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My anger is a hold out for the past few days. I am angry I let someone's mean and vindictive actions toward me shake me up to the point of having a night terror. To which my BF woke me up and I had a bad reaction to being awakened and hurt his feelings. I am angry that since that point I have...

@Tanishq - Thank you for your support and encouragement. I continue to write and work for now just for myself. I am working on getting to a place I can share

For me I ask until I can understand it. I need to keep asking why until it makes sense. It sometimes feels like a compulsion, I keep asking instead of stopping and processing. I know it isn't always the best thing to do but I can't always seem to stop myself. This is especially true when it...

Funny! I can't help but agree. We are north of the worst of this storm but I know exactly what you mean. I used to work in a grocery store in the small rural town where I grew up and a storm forecast meant good business and extra hours.

I started to put my journal entry on my computer. I guess for me this is step one of being ready to share it. I am finding that in the first page or two I am feeling more and remembering more. I think it might be a good 2 step process for me to write it out and then add more details and edit...

@FridayJones I read the article. Thank you for pointing me to it.

In this case I was journaling my story, its part of the process I am working through. There were 9 points about the experience I was writing about. I journal about other feelings and things as well but this was a specific journal experience that had me pondering. I was looking for responses...

After doing a personal trauma journal (not on the forum) yesterday about one of my traumas I had 2 observations. 1. That by not typing my experience and feelings I could clearly define moments of greater anxiety based on how my handwriting changed. I didn't realize in the moment it was...

So I have been trying to do a better job of journaling. I am working on my traumas this way at this time. I journalled yesterday and while it had some trying moments after I had a few observations that make me wonder and want another perspective on things. First I found that I think for me...

During grief it is natural to get a bit lost and natural to feel guilt as I think the cliché "hindsight is 20/20" applies very well to periods of grief. It will take time to work through it all. Be gentle with yourself Sean.

So I have these moments when people get frustrated with me because I can't tell them what is happening inside. Usually it has to do when I try to express what I am feeling and I know the words just can't form them. I have this desire to run or I shutdown, I feel trapped in myself. Then 10...

I can relate to the feeling of having to choose to get rid of a pet because it was necessary for me to move forward with my life. I hated doing it but at the time I had no other choice. I very sadly returned our cat to the rescue we got her from, they were very nice about it and she was...

Thank you for sharing, I looked it up. I was looking for something as well but didn't have a direction to go.

I read your post and know that feeling all too well. I thought I was ok for months and then last fall had a crash back, everything set me off. Thankfully as time goes on we learn what things help and what don't. Your therapist sounds like he wants the best for you (sounds like a new...

I am sorry you are feeling this way, I hope you can find some peace away from those feelings soon. In speaking with you I see intelligence in you. I hope you find something in this day that is positive.

I wish you the best of luck, he did pack all that mattered to him in the car and drive off. I know he is getting the few messages that I have sent but he has not responded. A LOT is going on making it hard for him. I have to believe this is out of love and not being able to drag me, my...

@scout86 - I totally get what you are saying and that is where I kind of messed up this past week in seeking to understand and at the same time accept. I was replaying it today and figured out that I have emotional OCD or something... I just hope that in time I can be forgiven. I didn't want...

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@scout86 - Do you think it is better to keep in contact so that they know you are still caring? I struggled with some things last fall and my counterpart finally called me on it. I didn't realize how bad I was and what I was doing to those around me and it brought me back to a place I needed...

Wow that part about needing to wait i totally relate to. As well as many other things. Thanks for sharing.

Friday i think you are right in these times its hard to need someone... need anyone. Thats how my guy is...source of frustration at times but makes me proud to know he holds onto his standards.

This really helps since i spent the last few days being told it was the place not me (which took aome convincing).... @Friday @owl1982 thanks for the hugs some more back

I am going through a similar experience now myself in many ways, mine just withdrew from school, packed up everything that matters into his truck and will drive off today. I feel your sense of loss in this and struggle with the same questions of knowing what to say to not make it worse and also...

Wonderful insights on all accounts...

I totally relate to the not knowing if I can deal with everything but knowing I want to try. Its just really hard because with all the talking we have done he packed up his entire life and has made all the arrangements to leave this place. He is my best friend. I don't want to lose him in my...