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Hi, WarOfRoses.
I'm sorry you are struggling. I'm glad you are here, looking for support.
Most traumatic events never fully leave us. So, to be having a difficult time after one year is not surprising. I know it's difficult, but try to resist the urge to put a timeline on your progress with...
It doesn't matter how much education or training you have, there's no way to prepare yourself for when it happens to you.
You are keeping it together, the very best you can under an extremely difficult set of circumstances. You are not falling apart. You are self-aware and you are reaching...
Hi, Sky.
I'm sorry about the abuse you've suffered, and I'm sorry people are treating you poorly on the internet. I wish you didn't have to go through this. I wish I could take away the hurt and make your struggle disappear.
Sometimes, when getting through five minutes feels like a full day...
I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how you must be feeling.
It is understandable that you might be feeling overwhelmed. You've lost your home and all of your possessions in a single night. That is a lot to take in.
It sounds as though you, your family, friend, and pets made...
You're welcome. I'm glad you were able to reach-out for help, and talk about your feelings so openly. ☺
It sounds like you're keeping in touch with your doctor about these feelings reemerging. That's a good way to help prevent things from getting unmanageable.
I didn't realize how bad the...
He was too good to be true.
Talk of marriage and family at six months seems a little soon, especially initiated by the guy.
I have PTSD, and I would never ignore a text from a friend, let alone a significant other. It's just a matter of respect. If I need at time-out, I let people in my...
Hi, Teasel.
Going off Mirtazapine is tough, but you can do it.
All of the posts I have read that you have authored have been thoughtful and encouraging.
These terrible feelings will not last forever. If I remember correctly, it gets better two-weeks after taking the last dose. Once I got...
Maybe point-out that marriage is still a possibility, but only if steps to work on the depression are taken in earnest.
You're in a difficult position. Continue being a good friend, by taking care of yourself. If you let your friend drain you, you won't be any good to yourself, your friend...
Hi, BlueBerry6999.
Much of your post I feel as though I could have written myself.
It sucks to realize you were raped, and to have to confront that reality is difficult. Especially, if you were raped by someone you had trusted, it can really do a number on your mind. Leaving you confused...
Hi, OrangeJulius.
I'm glad things are working so well for you. It sounds like a big key to the success of your relationship is that he proactively verified his whereabouts.
Still, I stand by my advice to Searching (op). OrangeJulius' situation is a very rare outlier, not typical, or likely...
I'm so sorry that your abuser continues to get away with violating you.
I spent years of my life trying to get some semblance of justice in regards to one of my abusers during adulthood. Same as you, no consequences for the abusive dirt-bag. Like you, I still would do it again, though.
I...
I've never attempted suicide, but I have seriously considered it. Ultimately, I couldn't do that to my son. He has saved my life on numerous occasions. He is the last person I would ever want to cause pain. And though I know he is more than capable of living without me (he's an adult), I...
I'm sorry you don't have a good, safe place for your sessions.
I am in the same situation. I drive to a nearby park, or an empty end of a parking lot. It's not optimal, but at least I get some support and guidance.
Hoping this Covid-19 situation clears-up soon. For all of our sakes.
Thank you for your thoughtful reply, Rumors.
You are spot on regarding these negative, self-defeating thinking patterns being a hold-over from childood.
Mostly, right now I'm simply too raw to even examine much of this, but I will come back later and try to analyze the work situations.
I will...
Love your suggestions.
I especially like the suggestion in which you make up stories to help you process and help yourself through tough times.
When I daydream, my stories are fantasy based. On another planet, where I have a body with wings. In my stories, I fly to help people who are in...
What a terrible situation to be in... it's no wonder you're already feeling anxious.
I would suggest severely limiting your contact with him to only essential interactions. Also, remember to take care of yourself, and do things to soothe your soul. More so than before, you'll need to be kind...
Update:
My sleep is getting better on the Prazosin. My psychiatrist increased the dose from 1 mg to 2mg. Nightmares are no longer a problem since starting the Prazosin.
Still struggling with horrible body memories, as well as being haunted by memories of CSA, rape, and other abusive junk...