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    Eye Contact In Therapy

    I'm so glad I'm not the only one! My T first thought I wasn't making eye contact because I was mad at him; I told him that it was more like shame and fear. Recently, in our last very challenging interaction, he said that "I'm not getting a lot of eye contact" in a negative tone....so I'm...
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    Eye Contact In Therapy

    I have a horrible, horrible time sustaining eye contact with my T. If I'm talking about something hard, I usually look at the floor. When I try to meet his eyes, I usually feel so ashamed. Then, if, when we're talking, he gives me that look (the healing look that just feels so nice and...
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    Disappointment

    I was going to go to the state fair today and see one of my favorite bands play. I live 90 minutes away and was going to carpool with friends. Well, there weren't any of the front seats available in the cars so I couldn't go. I'm so disappointed that stupid PTSD keeps me from doing fun things...
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    He is not a trauma therapist. It's so flip-floppy. One session, he speaks about how much I've grown. The next time, he talks about how bad I seem off (he thought yesterday that I was doing horrible but didn't accept my reasoning that 5 hours of sleep, a broken foot, and multiple stressors were...
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    Update: Yesterday was group, of which my T is a co-facilitator, and I e-mailed him very briefly the night before letting him know I was mad at him (just so he knew if my behavior towards him changed in group). In group, I told people how I might have a broken foot and am homeless for the next...
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    Oh, wow, @NovemberStar, that makes so much sense! Ugh I hate that though!!!
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    Tough Day, Dreamt Of T!

    I've had lots of dreams about my T. Most of them have been good. But last summer, I had several dreams where he was mad at me and it progressed to him yelling, the next with him punching, then the final one was him kicking me and hitting me with a baseball bat. That was not pleasant at all, and...
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    Yeah, I suppose that could be the case. I sure wish therapy wasn't so confusing. Sometimes I think my "relationship" with my therapist gives me more grief and confusion than the rest of my life does....it probably just isn't as healthy as it could be. I don't know. I do know that when I move...
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    One Tough Mudder

    I LOVE THIS!!!! It's my goal to run the Tough Mudder next year, in 2015. I think it will be an extremely powerful experience. :) So happy for you!
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    It's frustrating since he prefers that I not e-mail him, but wait to address things in session. However, he said those confusing things to me in the last 3 minutes of the session, which gives me no time to process and ask questions about them. Now I'm stuck with e-mail, which he also doesn't...
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    Yeah...and now I don't want to deal with it via e-mail and will have to wait until next month, or later, depending on when I schedule another appt. I have one left until Sept 1st.
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    I was out of town so I didn't get a chance to read the replies. I am wondering if he's getting pressured by the university since there's a new counseling director there. I hope not. I e-mailed and asked for clarification. His response was: "I am processing the fact you will be leaving soon...
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    The way I took it where he said he wonders if he's helping after the 7th session is that he doesn't think it's effective after 7 sessions and that therapy should stop due to the constraints of a college counseling center.
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    I've worked with him since February 2011, so it has been over three years. We've had around 75 sessions, I'm guessing, in that time. They've varied from 1-14 weeks apart (when he used to have summers off). He was talking about how different I am from the "norm" in college counseling...
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    Frustrated Again! *vent*

    So things with my T had been going really well. I felt closer to him than ever before, and I'd finally stopped being afraid of him getting mad at me. I saw him yesterday for an individual session after a 6 week hiatus (because of session limits). I felt like the session was productive, but...
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    Quiting Therapy

    I only use the Trevor hotline in the states. It's geared towards LGBTQ youth, but they'll talk to anyone, and I've found the majority of people I speak on there are very helpful. 866-488-7386.
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    Exposure Therapy For Processing Sudden / Violent Death - My T.

    I think it'd be fine to ask for a letter just in case. I'd do that! :)
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    Therapist Out Of Town

    I just had to say that I really related to feeling extremely uncomfortable, if even unable, to express anger at my T. I don't know if I have ever, in the moment, told him that I was mad at him (though sometimes I don't realize I'm mad until later). I always feared what would happen to my being...
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    Does Gender Of Therapist Matter?

    I've had two T's for regular therapy (one of each gender), and tested out multiple others (don't remember exact representation)...I prefer working with men. Mostly I look for father figures, and my current T is awesome for that. I just need to have a strong, caring male in my life...he's helped...
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    Employment And Ptsd: Getting Back To Work And Picking A Career/job

    Graphic design is what I thought when I read that list. Cabinetry making could also be done from home. Shoe repair. Writing, editing, blogging. If you don't mind getting up early, bakery might work?
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    Success In Group Therapy

    Today was the first session of group therapy (it's an 8 week version), general topics, and I'm so proud of myself! I didn't get overwhelmed, was able to engage with everyone there....and I was able to be vulnerable and tear up! I've never, ever done that the first session, and rarely throughout...
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    Spiritual Abuse From Toxic Christianity.

    The sad thing is that it doesn't have to be in a system but isolated Christians can be spiritually abusive. I recently posted on FB my support for marriage equality in the US due to legal reasons/citizen rights/civil rights, and purposely didn't delve into theology....I've been viciously...
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    Session Today Made Me Question Myself

    I went through a period of 2 years where I questioned my sexuality. For a time, I felt I was bisexual and wanted to pursue dating a woman rather than a man...but for me, sexuality was just a bad thing, so I wanted to run from men and go towards women since they were safer. But I wasn't attracted...
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    Have You Experienced Objectification?

    I experienced all of those things inside the cult I was raised in. :(
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    Email Vs Calls Vs Text...

    I've heard some T's offer sessions later at night here in the US for people who work full-time. So, I'd imagine those are available after 5pm. Further, my university's counseling center, during the semester, stays open until 7pm on Monday nights.
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