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I started this job 8/28. It's a call center. There was a month of training. That went ok. Then we went out on the phones. Within a week of being in the phones, I ended up in the hospital, for a possible heart issue (I had a heart attack 3 years ago). It was only an overnight stay, followed by a...

There's a line in an atmosphere song that I always heard as "there's that light that I forgot that I possessed". Turns out, it's actually bike, not light. But I like light. I think of that line whenever a moment occurs in the midst of one of my umpteenth episodes of... whatever they are that...

Thanks for this site and these forums, truly. Not that I can express why right now, apparently. I guess for reminding me that I have ptsd, and what goes along with that. Like not being able to speak sometimes.

"Here I am, thinking about death again. Humbles out the stress, helps the breath get in." Mehhhhhh

I prefer to be checked out. People places and things annoy me, and it's that I have to interact that makes me constantly grumpy. And yet when I don't interact I am grumpy too. Yet another "oh! I get it! Oh wait. No I don't" moment.

Oooooo I wonder if I could have the Rocky song play as I walk in?!?!?!?!

Bwahahahahahahahaha omg, so I'm on the bus feeling all sorry for myself, and I have ear buds in, music playing, but I kept hearing this weird possessed demon voice, and I briefly wondered if it was just me, or if someone had a toy doing it to freak people out, when finally someone said please...

Ok. A thought I had last week that's been brewing finally went a little bit further and inwant to get it out. It started when I wondered why I never stuck with any sort of spiritual practice. I thought, well, maybe because we're spiritual beings having a human experience, so we're supposed to...

lol! OMG what's funny now is the books that are advertised for me in here. "Bruiser", "Of Course It's a Big Deal (Executive Function)", "Amusement" and "Don't Squeal Unless It's A Big Deal: A Tale of Tattletales"

I have been dealing with (I think) trauma related stomach issues lately. Monday I ended up throwing up at work. First at my desk in the garbage can, and then in the bathroom. While in the bathroom, a cleaner asked if I was ok, then called security (as is protocol). Security came, they called...

I didn't realize how much I was dissociated until I'm finally starting to come back a little (?). I'm getting closer to making my new place homeier. I got my stuff from the basement yesterday. The major jerk wasn't there, so, that was good. I walked in, gave my "friend" the key, said thanks...

"So you don't like the way your life's been going. You stand before me, with defeat. In your silver studded costume that got rained on. I can't console you, i don't know how." Those push stars lyrics have been stuck in my head. For years, really, but, lately, again. It's embarrassing and...

I can't believe i put 2014 in that last post. Guess I'm living in the past lol. Which actually makes a little sense of you think of that inane quote "if you're depressed you're living in the past, if you're anxious you're living in the future. You have to live in this moment". I hate that quote...

Finally 2014 is taking off! No blockages, heart function isn't great, but not as bad as was first calculated, and... I GOT AN APARTMENT!!!!!!! I moved next weekend! A studio for just me and the pookster kitty. I'm so happy!!!!!!!!

Octobers. Blah. It did take me til halfway thru the month to remember that I hate octobers though, so, I got that goin for me... Everything will be fine, I'm sure. It always is. Someone said one thing today that brought up dad memories. That I forgot about til just now that it happened. Good...

Cool. Coolcoolcool. I was dealing with the annoying people and the basement. I was gonna move. Then I listened to my "best friend", who like begged me to come stay at his house, and after first expressing all the concerns I had that I didn't want to be a bother, I love him more than I hate the...

Hi @ladee! Can't believe so much time has passed, wow. I started something the day I saw and liked your post, but, my friend showed up to pick me up, so, I didn't finish. And now, I'm about to go to bed so i can go back to work tomorrow after an unplanned 5 days off. Technically 3 of those days...

"Oh, they just pulled up. Wait, no, that's next door. Sound carries so oddly here." "You're trapped in a basement." "Well, there's that." Lol, I don't know why that's so funny to me. Well, no, I do know why. It's cause i'm in a good mood lol. Everything is funny to me right now. Also, restless...

Thanks @ladee and @SheilaKathy :) <3 :) <3 :) <3 I'm so so so....happy? excited? both? many things! right now. I feel like a lot of the pieces of the puzzle finally snapped together. I was going to write about it, but I drifted off, like I do lol. I will. I do really want to get it out in...

Shall I come sit in it and break it for you? ;)

Lol!!!!!!!! Oh no!!! I'm sorry!!! At least it was just water, right? How'd they react? Lol I haven't even bothered with the couch at t' s cause it seems so low. Oh no, what if I took out the only chair and we ALL have to sit on the couch now.....

Thank you @UnicornSightings! I like your ideas! I'd like to subscribe to your newsletter! lol usually if I go with that kind of thinking, people call me crazy.

I wish this had the option of a laugh reaction like Facebook does lol

I think I played it off like i wasn't even concerned, but thinking about it, that just shows how embarrassed I was. Normally if I break something, or something else "wrong" (like when I called her last week just cause I was so low, and she never said I couldn't call, or call, actually, but I...

Right at the end of the session. I guess it just couldn't take my weight constantly shifting on it anymore. She didn't really seem phased, but I skedaddled as fast as I could, and now I'm belatedly mortified. So, now, you guys spill. What are some of your embarrassing moments in therapy?