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Yeah, that "sit in a chair, relax, breathe, visualize" is what my previous therapist/social worker had me do. Also, I know it may be hard to say, but how many months along in your recovery do you think you'll be able to do the staying still yoga? This has me thinking, in my adjunct horse...

Yeah, I don't know. I was going to start yoga today but didn't go. Maybe that was for the best. Derealization has gotten worse today, and exhaustion has set in. Maybe need a break of some sort? Also based on DSM criteria I recently read, I think PTSD may be a stretch? Definitely there was...

Well, I isolated yesterday. I told myself I was going to have in-person contact with someone every day. Fell short. Also didn't eat enough or exercise. If I can't even do self care properly, how am I going to move beyond that (rhetorical)? Back in the saddle again today. Well, so far I...

@EveHarrington Thanks Eve. :)

Hi Guys I've created threads in Discussion and Dissociation but thought I would introduce myself. So anyway, my diagnoses are bipolar II, upped diagnosis of depression to severe without psychotic features, new diagnoses of anxiety, PTSD, dissociative disorder/derealization. I think that's it...

Simply Simon, no advice beyond what Ms Spock has to say, and lots of encouragement. And I agree about the drugs/alcohol. I know at your (presumed) age, drinking/drugs is part of the social scene for many. I know it was for me, even in law school. Would at least minimizing the use be workable?

Wow Ms Spock, stellar post! I'm going to refer to it for inspiration. You really tell it like it is.

lostforgottensoul, I'm really glad you worked this out with your therapist. I already terminated so I guess I'm starting over again. I have only seen him 6 times or so. I think I understand more about the concept. Thank you. I had a lot of one night stands when I was drunk and in my 20s...

Sorry this happened to you Freedomfighter. Well he definitely has me thinking. I think it will just take time. I hope thoughts about the ordeal will become a distant memory soon. Time has got to be on my side.

Thanks Silver. I have an appointment with a GP tomorrow. Hopefully she can tell me what's wrong.

Thanks a lot :)

I have been in a state of derealization, 24/7, for about 3 months. This is not voluntary, it just started one day. It has become my new normal. I am sort of concerned because periodically it starts first as itchy genitals, labia and above my clit. Then comes the vaginal pain. It is not a...

Thanks Joeylittle. I guess I will need a female therapist. My recent abuser has lead me to think that all men are pigs just sizing me up for potential sexual interaction and objectify me (although not thinking that about you now) . I know this isn't true. I know there are plenty of men out...

Sarahbellum, just a P.S. here. I finally found an article on the dangers of meditation. I think in my email to my therapist I will ask him if he's certain that at this stage I am ready for meditation/guided imagery, etc. I appreciate those of you who have brought all of this to my attention...

Hi sarahbellum, I have been searching online but don't see anything on when it's appropriate to begin relaxation exercises. Could you please explain? Thanks. :)

Thanks lostforgottensoul. Kind of complex (the Psychiatric Times article especially) I really perceive my therapist as someone who knows what he's doing in terms of trauma work (except trying to move me forward with meditation/relaxation apparently) except am worried the therapeutic...

will check it out thanks. Now I feel afraid to go to sleep tonight. Have never felt this way before. Feel like I will make myself vulnerable. Or feel like I won't wake up. I think I may email my T and ask him for a referral to a woman who is experienced in trauma. Not sure the reason I'll...

Well, I attempted to read the first article that came up. It was from Psychiatric Times and when I went to the second page, it asked me to obtain a membership so I've abandoned the article. Thanks for mentioning it though. :)

I will do that google search again. As is obvious, I'm really thrown off guard and weirded about this. It feels like yet another thing to worry about. Back here editing. I've slowed down a bit here and reread lostforgottensoul's first post. I didn't take it in the first time. Now actually...

I'm glad you are somewhat understanding now. :) If erotic transference is going on, I will remain in denial. I am not attracted to my T in the least and sure as hell hope he is not sexually attracted to me. In fact, I get "perve" vibes from him. If I feel the urge to masturbate during next...

Hugs back to you HaveFaith. :) I am not attracted in the least to my therapist. Stumped. Not sure I believe it but I will digest. Do you mind me asking if sexual assault is part of your history?

Thanks for the hugs ladee :) I don't remember what I told him afterwards about my feelings. My memory is so horrible with this PTSD that I can't even remember what I told him about how I felt, really. I will never be able to talk to him about sex related stuff. I need a gay man or...

Thanks for your responses guys. I am so confused and overwhelmed about sex/masturbation at this point. I feel like it is disgusting and dirty. I have been "normal" and mainstream sexually for 49 years up until being with him (nothing against people who have "spicy" sex lives). For the past...

Hi everyone. This probably isn't in the right section but here goes. Please know that I am not a troll and have legit things to say/ I have been lurking for quite some time and now want to share. Don't want to share too much about my abuse yet (childhood and recent). New to trauma therapy...