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I know that when I make a big step forward in my thinking that my head/disorder/alters react in an instinctively negative way. My old coping skills are still trying to "protect" me not realizing that I am currently safe. The dichotomy that I often experience in thoughts and actions often lead to...

I do/am. This is where I have been for what seems like the last month or so. I feel like I am constantly moving from one state or alter to another lately. My grounding skills are weak, and sometimes I just don't want to ground myself because the dissociative state is more "comfortable" than the...

Because of my parents close friendship all those years I was made to feel like my feelings and memories could not be real. I couldn't resolve the differences between the anxiety concerning my Dad and how everybody else told me (through words and actions) how I should feel. I couldn't trust...

Some organizations provide therapy on a sliding scale based on your income. When I was in college I did not want to use my parents insurance for therapy because I was having therapy because of them. The place my college sent me to (they were not able to provide the long term care the felt I...

I talked with my Mom yesterday. My 14 yr old daughter had contacted her and asked to move in for the summer because of the flare-up recently in my PTSD. So, we talked about things and I asked her about my childhood of which she knows I remember very little. I've always attributed a lot of my...

I appreciate all your replies. I've pretty much had PTSD all my adult life. But, this time period is the absolute worse it has ever been. With my dissociation I am all over the place. I do have a therapist and right now I am seeing her twice a week. Since my functioning level is low we are...

I constantly feel like I am drowning. I love my husband and my four kids, but I am so overwhelmed by all the noise and responsibilities. My kids are 14, 11, 9 and 7 and they are active, noisy kids and totally triggering for me. I'm frozen and find it so difficult to get out of the house and do...

I just finished reading Platt's dissertation. In fact, I even pulled out a few quotes to save for later pondering. Platt's focus seems to be on comparing High-Betrayal Trauma, meaning trauma that is inflicted in a close interpersonal relationship, and Low-Betrayal Trauma, described as low...

I don't know what to say...I'm sorry that you have had such a horrible experience with your own family. I don't hate my family or suffer any abuse from them. My traumas occurred between the ages of 3-18. I love my family and only want to protect them while also be able to do what I need to do...

I have been really bad these last couple of weeks. My flashbacks and dissociation have been raging and I have just been avoiding my family as much as possible. My husband and I have been married 16 years and we have a good marriage. We also have four kids ranging in age from 7-14. My husband...

I've been lurking around here for the last week and figured it was time to introduce myself. I'm not generally very good with forums so will probably be more of a reader than a poster. I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD with DID due to childhood sexual abuse about 8 years ago after years of...