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Of course you can @Notsowild with one hamster, four dogs, 7 society finches, four star finches, two canaries, two budgies and now, sadly, 11 babies there is plenty of hugs to go round in this house!

I went out today to collect 12 one day old quail chicks. They are just so cute! I have a deal with the breeder that she will take back any males and trade for females but it means I get the fun of raising my own. They really are very small. I thought a couple of photos might make people smile.

I haven't written in here in a long time for me. I seem to have got out of the habit. I'm up at a silly time this morning though so I thought I would come and share my thoughts. I've not been great lately. The added stress of possibly losing my job is taking it's toll. Worse flashbacks, body...

Having worked with stressed dogs I agree with the assessment that you did too much in one go. There is a stacking element to stress which can make a dog behave seemingly out of character but actually when you look back you can see there were far more stresses than just the one that she struggled...

I'd been feeling good today. At least I thought I was. I have sat down now though and realised it was just me keeping busy. I haven't even stopped since coming back from work. Just kept busy. Cooking dinner, walking dogs, sorting my aviary, hoovering up and washing my dishes. Now I am still...

I'm cable tied to the radiator. Not for the first time. It's uncomfortable but not awful. At least it isn't dark here. I can hear him moving about down stairs, I wonder when he will come free me. I hear the click of the boiler downstairs but I think nothing of it until the radiator starts to get...

I'm laid on my side. My ribs hurt, my head is throbbing. He touches me. Undoes my clothes. I can feel him against my back as he does this. His hands running all over me. He catches the ribs he bruised earlier with his boot. I flinch and he stops, whispers, soothing. I feel myself drifting as he...

Great day today. I had a flashback but it was still a great day. My friend came round this morning, so great to see her, even though I only saw her yesterday. A few hours together completely relaxed, no stress. Then I finally moved my birds in to their new aviary. So what if I may have to pack...

Feeling very down. I have tried my best to keep my chin up and keep going. Everyone I speak to agrees that they don't have a leg to stand on but it is still so much of a worry. I really cannot take it anymore. It's not just my job it's my home as well. The only reason I can have the dogs I...

@Notsowild Thank you for hugs :) They are trying to fire me based on capability grounds with the statement that I am not fulfilling my role. They have to work very hard to prove that I am not though and that they cannot make reasonable adjustments to allow me to stay where I am or they could get...

Thank you @The Albatross You are right. I have started gathering information to help my cause. I have begun to contact relevant help and a good friend has contacted and employment law lawyer for me as well just so I have someone to ask questions. I will not take this, I have put too much in to...

Dipped in and out of sleep last night but I did get some. My aviary arrives today, had Friday not happened I would be so excited but now I cannot see any reason to put time and money in to setting it up when I will more than likely have to sell it on at a loss after. I will fight this and...

I now know why I didn't have a performance review. They have already decided I am not meeting the requirements for my job. They have put me on fours weeks review and if I do not improve in that time they will start the dismissal process. I had no warning, no guidance on how I could improve. It...

Struggling today. I was supposed to be having my performance review at 2pm but my manager has told me it has been postponed. I'm not sure why. I am obviously struggling as I have made sure not to go in the staff room or other places that set me off. I wasn't worried about the performance...

With the help of my friend who was present during a flashback I have remembered why I scratch my arms. We'd had a good day. We spent some of it with friends and then we'd gone back to his to watch movies, normal stuff. We went out to the shed because he wanted to get a drink, they had a fridge...

I am at my Dad's house tonight. My childhood home. We moved here when I was just under three years old so I don't remember much about the house before. As far as I am concerned this is the house I grew up in. It has seen a lot happen over the years but my Dad currently lives here with his mother...

I haven't written in here since Sunday. It has not been a good week. One thing after another hasn't helped. I lost three hours on Monday, I was exhausted after. I don't remember much about Tuesday. Then Wednesday I finally reached the point where I couldn't sit back and allow them to just keep...

It's Sunday and I have a day off tomorrow!

I sat in one of the fields at work with a nervous dog for half an hour watching the clouds in the sky. You could say I was doing it for the dog but we both benefit from the others company.

I stayed on the phone giving a woman advice about her dog when I knew within the first 30 seconds I couldn't help her due to it's age (too young to come in to an oldies rescue). 5 minutes of my time to direct her to suitable rescues that might be able to help. 5 minutes more than she had gotten...

I felt ok this morning, tired but not too bad. It continued like that as I walked the dogs until a family arrived to look around. 2 screaming children running at me, arms out shouting "Doggy" set my nerves on edge followed by their fathers voice bellowing in an angry tone at them to come back...

I had a lovely evening last night with my friend. I was fairly relaxed for most of it but towards the end things started setting me off. Only little things to most people but they were enough to push me from chatty to struggling to concentrate. Then I had something I am unsure of how to name. I...

A hard but rewarding day. I had real trouble with zoning out when people were talking to me or whenever I stopped. However some people came up and met one of our nervous dogs today. We have been doing a lot of work with her to give her more confidence and they seem to like her. Fingers crossed...

It's lunch time. I have come home to see the dogs. I don't know what I am going to eat for lunch. I don't fancy anything that's in my fridge. Maybe I will just have a drink instead. I feel empty and exhausted. I'm numb. I keep zoning out. It is taking me forever to write this because I am...

Noise noise noise. Never really stops being loud here. People here there and everywhere. Luckily the volunteer that was in early this morning has gone out to the field to work on the fences otherwise he sometimes comes and stands in the doorway of the kitchen talking to you while you ready the...