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I swear my abuser can sneeze and the person who wipes his nose will tell me every excruciating detail. I found out a whole bunch of new things about his family today that I wasn't aware of. Apparently, every school teacher in my area knows them because they're so bats**t insane, the parents AND...

In Australia at the moment, there's a petition gaining a lot of movement to block the visa of a particularly awful rape apologist who wants to hold meetings of "like-minded men". Ew. So everyone's outraged, and some people are sending around things from the guy's website. Awful articles, awful...

I've been doing SO well, trigger-wise, up until the last two weeks. A combination of drug side-effects, injuries, pain, friend drama just made me super vulnerable. When you guys isolate yourselves in response to stress, anxiety, whatever it is that makes you do it, who's the first person to go...

Hey guys, So my T is starting to think my mum might have some form of OCD. Maybe. My whole life she's stressed over the tiniest little things WAY too much (for example, which way the towels go in the linen cupboard) and I've always felt like I can't live up to her standards. Whenever I go away...

You guys, I'm scared! The last time I went to parties out in the city with a significant other, they ended... poorly. Once, he threw up all over my car. Other times he tried to undress me and touch me in front of our friends. And then there were the times when he flirted with other people in...

I wish people understood how big the "little" things are in terms of flashbacks. Sometimes I don't go back to the exact point of sexual assault. Sometimes I go back to the days he was grooming me. Those were a different type of traumatic, but traumatic all the same. But it's almost as f people...

I know it's kind of a "duh" question. Just looking for some support and/or validation. My PTSD was caused by sexual assault, but the panic, flashbacks etc was all set off when I found out my partner (at the time) had cheated on me. We tried to work on it for a while but he'd just keep going...

Having been seeing my T for over a year now, we've delved into some stuff from my childhood that I don't ever think about. I know I was abused as a little kid by a variety of childcare workers (one after-school-care lady who used to terrify the crap out of us and occasionally locked kids in her...

Hi guys, I've thought that one of my best friends might have had feelings for me for a while, and tonight he made it pretty darn obvious. You know, compliments, finding every reason to be near me/hug me etc, all that jazz. We went driving to look at all the pretty Christmas lights together. I'm...

My older brother got married yesterday to a lovely woman, and my whole family was really super happy. Everything went perfectly and beautifully, I had no anxiety or anything, up until we realised this morning that the stupid photographer didn't take ANY photos of my family together. NOTHING of...

Sometimes I wonder if specific memories contributed to my trauma, or if they're just a bad memory associated with my abuser. Does the fact that he abused me mean that all my bad memories of him contribute in their own little way to the trauma, or is there a distinction between traumatic and...

So I've been on 75mg of Zoloft for several months now (no more than 6) and I didn't take my dose this morning (chemists were closed and I ran out, silly me). I've been shaking quite a bit today (muscle spasms, mostly in my hands but also to the point where I couldn't walk for a while) and I feel...

It's a trauma anniversary for me, and I'm sick. Ugh. It means I can't see anyone, I feel too gross to talk to anyone about it. I've been thinking about the assholes of my past a lot this week, and it's only just clicked that it's linked to everyone talking about Halloween all week. Somehow...

For something close to 8 years I've somehow been the person that attracts all the "troubled souls". I remember when I was 16, juggling three different conversations with suicidal friends at once at midnight on a school night. My parents would yell at me for staying up late and I'd cry because I...

My trauma is from sexual and emotional abuse, not combat or a car crash etc. But about half an hour ago someone in my area set off fireworks (illegally, but hey) and I got super paranoid. I'm really hypervigilant right now and I'd really just like to hide behind the curtains at my front window...

So today I was told that I have an auto-immune disorder. Which is the reason I've been in pain pretty much every day my whole life. This pain etc has considerably contributed to my mental health issues since I was quite depressed as a child, never fitting it because I couldn't run like the other...

You guys know the type, right... "my boyfriend broke up with me and I was really sad so now I have PTSD" or "somebody said something mean to me this one time and now I have PTSD" or "oh my gosh you have PTSD? Me TOO! Like this one time, I was really embarrassed because..." Admittedly, my...

There's a particular movie coming out next year based on a particular book and I feel like a fair amount of people on here are going to have the same struggle as me over the next few months so, here goes... I scrolled down my facebook news feed this evening to find that my cousin and other...

So I've just gone back on Zoloft for anxiety because all the usual grounding techniques etc aren't working as well as I'd like. The last time I was on it I wasn't 18 yet and therefore didn't touch alcohol. But... now I'm 20 and going out and drinking with my friends is a fun part of life (not...

HELP. The title basically says it all. She's a girl I've met once or twice, I'm told she's had self-esteem issues. And she's been chasing my abuser for years (he's good at being "charming"), despite him being quite mean to her in the past. I don't want her to get hurt like I did. But nobody in...

Hi guys, I signed up yesterday and thought I'd ask something that's been on my mind for a while. Sometime between the age of 16 and 17 I got into a relationship with an older man who very quickly started displaying all your usual signs of abuse... isolating me from friends/family, destroying my...

For years I've had really vivid nightmares... not realistic ones but really seriously violent, horror-movie worthy ones. But they were never about real situations that I've actually been in. Some involved friends getting hurt or killed and they were really distressing. But over the last couple...

So I have a friend who has recently been diagnosed as Borderline. She has anxiety issues and panic attacks too but... hers a different to mine. Hers happen because of things she did with men that she completely consented to, and were generally normal (so random hookups etc). Plus ALL of my...

I posted a little while ago about how I was struggling to let go of my ex (not my abuser, but the guy who SAVED me from my abuser) after he cheated on me with 5 different people. I felt like I needed him to be happy because the only happiness I've known for about 5 years has been while he's been...

I've been dealing with panic attacks and flashbacks which threatened to basically paralyse me in life since April last year, after escaping my traumatic situation in April the previous year. Things like songs, being intimate with other people, revisiting certain places set me off and have...