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@Roland one minute mum was annoyed I didn't tell anyone about the restaurant incident at the time cause he would have been sent back to prison for reofending and then she says she doesn't think it happened cause she or someone else would have seen. I don't like people doubting me.

I remember two incidents after he came out of prison and I had nightmares about those incidents a while before actually remembering them. Which I originally ignored and thought were just weird nightmares

The only trigger I've ever been aware of was my autism worker getting on the floor behind me when she was having a go at me whilst I was sitting on the floor it reminded me of a rape nightmare I felt unsafe and nearly self harmed later that day.

I don't get why my brain won't just let me know what actually happened rather than giving me rape nightmares. @Roland i don't know if this is too personal to ask but when you realised you were abused when you were younger did you have actual clear memories of it eventually or did you just have...

I've had counselling before I don't have a PTSD diagnosis. I believe the flashback was real and I must have at least been assaulted cause he didn't held me down for nothing.

I feel like it's leaning more towards it did happen

Snakes either appear on me, guys turn into snakes, or bad people throw a snake at me they're always horrible. I remember ages ago having them nearly every night and being scared to sleep. Now they don't happen as often but they're still horrible. It's just weird having things that suggest I may...

I never understood before why I'd always get snake nightmares especially the ones with the guys penis turning into a snake. Now I'm thinking maybe it's to do with past sexual abuse. If I was raped maybe cause I wouldn't understand what his thing was maybe I just associated it with snakes. This...

What do people think snake nightmares mean? I had a snake nightmare last night. Sometimes it's just a snake on my neck or body like last night and sometimes a guy turns into a snake sometimes I'm going to have sex with them and their penis turns into a snake and moves across my whole body or...

I haven't been getting body memories very recently, I've only been getting rape and assault nightmares which I think are related to past abuse either cause my brains just making up assault situations or cause g really did rape pinkie (child me). Personally I don't feel like I just roll with body...

I think sometimes in dreams you see yourself being abused and that is the main part but since it's a dream and things tend to get muddled up, details might change like the person though I think the person changing is much more likely to happen in a nightmare than a flashback when you're awake.

I told mum he did hold my arms down in the restaurant once when we were leaving and she couldn't believe it happened cause she would have seen someone would have seen he wouldn't have held my arms down and touched me in a restaurant with people around. And I didn't show any distress at the time...

The near rape was a dream I had on Saturday night. Sunday night was the dream of being shown innapropriate pictures but in the dream I was too scared to look at them and I don't know if that second dream was like my brain telling me I'm not really looking at what it's showing me but I'm not...

I often have nightmares now about random people raping or assaulting me, sometimes it's my abuser assaulting me but it's never him raping me. I had an assault/near rape by random guy on Saturday night and on Sunday night I had a nightmare where I was told I wasn't abused but given pictures of me...

I've had a lot of sexual assault nightmares with random people I don't know. I'm not sure if it's my brain trying to tell me I was raped but it's too difficult to show it happening with the person who I know abused me or if the nightmares actually don't mean anything. I did last night have a...

I also always have nightmares about random bad people trying to get me but I don't normally see them.

Learnt but may forget again. Currently trying to make sense of lesson 2 in the first Japanese from zero book. I feel like I'm finding this harder than it should be. It will take me longer but eventually I'll get better at it.

Slept fine but weird grandad abuse nightmare, more dream like than normal.

Learn these phrases Mou ichido itte kudasai (Please say it again) Motto yukkuri itte kudasai (Please speak more slowly) Itte kimasu (I'm going/see you later) Itterasshai (please go and come back/see you later) Tadaima (I have just come back/I have just come back home) Okaerinasai (welcome...

I started learning Japanese and stopped for about 3 weeks cause I've been struggling and not felt like doing anything. Now I'm going to try learning it again and try to have more of a study plan and just stick to that hobby mainly rather than trying to do different things. Is anyone else...

I did this on the 24th of May when pinkie was popping up.

I've been trying emdr recently for physical feelings and so far I've found that it hasn't done anything though I've tried it before with two abuse memories and i think it helped them not seem so bad but I don't think it made other things come up. I also tried it with a flashback which wasn't...

I've had dreams before and then remembered real events connected to the dreams and the rape dreams were two weeks ago and more my support worker triggered me was Thursday. I had the first rape nightmare a week before having a flashback of being pinned to a bed so I'm more thinking they're to do...

Haven't had any throbbing for two weeks now. But now my vagina feels anxious instead since my autism worker triggered me.

Is it normal to have a trigger cause of a sexual assault nightmare??? Anyone had this happen to them before?? Care to share?? In two recent sexual assault nightmares, I was sitting on the floor and a man got down on the floor behind me and raped me. Then on Thursday my autism worker got down on...