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I'm grateful for myself and poetry

Tired but hopeful

Today I felt ill with fever yet I still wanted to go with my boyfriend to a wedding, as it's been a long time I haven't been to a wedding. Anyway it's a small thing. My family nagged me to stay at home which is fine. But then my grandmother got all up with her usual negativity. She blamed me...

Some of the things I'm proud of; - Being able to smile during a tough time. - Being able to recite poetry in public. - People I care about in my life. It's only a few for now, as I'm feeling overwhelmed but thank you for the suggestions.

Dead Link Removed, I think I'm feeling that 'avalanche.' I'm in some sort of race, trying to recover but feeling overwhelmed at the same time. Suzetig, thank you for the reply. By certain standards, I feel that I am doing well compared to the past, but I still feel so overwhelmed and somehow...

Today and lately, I still feel like a ''loser'', even when doing small, personal steps towards self-recovery. Even when reminding myself of things I've achieved, I still feel like a loser. I get thoughts like,'' you don't make friends easily'' or ''your bullies were right in the past, remember...

Water -- as this is obviously really necessary in this world. Drinking water helps me. My poetry and just getting lost in random TV series.

I am grateful for my own warmth, my warm smile.

I would like to thank you all for your kind responses. You make such a difference in this world. Thank you for your kindness when I hit a low point in life.

I am too exhausted, too tired. I accept that I'm not and will never be enough, I accept that okay and I'm sorry. But I'm just tired and want the pain to go away.

I'm just useless and can't do anything right.

I feel like I'm the most useless sack of trash in the entire world, without exaggeration.

It sounds really tough.. I am very sorry that you are going through all of this. It is good that you turn to art as an outlet, art can be very therapeutic in a lot of forms.

- I am grateful for the orange juice I drank - I am grateful for drinking water - I am grateful for my loving partner - I am grateful that I have grown stronger and more independent

I am really sorry for what you have gone through, it sounds very difficult. You have great strength in you to be reaching out here and writing down some of your innermost thoughts. Do you have any friends or other family who at least check on you from time to time?

I thought that.. with ptsd and all, it's most likely that a number of us are too hard on ourselves. So this thread is to write goals that relate to being extra kind to yourself. I'll start: 1) I will be more appreciative of the soothing sounds that I listen to. My favorite sounds consist...

I am aware that it is irrational, but I still feel some form of internalized shame for my flashbacks. I still have flashbacks of certain people who bullied me, of what they said, even though those words were many years ago. It wasn't really what they said that bothered me, I am generally an...

I'm sorry for what you're going through. It's understandable that you feel like you're going through a completely tough time. Reliving trauma and flashbacks can be so difficult, even without the already added stress of certain day-to-day responsibilities. And it gets scary when our trust in...

I play a lot of video games too..And I rely on my partner's company. I've lost contact with a number of my old friends. I also do things like research on issues I care about as I want to apply for further studies and I also listen to soothing sounds (one of my favorites is soothing underwater...

Hey, I have had gone through burnout and exhaustion. At times I feel like I internalize messages like,''I need to get ahead in what I do,fast , and everything needs to go smoothly'' and lately I try to help myself more by reminding myself that I need to be gentler or more appreciative with...

''Sounds silly that a grown man would not know how to do that.'' Why would you say that? I don't think emotional expressiveness, even in form of understanding and validating feelings when necessary, should be gendered or even considered 'childish.' But I am aware it's not everyone's way . I...

A current goal: I will be more appreciative of the soothing sounds that I listen to

Indoors as in do you mean plastic roses in the living room? If yes, then I still think it's good :) The little good things can be more meaningful than we once thought. I haven't seen the butterfly hug.. Yes I have anxiety and PTSD :hug:

I think that's understandable.. Nature is beautiful, and if we don't take the time to savor the roses or beautiful sights, then when? At times the little things in life can be more meaningful than we once thought. I am having anxiety myself and am (trying to be) more committed towards self...

I don't think it's 'freakish', you are simply struggling with identifying yourself or your inner child :) It's understandable.