days.

    PTSD was not understood when my soul was shattered as a child. Blood demons put a curse on me and there was not help in the way of psychology back then. Unfortunately I had ti work it out within my spirit and my soul had to harbor the burden. It took my many tormented years to calm the storm...
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