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When all the red and pink comes out to play just after the "thrill" of Christmas, I feel bitter and angry and anxious all at the same time. I was attacked on Valentine's day, and I find it so horrid that everyone seems to love this holiday, even looking forward to it, when all I want to do is...

After I made a post about being overwhelmed by the space in adult coloring books, I realized I've always had trouble connecting spaces and spacial awareness. I'm almost 16 and still shut down whenever someone asks me which way is left. It took me until I was 9 to remember what "behind" was, and...

I have 4 adult coloring books given to me over birthdays and holidays from the past few years. The only problem is I can NEVER bring myself to do anything more than stare at the pages and get overwhelmed. I start thinking about all the potential there is to mess up and I don't see these stupid...

As I've restarted my self-harm free life, I seem to have taken a liking to touching and picking at my face. I know it's bad for me and it doesn't look pretty after I do it but it calms me down. I feel as if I'm detoxifying myself. It's a strange new addiction. I just don't know how to stop now...

For some reason I feel like I'll never be truly better. I feel like everyone around me who knows about my ptsd/bpd/Addictive personality/ all my other problems is just sticking around b/c they pity me. I feel as if I don't truly belong anywhere. Everyone says I'm physically showing improvement...

So I have struggled with being a GIGANTIC pushover as long as I can remember, to the point where my best friend is teaching me how to be assertive. We haven't been able to make much progress until today. So, someone he almost dated (but she turned around and dated someone else after blatantly...

Last night I had a gigantic wave of self hatred. I had to do it. It was itching to get out. I got a blade from one of my thousands of pencil sharpeners (I'm an artist) and I relapsed. I have maybe 15 cuts on my thigh now. I wasted a year. I threw it all away in less than 5 minutes. I can't...

I'm almost 16 years old, and for 4 years my parents have been denying me any kind of mental health help. They've always told me I was faking it and that I needed to deal with my problems on my own. Ever since I can remember I've had some obsessive compulsive tendencies. I get addicted to...

I'm a year clean from self harm... yet lately I've been fighting strong urges to cut, burn, scratch, and pick my skin. I've been crying for up to an hour on the daily. The entire months of January-March are going to be very difficult, as they are the anniversaries of several repeated sexual...

Last year over the course of January-March, I was raped 8 times (maybe more that I fail to remember because of memory repression) by my ex. It's approaching the 1 year mark and because of school, I am forced to see him 5 days a week. As the 1 year mark approaches, I've been getting more and more...

Lately, my nightmares have faded and somewhat disappeared. But on Monday night, I had a nightmare like none I've ever had before. Like I have made clear, I am a spiritually inclined person. But I wasn't always that way. An ex from two years ago who I have not seen, heard from, or talked to...

lately, I have been WAY more spiritual. I have been feeling a lot of odd sensations, and having some emotional experiences. I have been reading into earth angel symptoms, and I believe I am an earth angel. Evidence? There are many signs of being an earth angel but I will list the top 6. 1...

As of January 18th I will be a total of 1 year clean. I have struggled with an addiction to self harm for a while, so this is huge. I've never been able to make it past 4 months without giving in. I'm so proud of myself!

In my last relationship I was severely emotionally abused and raped 8 different times by my ex. He never stopped. Now I realize what drew him in was me trying to impress other people by acting like a dark and mysterious person. I had a sudden identity crisis and now I have no idea who I am or...

Hey there everyone. My name is Juniper (junie for short) and I am new here. I was diagnosed about a month ago with clinical anxiety, clinical depression, borderline personality disorder, and severe ptsd. I am recovering from 3 different cases of abuse. The first behind Physical and emotional...