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I had several abusers, but my main abuser was my father. He was such a brutal man that eventually, when the repression cleared just a bit and I began to realize what this horrible man had subjected me to well into my adult years, I began referring to him by his first name when I spoke about him...

"To love is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping your heart intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries, avoid all...

"I have always imagined that paradise will be a kind of library." - Jorge Luis Borges "Wear the old coat and buy the book." - Austin Phelps

Universal Truth #18 Some people can never finish a

The Marketing of Evil by David Kupelian

My grandkids love me just for me - they don't notice if I'm wearing makeup, how my hair looks, what I have on, or what the scale said this morning. As my grandson said, "Everyone loves their Nana!"

Childhood questions are the questions I'm still asking as an adult.

We have similar problems...only mine is restriction. We both use food as our tool of choice to accomplish the same thing. When I am hurt, angry, grieving, my PTSD is flaring, when I want to make myself feel better about anything, when my self esteem is low, when I need an adrenaline rush, when I...

I live on a large property with several different kinds of gardens. I want to try doing a cottage garden this year. I've got it laid out for when the weather finally turns to spring here, but I'm still undecided on what to plant. I know I want hydrangeas and lots of color. Any suggestions?

Please don't take this the wrong way. I read this twice, and then stared out the window thinking about it for several minutes. That alone is unusual for me because those "staring out the window minutes" were not scheduled into my day and I might need to make them up...unless I make them part of...

I sent this to a friend on her birthday: " If you are 20 but you only live until you're 30, you're pretty old. But if you're 50 and you're going to live until you're 100, you're pretty young. Age is just a number. You and I can not qualify young and old based on our birth date. It's based on our...

Welcome! Trying to be the best mom is such a great motivation. I come from a badly abusive background (is badly abusive redundant?) and my kids made such a gigantic difference in my life. For their protection, distanced myself from toxic family members. During my pregnancies I stopped my...

Universal Truth #8 Someone, somewhere will always be offended.

My trauma and a boatload of emotional issues are the result of all kinds of family abuse and dysfunction suffered from childhood well into adulthood. Like you, at some point it was necessary to completely cut myself off from my toxic family members, not only for my safety and sanity, but for the...

"When you are in pain you don't care if they give you Draino as long as it will bring some kind of relief." - Nicole Johnson

My idea of a good time is a coma.

"You've always had the power, my dear. You've had it all along." - Glinda, the Good Witch

I hope you can follow my twisted thinking here. I totally get why you feel such deep pain. In fact, I think the pain you are suffering is different than most sisters would feel that had lost a brother. Why? Because you lost much more than a brother. I have seven siblings. Although they are...

I just discovered this thread and I'm intrigued. I used to be a member of a forum (it sadly no longer exists), of trauma survivors, many of which had escaped SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse). Their horror stories of the rituals and torture that were part of their abuse, which was always worse on...

Directly from the page of my journal: I am thankful for... My salvation, the Bible, and my blessed hope My husband - just, wow My children - their love, their laughter, their talents, their intelligence, their character My grandchildren My cat My home, country living Financial security My best...

My very young grandchild asked: "We're learning about Martin Luther King. Are we white or black?" I love the sweet innocence and colorblindness of children!

My morning cup of meds and coffee. Yum.

Who do I see about making chocolate one of the primary food groups?

"We are like Swiss cheese, and the holes in us are actually supposed to be there. The holes are the things that make us who we are " - Nicole Johnson

Just finished - The Six Conversations: Pathways to Connecting in an Age of Isolation and Incivility by Heather Holleman Currently reading: Trajectory: Tracking the Approaching Tribulation Storm - Terry James, General Editor with Contributors