Grateful for all the messages of support I received here, but too exhausted to tag each person who reached out. Sending hugs your way, if that's okay.
Mom passed this morning. I managed to find some masks and the confidence it took that made it possible for me to be by her side the last few days.
I camped out with her at the hospice house she was moved to yesterday and she made it until 11:50 this morning. So grateful she no longer has to suffer and grateful beyond words that her last moments weren't in that f'd up nursing home nor in the hospital that kept getting so many wires crossed creating even more stress and chaos.
Those hospice folks were the most caring compassionate beings I've ever encountered in a medical setting. My feathered friends accompanied me along the entire journey as well, even hanging out right outside mom's window both days. Rest in peace, sweet mama. May I be at least half as strong as you've been.