I was attacked by a tradie from the Insurance Company last December

[ms spock]

I was attacked, in the house, by a tradie from the Insurance Company who was here, after ongoing damage from the Cyclone/Fire last December. I reported it.

I can't go in there at this time.

It's been many, many months since I can stay in there for any amount of time.

I can't manage this right now.

I have been living in a caravan, the last 12 months, before other emergency housing
which is the emergency housing after the Cyclone and another house burning down and causing extra damage to the house.

There's still no kitchen, laundry or furniture in the house. There are other things that need to be fixed. Before it is liveable.
The end of my relationship with my psychiatrist is very messy.

And a whole lot of other stuff is going on.
My car died.
I am running on empty.
I am eating.
I am going to therapy with my trauma informed counsellor.
I am online chatting to folks.
I am binge watching TV series.
I feel like I am hanging by a thread.
I am beyond my capacity to cope.

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

I’m sorry, that’s an awful thing for someone to do, especially in your situation.

Even having strangers in the block of flats I live in is very anxiety inducing for me and my functionality declines fast when professionals/tradies are around. In my flat is even worse... and that’s when nothing adverse is happening to me.
I’m not surprised that experience has barred the house from you.
Your nervous system must be shot, from all of the above.

It’s high in our hierarchy of needs to have shelter/somewhere safe and secure to be.
You have that in negative amounts, on top of the situation with your psych, challenges with the caravan feeling secure, the insurance company… etc.


I don’t have any advice but this is absolute crap for you and it is not strange at all that you are feeling so run into the ground by it all.


Is there anywhere you can go just to get away from everything for a bit? Even just a field to stand in for a while. I know your car makes this harder and change of environment might feel unmanageable ATM… your environment seems mired in stress, I’d want even a few minutes to not be there.


Really sorry, rooting for you.