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I feel for you. I really do. I've just started with a new T who does a lot of body centred work i.e. SE and Hakomi. I've just got to work up the courage to talk about this with her, and although our therapeutic relationship is building really well, I'm just not there yet. I think thats the...

Its so hard hey. I try to be rational about it. Why worry about something that I can't even be certain about. But these tiny little fragments leave me feeling so crap. So crap that I even have to be careful brushing my teeth, because if I gag, I get hit with one of them...but I didn't used to...

I was abused by my uncle around the ages of 4-5 years old. I've always had memories of one part of the abuse, but was able to shove it into the back of my mind and pretend that it was all good and that it didn't bother me...that worked great..until it didn't. My world kind of fell apart. I...

Im a massage therapist. When my symptoms were really bad I stopped getting any treatment myself because of flashbacks when anyone touched me. My body suffered so much, but I was too scared to have a treatment, get caught in a flash back and the therapist not understanding what I was going...

All good! I do the same thing sometimes!

I didn't actually have any anxiety regarding getting a response to the email - and I didn't post here what her response was - just that it was a lovely response. I agree, T's shouldn't HAVE to respond to emails. They are human, and have lives outside the therapy room just like everyone else. I...

I sent it, and she replied last night...a really lovely reply. I've only started with this T recently - after the events yesterday and her response to my email, I feel like we're on the right track with out therapeutic relationship. Ugh - gotta say though, I feel wiped out today...what a...

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate your reply's. They have helped to shift some of the guilt I was feeling earlier...but I still feel the need to say something. I'm about to hit send on this.... "I just want to say thank you for today. In the past I've often found myself conscious of trying...

I had a bit of a shocker today. I had a bad flashback this morning before my appointment and went to therapy in a bit of a bad way. T helped ground me, and we started working through some stuff and doing parts work. Towards the end of session, something in me let go and a memory came flooding...

Sorry for the delayed response on this... I had my second appointment with my new T last week and it was pretty groundbreaking. I wish I could explain the experience better, but it felt like my body completed actions it wanted to do all those years ago, but couldn't. Being mindful of a certain...

I guess for me, I'd reached a place where Ive felt "stuck"....almost like I've run out of words, but there is so much that feels like its stored in my body. The Hakomi is a really body oriented approach, using mindfulness to get curios about different tensions you hold, postures you...

I had first appointment with new T the other day who is a Hakomi therapist, and is also training in SE Just from that first session, I feel as though I'm going to get a lot out of it.

I had an absolutely amazing T who I saw for a little over 12 months, but reached a point where it was like I didn't have any words left. I still feel so much in relation to my trauma, but its like there are all these feelings and things trapped inside me still, and yet I have no words for them...

I'm seeing my T tomorrow, and I'm due to go see my GP to get another mental health care plan...so I was thinking tomorrow I'm going to say "When I see my GP, would it be fair to say I need another care plan because I have PTSD?" I may also entirely chicken out though :-/

My thoughts have actually been going in the same direction lately. My T refers to PTSD quite frequently and gives me things to read regarding it, but has never actually said "you have it" For some reason I've always been really scared of diagnosis, and I think she knows that, but I'm beginning...

I get terrible night sweats too. Most of the time they are associated with nightmares/flashbacks, but sometimes I'll wake up drenched in sweat panicking, but don't have any memory of a dream. Most nights I sleep on a towel now because its so bad. Fun times :-/

This means a lot today @A little lost Thank you for thinking of me. I'm sorry you had your ass kicked. spend some time to rest before you dust yourself off and go into battle again. And you will eventually win the war. I brought my demons into the light yesterday. As much as I know I needed to...

This is an awesome analogy. Thank you for sharing. Good luck as you face the demons tomorrow. I will be thinking of you and sending strength your way. No matter what, just keep getting back up. Every knock down is just another opportunity to learn and grow. Slay the demons.

Wow....your post could pretty much be me talking. I totally get you with pretty much everything you just said. Don't know about you, but I've even had moments of questioning if I'm just trying to re-traumatise myself by saying it...but I just feel like i really need it out. I listened to this...

I still feel a bit strange that I did/do this, but it seems to help me. I set up an email address, and I write to "her". Along the way its helped me to remember some of the good times of my childhood. It reminds me that my child self was actually pretty amazing, and its helped me connect with...

About a year ago my marriage broke up. Not long after that it was like a vault opened in my brain and everything I had kept locked up in there regarding my childhood abuse exploded. Functioning became hard. Nightmares started. Flashbacks. Dissociation. Anxiety. Depression....its been a rough...

Good idea...I dissociate when its too much too. Thanks for the support. Will let you know how it goes :)

I had a night out camping last night. Just me, a fire and my swag. Getting back to basics always clears my head, and makes everything feel less complicated. I sent my T an email telling her how I felt after our session last week and that I was frustrated at not being able to say it. Also told...

Thank you so much for sharing this. It's great that you were able to share and that it feels like a weight off your chest. Well done. Keep going, keep growing, and keep healing

Thank you all so much. All of your responses have reminded me that its ok...that I'm ok. That just starting this journey is brave, and its ok to stumble, and its ok to take it slow. Sometimes the most meaningful journeys take the longest time. I tend to lose sight of that sometimes.