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You are fortunate to feel and enjoy your inner child. I see mine and can’t stand seeing her. I hate her just like she was hated. I hate that I froze at the age she was abused. I am digusted by her. I can’t get past it and Ive tried. I wish it were different. I used to pray to be completely...

It was painful for me to disown my parents, but I did. I sometimes miss having parents, but then I remember how much hurt I felt from them and shrug. I will always be that kid without parents. I may know how orphans feel because I feel like I was abandoned since a young age. I guess most people...

It’s been a year since I separated from my husband and several months since I filed for divorce. Our son lives mostly with me. I told my ex that I had trauma and that’s why I couldn’t have sex. He said I didn’t meet his needs. Now I’ve learned that he has been already dating and wants my son to...

Because you wrote about your hospital experience, it makes me think that you have hope for healing. I sometimes doubt I have hope, but then I listen to kyself and see hope - no matter how buried. I was waiting for some big proof that I am not faulty, but nothing is ever enough. No matter how...

I completely understand this. In my case I feel rage at myself for being so flawed that people would have done what they did to me. It wasn’t happening to other kids, so I must have been real shit. I am not out of this stage yet. An entire life feeling “faulty”, but I am guessing it’s a part of...

It’s not just you. I can’t cry either. I did cry at my last therapy session for a good 5 min, but it’s been months of pain with no crying at all. In my case, I think I dissociate from the trauma. I hover on the surface-outside looking in. I feel like I felt back then, while it was happening. I...

When the flashbacks became unbearable, I began to overeat. It wasn’t too long until I started throwing up after eating. If I throw up enough, I feel a sense of release - like I threw up something disgusting and it’s out of my system. After about 10 or more times of eating and throwing up, I feel...

Thank you for your message. I have been in therapy and the PTSD diagnosis is recent - about a year and a half. This is my first post here. I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety before and most of my childhood memories were repressed. However, all my life I was highly functional...

My “now” has been decades long....

I told my soon to be ex that I was sexually abused as a child (among other forms of abuse). My memories were repressed and came back in two very intense chunks. I didn’t want to have sex with him. I had no interest and even a revulsion. Eventually I asked for a divorce but only because I knew he...