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I am trying to navigate the scariness of the past 24 or so hours and could use some support from those who've been there. This is a first for me: I let my guard down enough in therapy to just describe what I was physically feeling in the moment...normally I wouldn't do this, as I'd disqualify...

Hi @Justmehere. I suppose I don't have any simple or good answers but I just want to offer my compassion and also--as someone likely further behind where you're at in the recovery process--admiration. From the outsider perspective--your self-knowledge here comes through so clearly. And so though...

Just want to pipe up here and say I experience these and find it feels like the sound is kind of "in my ears", if that makes sense. I know it's not real, but I'm hearing it and the impulse is to cover my ears...but really to also get the sound "out" of my ears. Like it's stuck there from long...

Omg--"vulnerability hangovers"--perfect term--(I so so so get these)....and all good healing vibes to you, @FindingMyself88

@Arebas I'm late to this thread but I just wanted to say GOOD for you, and I'm so impressed. All of this would be very hard for me too and I think you're being such a brave advocate for yourself. As someone who's been on twice-per-week for a while now, the difference is pretty substantial for...

I'm a bit late to this thread but wanted to just commiserate and show some support. I am so triggered by my 7 yr-old, esp (mine are 11 and 7, girls), as she's the more physically demanding of my two and also has a real nose for my anxiety levels, I think. The more anxiety ramps up, the more she...

@Allie D. --thank you. I realize my situation was quite different than the OP's, and I didn't catch how old the thread was--and so my apologies for also helping to unearth a thread that maybe needed to otherwise be out of commission. But I will say one of the things I think is so special about...

I feel like I should at least testify here to the potentiality for long-term trauma in a situation like this--In my case, though, the exposure was to my parents' emotionally/sexually coercive and abusive dynamic with each other, and I was exposed, for years, to their loud, awful sexual activity...

This is an issue for me too since I struggle with feelings of being repulsive. My T def does not touch--at least she makes no movement towards me--and I completely relate to how you describe the end of your session @DiamondBug! It feels awkward to get so upset in front of someone you know won't...

@Friday you made me laugh out loud--thank you for this. This is exactly it.

@Jadie Rose this has been another common theme for me: I can't turn back or undo it. Once I started to acknowledge (and I'm still in this process and it's so damn hard) the fact of the injuries/pain, it has been like I can't return to my old ways of relating or working through. So old systems...

When I first started opening my own "Pandora's box" for months my heart raced daily at random times throughout the day, when I was in bed trying to fall asleep, etc...I guess you might think of it as your body communicating with you--telling you 1) "this is real and it's important" and 2) "take...

Just quickly following up here--good you had a productive session on the heels of this tension. And wanted to offer my support here--changes to the schedule can get me all kinds of tangled up. I usually find it hard and my trust issues just bubble right up. Hang in there!

Yeah me too. I think the impulse was twofold: 1) I was trying to make the point that there were ways in which I think she can be more revealing of herself without being abusive--that she could (and I'd expect her to) know how to NOT do to me the things I've already experienced...so in other...

I said to her at our very difficult session this week--"I just need you to not abuse me"--:cry:

Thanks @Lola Nocheprieta ....T tells me we are "going to grow together"...I am hanging on by a thread. So hard I can't believe the pain. Thank you so much for being out there somewhere. :hug:

@Arebas my T has used the broken bone/always a broken bone idea but she also maintains that I need to feel all the shit--even in tiny amounts--and though I push myself I find that I just fall apart with the trust issues immediately after. It's like one step forward and three back. I wrote on...

Yes--I need to do this. My therapist often talks about "letting the feelings pass...until we can be together again" when we can handle them together/in session, but I like this very visual idea better. Because I haven't been doing great with the breathing piece and I have gotten almost used to...

Wow--thank you so much @recoveringfromptsd

@Gia1019 can you explain containment for me? I've been in the backslide/numb/no-trust mode lately with T--(we're working on it but--)

@Phantom Shadow this is so very hard and I'm so sorry that you are experiencing this pain. Many here on this site know what this feels like, and many are at various stages of healing and processing this kind of stuff. The best I can offer is that you pursue if at all possible therapeutic support...

Very helpful, @watundah --thank you. I think one of the other patterns I've discovered among the friends I have in real life is that they are over-sharers who, though they love me very much, are so engulfed in their own drama and their own issues that they really don't have tons of time to be...

You are so generous, @Justmehere --thank you so so so much for all the time and care that went into this response. You know what I want to throw some sort of temper tantrum against is your line "a space that is finally just about you and your needs and how your therapist can help meet...

Thanks for this @outsideperception. No, I don't feel that my boundaries are being disrespected and I do think I've benefited from the relationship so far--it's opened up some really hard stuff for me and so much is changing. As hard as it's been I would not go back. If anything I think I am used...

This is interesting @Arebas --thank you for sharing it. So--why do you know so much about your T? Is it just her style? Is it because there was a point at which you asked and then now you regret getting more info?