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Hi, Two weeks ago, my psychiatrist added 50 mg of seroquel (immediate release) at bedtime, and 10 mg of lexapro to my 300 mg of Wellbutrin. Both were for PTSD/MDD combo dx. I was expecting some side effects from starting two new drugs, but I am just sleepy all the time! I take a nap whenever...

No, that's a great question, thanks. When I first started posting on this forum, I was pretty low & on the verge of losing my job due to illness (persistent infection related to organ damage sustained in one of my traumas), but I saw a bunch of specialists, got put on new (very expensive) drugs...

I finally got in to see a psychiatrist last week. I'd been feeling mostly recovered from my depression - I'm not crying every damn day anymore. But the psychiatrist administered a depression inventory and said that I'm still moderately depressed, so he added lexapro (10 mg) and seroquel (50 mg)...

I'm really happy with the quetiapine so far. I'm able to fall asleep without needing total silence (which never happens where I live). I'm still waking up before my alarm but I'm waking more gradually, not leaping out of bed ready for a fight. And the tension in my back and shoulders has...

I start quetiapine tonight. My psychiatrist is switching me from risperidone, which didn't seem to be helping much, and was also messing up my blood panels. I was put on it because I have trouble getting to sleep, trouble staying asleep, and nightmares - but not flashback-type nightmares right...

I'm not sure when it started but it's been years for sure. Shortly after the trauma(s), I'd have dreams that were basically replays of the traumatic events. When those stopped happening so often, I started getting the disaster nightmares instead. Sometimes the dreams are less frequent (a...

I've had to accept that there's no way to become the normal person that I would have been if the abuse and other trauma hadn't happened. And I'm trying to believe that the person I've become by working with my trauma is someone worthy and lovable.

I have nightmares like that about 3 nights a week. Usually it's about witnessing someone being injured or killed and not being able to prevent it. It's hard for me to express how distressing these dreams are for me. My therapist doesn't get it at all; if I bring the topic of nightmares up he...

Hey, that's exactly where I was last year. I had to give my meds to a friend to dish out so my T knew I wouldn't OD (I was this close to being hospitalised). I hope that things get better for you. I also have PTSD, not borderline. And I'm in a much more stable place today, though I still feel...

The Wellbutrin's working great. I started to feel better after about 3 weeks on the 300 mg dose. I was on 150 mg for 2 weeks before that, which did nothing. I didn't notice any side effects at all - unfortunately weight loss was not a side effect for me! There was no dramatic difference in...

So I made my therapist cry last time. Just a little bit, and I didn't know how to react, so I didn't say anything, and neither did he. Now I feel bad about it. I'm seeing him again tomorrow and I'm a little worried that he thinks I'm a bad / difficult client. This is the first time a...

Once a week, and that feels like a lot. I can't imagine going more often - I find therapy sessions very uncomfortable. Maybe I'm doing it wrong?

I can talk about the accident and the physical abuse. I don't talk about the rape. Thinking about discussing it with my T this week. I don't think that I've mentioned it on the forum before today either.

Prednisone is the devil. It does work really well and quickly for reducing inflammation, but it makes me so weepy and paranoid and unable to sleep. I can point to a couple of broken friendships that were all the fault of this horrible drug.

Hi, I've been noticing a troubling trend in my thinking, which is basically that, in my mind, I make negative events much worse than they really are. For example, if someone gets mad at me, I believe that they will hate me forever and basically stop interacting with them. If someone says...

I've been told by my therapist to call him if I'm in crisis. I don't see myself ever calling him.

Hi, I was in a similar position about 2 months ago. I only managed to avoid hospitalisation by making a bargain with my T that I'd give my sharp objects & more dangerous prescription meds to a friend for safekeeping. It was incredibly embarrassing and also a great relief. But yeah, I really...

Yes! Tell her. My therapist seems to actually like it when I say that I'm mad at him. He thinks that it helps build the therapeutic relationship, or some crap like that. It can be practice for constructively expressing my negative emotions with other people in my life.

Hi Hypothermia, I've been struggling with SI recently too. One thing that my therapist and I figured out about it is that the SIB is closely linked to my feelings of shame and self-hatred, and to a belief that I deserve to be punished. One thing that's been helping (slowly) is that I'm trying...

Thank you all so very much for your kind words and good advice. @sun seeker I think you're right, but doesn't it seem weird that I'm in crisis mode now, 10 years after the accident? My therapist says that job loss & long illness are stressful for anyone, but most people don't have trauma like...

I guess it felt as though my job was all that I had left. I was never in any foster home long enough to develop real relationships. I'm back in touch with my birth parents but they are still addicted so there's not much help there. I used to have an uncle I was close to but he died. My...

I flinch at loud noises and when I'm touched. I can't relax and concentrate if I don't have a clear view of the exit, or if anyone is behind me. I shut down and stare blankly into the middle distance when confronted by someone else's anger. I get nervous and try to leave if I ever find myself...

Thank you for answering, FridayJones. I had one child, but she died in the accident, and her father left me while I was in the rehab centre. I was not at fault in the accident - in the end no one was held responsible, but I was explicitly not at fault. I don't know why I had to say that. I...

Hi, I guess that I'm extra-sensitive to feeling unwanted after my experiences in foster care. Thing is, my job was really super important to me. After losing my family, it was all that I had. I was demoted and transferred after getting hospital sick due to damage sustained in my traumatic...

At the end of last week's session, my T said "There's really nothing wrong with you." I said, "If that's true, then why am I in therapy?" And he said, "Because you're going through something that no one can deal with alone." Then I cried a lot.