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Has anyone else ever had the experience that their doctor or therapist put you in a position that made you feel they were basically like..."so you're here...now convince me you need to be here." That is how I felt yesterday with my new Psychiatrist...and it really screwed up the rest of my day...

The stranger thing makes perfect sense. I have struggled with something similar. I have spent so much time talking about day to day anxiety until I just got tired of it. Hell...everybody deals with that shit right? So...I realized there was more to it...and it wasn't going to get addressed...

I am so sorry this has happened to you. You deserve someone who can ride the storm with you...no matter how long it takes. We are here for you. I know there is a wonderful empathetic and compassionate therapist out there for you. Have you asked your current T for a closure session? If she is...

For me...I realized at some point in my adulthood (not sure exactly when)...that my difficulty in making eye contact (in certain situations)...was because of shame. For me...it was totally related to a sense of worthlessness and insecurity, low self-esteem and self-hatred. In my...

@NightSky how long have you been in therapy with your T? It has taken me over 4 months to figure out what I am even supposed to be doing in our sessions together. My T didn't offer much direction but just kept telling me to "trust the process." I have had many a frustrating days between sessions...

*health day for area professionals Thank you everybody for the words of encouragement. It means a lot. You all are awesome.

Today I asked me therapist how much he weighs. He replied...and with much confusion...until I revealed to him...that his weight was now my new goal for my deadlift. I have been exercising lifting weights etc. pretty regularly for almost a year now. The exercise regime has been an invaluable part...

I am so sorry this has happened. When you say everyone left...can you offer more details? My experience has been that my depression and PTSD mind always tell me whatever happens, that is negative, is my fault. My therapist corrects me all the freaking time about this. Can you offer more details?

The eye contact thing...I couldn't do it for years...in fact I think I was about 32 years old (I'm now 38) before I could do it. I strongly encourage you to try it...work at it...it makes a huge difference. For me...it was all about self worth and self esteem. When I began to be able to look...

Do you think you would be comfortable talking to your mentor at University about your suicidal thoughts? It sounds like she is working to be an advocate for you...so that is good and helpful. I hope she is successful in getting you some more time for your assignments. The pretending is...

Yes...I learned only recently my berserk inner critic was slightly more intense (sarcasm) than say... my husbands. It was weird to realize others didn't necessarily think about themselves in that way. I also remember the day I realized not everybody goes around thinking about suicide all of...

Yes...happily married...great kids...good job... so overwhelmed with anxiety... some days I shut down completely and want to just run.

One way I keep going is by posting here. So that is a good place to start. Another option is to call a crisis line. My experience is some who are answer the phone are better than others...but at least for the time I am talking to a person and it distracts me from the negative downward thought...

Ha! Thank you for this.

this is very helpful to read...and so much of what you have said here resonates with me. How long have you been struggling with your inner critic on the little things like coloring? It is so helpful to hear I'm not alone. I always feel so foolish when it starts. Suicidal Ideation with an ink...

Yes. I have found I get so overwhelmed with the simplest of tasks. The coloring books have way to many lines and trying to decide what colors to use is paralyzing. While not delighted to feel this way...your post has helped me to see I'm not the only one struggling with little things like this...

You are not a failure. You are working hard. You are valued. Your life matters. Keep telling yourself these things. You are not a failure. Please let us know how the assessment goes.

@joeylittle and @1234567891011 This thread has been very helpful. I have struggled a great deal with suicidality and my husband and I even thought about hospitalization at one point. I have come close to driving myself to the emergency room countless times. I have had a plan for sometime and...

@FauxLiz I recommend Peter Walker's book as well. It has been incredibly helpful and insightful for me. I found a host of on-line articles etc. from Psychology Today and other well known organizations and publications. Just start googling your questions. The articles have really helped me...

this is concerning to read. I am sorry you are dealing with these emotions and ambiguity. A few thoughts...it sounds like your mother was very disrespectful of boundaries you had and hoped for. As a mother...I can confess...unknowingly...I have crossed some of those boundaries with my oldest...

Thank you @Gia1019 you gave me courage to do it! I am so grateful for that.

Dear @Iriseen thank you for reaching out during this difficult time. I too suffer from suicidal ideation. Today its not there but there have been so many days when it was unbearable. Your comment about "horrible thoughts" resonates with me very much. Are you being treated for Depression? I...

Please know we want to know you. Have you talked with anyone about the possibility you may also be suffering from depression? One of Depression's worst symptoms is its inherent nature to sabotage your self-esteem, to make you feel worthless and of no value to anyone... including yourself.

Dear @Blackjack would you want to share what specifically is contributing to or has caused your PTSD? I am not a veteran either and I have never been in a major car accident. My PTSD is what some are beginning to refer to as C-PTSD. While there are a few instances in my adult life that have...

Thank you @Mim28 and @digger. I talked with my T about the vivid dreams today. He was very helpful. I have already begun to make some connections with some of the issues I have with some of the content of my dreams. Perhaps...my dreams will become a new tool for exploring and being direct with...