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Co-dependency is extreme attachment to a person. The emotions themselves are everyday loss of people that we face. But, the extremes I go to make that person happy makes the loss seem even more heartbreaking. Currently, I lost a friend. It's causing some major emotional outbursts.
I'm sorry to hear that. But, sometimes the people in our lives hurt not help us. My mom finds me weak to let bullying keep bothering as do many other people who I tell.
When the bullying started my music was my coping mechanism but, because of self-esteem issues I struggle to perform my music...
What you have is referred to as Co-dependency the need to put a person's needs above your own and sacrifice everything for them. The inability to be independent in a relationship. I too struggle with this.
When I lose a friend it feels as though it's my fault they left. This triggers a week or more of panic attacks. But, it's something that happens in life. How can I learn to overcome the most basic thing, loneliness? It doesn't seem to have a connection to my bullying either.
~Voices~
At a crossroads-Trying
To find a way back
What matters more?
You or them?
They're just voices
Taking up space
Shouting and yelling
Everyone wants to be heard
You have them right
In your hands
You can break them
Build 'em higher
Lost your purpose
Disappointment
Didn't live up
To their...
~Here I Am~
They seek shelter
In their hate
Celebrate broken spirits
Yet here I am
Had a long sleep
To heal these wounds
But I have woken
No longer a theory
That you ponder on
What you see is
What you get
I'm not running from
The darkness inside of me
They seek shelter
In their hate
Celebrate...
~Unscathed~
[Intro]
They say
She's not beautiful
With a heart cold
and cruel as ice
Inside she's just waiting
for someone to say
they see the kindness
in her eyes that
it's not her fault
she can't be happy
that she's..angry
they walked away unscathed
Forgive her if she
says she hates you...
~Fallen World~
Their dreams erased pain,
They built a world
From ashes and people
Wanted to be happy
No one was ever
Left behind or abandoned
[Chorus]
Bring it back again!
Light up, light up
The night with memories
I wanna feel my
Heart tremble from excitement
Live our wildest daydreams
See...
Reading all this including the comments it brings back some pain. I too was bullied. It is wired into my brain that I don't matter. No matter what I do I will never be good enough. Constant struggle. I worry that I shall never feel proud of anything I do because I will always have their horrible...
I Lived by One Republic
Secrets by One Republic
Hall Of Fame by The Script
Confident by Demi Lovato
Demons by Imagine Dragons
Happy by Leona Lewis
Tomorrow Never Dies by 5 Seconds Of Summer
I Lived by One Republic. Makes me cry and want to get up. To do something that matters to me. Like learning to be a human calculator, read, or even write one of my songs. I feel like I have the strength to push past any struggle. It's time to live!
When asked for details I can't really explain what happened. I just remember the bits and pieces of flashbacks. A group of people surrounding me and attacking me. Leading to my fear of being in crowds where there's no space for me to escape. So far, I've connected it to my severe bullying in...