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Welcome! I'm new here too & I've found this site helpful. It's nice to know that you aren't alone...& you are not alone!! I am dealing with overlapping traumas as well & have a hard time talking about things.

:hug: Thank you @EveHarrington ! The holidays should be a real treat this year (in my most sarcastic voice)!

I most certainly wouldn't tell her about the forum @EveHarrington ! In fact, this is my safe place...I haven't done very well with journaling because my mom left a lot of journals to my sisters & I when she died & they were very hurtful towards us & painful to read. I have had a hard time...

That is terrible! Can you get a job somewhere else where you don't have to deal with the abuse? That sounds like a VERY corrupt place & that shouldn't be happening. I just don't understand why she thinks I would need to use PTSD as an excuse?? An excuse for what??? An excuse to feel different...

Tonight I attended a support group session at the local domestic violence shelter. It was SO good & I felt so comfortable sharing my story & encouraging others & receiving their encouragement too!! Although I've been free from my abusive marriage for ten years, & out from under my father's...

Thank you so much for your advice!! The first counselor did call & get me on a cancellation list, but I never heard anything. I'm kind of having a hard time right now because I had my first session with the EMDR therapist & she said to return in 1 week, but there wasn't anything on the schedule...

I was confused by this as well. My PTSD wasn't recognized by myself or anyone else until recently. It all made sense that I've been struggling with it for the last ten years & that my way of managing it on my own isn't working anymore. At first when the counselor told me I had PTSD I argued...

I found a very interesting article today & thought I would share. I couldn't figure out how to post the link on here, but if you google "the invisible scar wordpress" it will be the first result. Click on "for adult survivors of emotional abuse. In my journey of C-PTSD, I am dealing with the...

Thank you for your service!

It's the worst! @Enaila ! Thank you!

@Lola Nocheprieta Maybe I will try that but I don't know if I will be able to fall asleep with 1/2. I have had a lot of episodes of sleep paralysis...where I feel like I'm awake & can see my walls/room, but I can't move. That is terrifying!!!

I often have a repeat dream that someone or someTHING (very scary looking) is choking me. It is always VERY vivid & it's one of those dreams where I can't move or speak or breathe & I wake up gasping for air. I even know that I need to wake up in the dream but I can't. Just a few weeks ago I...

I started Trazadone a few weeks ago. It seems to be helping me sleep some, but now I feel like I'm unable to wake up from the nightmares/bad dreams. I am constantly jerking in my sleep (I know this because I wake myself up a lot...but at least with the trazadone I'm able to fall back asleep)...

Very true @Carriexo !

I pick at my fingers too. :hug: Good luck to you in your therapy...I am just starting as well.

I haven't started sharing any details with my T yet. I understand the shame & guilt that you are feeling. I explained to my counselor that referred me for EMDR therapy that I feel so stupid talking about what happened to me as a child. I feel like I'm that stupid little kid without a voice...

Very well written & I'm sure many of us can identify with you. I know I can.

It does hurt. I do hope things improve for you. I know that I will love my sisters no matter what & maybe I will get the courage to explain to them how they make me feel sometimes. I have a hard time expressing my feelings...just bottle it all up & keep it to myself because I don't want to...

Thank you for that! I keep telling myself, "at least I've identified the problem & I'm taking steps to fix it." That's the hardest part I think...I've been in denial for so long, trying to manage the symptoms on my own. It's very hard to take that first step to reach out for help & admit that...

That's very insightful, thank you! I've thought often that I need to find something to do like learn to cross-stitch or knitting or something because any time I have to sit still I pick at my fingers (until they bleed!)...it's a bad habit since childhood, I don't even realize I'm doing it half...

I need to join something where I can meet new people...My therapist's daughter teaches a group yoga class (she does talk therapy yoga too--kind of interesting). I have a lot of work friends/nurse friends....but nurses tend to like to drink a lot & I'm trying to steer clear of that right now...

Many of the kids are very close to the same age & love being around each other. They attend the same school now & they are all old enough now that they don't have to be supervised all of the time...all teenagers. A few of them are much older, but they've always gotten along & enjoy doing...

I am the same...much easier to hide behind the computer & type out my feelings than to share them face to face with others! :) Thank you so much for commenting! It does help to know that there is someone out there who understands! You hang in there too!

@Silver. Thank you! It is very hard. Especially since I moved my life here to be closer to them. Just because I have "PTSD" does not mean that I don't enjoy doing fun things! I NEED to get out of the house & be involved in things. It's nice to at least be invited & to know that you're...

I have 2 sisters that live close to me. I am the youngest & they are 10 & 8 years older. When I moved here 3 years ago, I thought that we could all be close....help one another with our kids, have girls' nights, etc. I realized quickly that wasn't going to happen. They didn't want to help me...