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Maybe just time is running out. Idk. It's just very ironic like all the coincidences I have had in the last twelve yrs that I'm being built for ministry. I feel better everyday but I do have issues with klonopin. I'm trying to wean and take . 25 three times a day. I'm cutting it as slow as...

@joeylittle Yes ppl with psychosis also have difficult dreams but this is from a perspective of ppl on the SZ forum. Not DSM 5 notes. I'm just trying to stress to ya'll that my friend said that it was like the light's where on but, no one was home. This was after al that I had been through...

The XTC maybe not to blame but what happened to me. The neglect. the possible rape. The thoughts that I was going to get chopped up where very real. So maybe I do have PTSD. Don't discount Fadeaway just because I had a very terrible time on XTC which is ironically on trial for PTSD PATIENTS. The...

No I have MDD w psychotic features plus PTSD

But hey if clean XTC works go for it. I'm just the exception

Yup

I was smoking meth, doing POT XTC perc's Lortabs and shrooms. I finally went over the edge and was convince I gave my ex HIV. So I called the cops and told them I gave her HIV. The cops came down on me and I was sent to jail. Got out five days later and took five XTC pills cuz I wanted to die...

I meant 2005

It's been since 2012. Don't think it's healing.

What if my dads abuse was latent and popped up when I thought i was going to die a horrible death in jail.? Kist food for thought. I talked to someone in real life with Military PTSD. He said a lot of things can cause PTSD. Just saying.

I don't understand. I do not know why my dreams are so twisted.

My nightmare theme is always this. PPl being chopped up... Speared some sort of nasty death of some sort. How can my dads physical abuse come out like that unless a very scary psychosis where i was stuck in jail and thought I was going to get my head cut off if I didn't receive the Mark of the...

Every month since I'm on SSDI i make it a goal to donate. But I keep forgetting. Next month I have to OWE someone 100$. So I guess the next month I'll be able to donate. This site is very important for me. Very good site that helps ppl with PTSD. Also why is it easier for someone with PTSD to...

Yup I told my new doc my drug history and they said I had to detox. Sometimes I wished it ended there because GM seizures are painless. But I moved back to Oklahoma where I'm being weaned off klonopin little cuts every two weeks. Then jumping of gabapentin for survival.

Just try not to make it a habit. I'm coming off a seven yr fling with 3 mg a day klonopin. I had two grand mal seizures in April. Today I can say that benzos are only as needed basis. Not everyday.

When my ptsd dreams started in 2010 I had to be put on klonopin to calm me down. Now I will never suggest a benzo long term but just long enough until you get a foothold and know how to deal with them. I'm coming off a seven yr habit and it's been a ride and I'm glad I have a few spare to wean...

It's going to scare me if something like war happens. Like I foresaw the events that was going to lead to war. I for one am terrified by Trump. Wh wish for the awful harm to come upon the world. Like none has ever seen? Why?

I love my dad but wrong timing.

I'm back in Oklahoma. I broke down and got my klonopin and decided the best treatment for me is to go back and have a compassionate doc wean me off. The last five months where sheer torture.

Thanks so much.

Anyone anywho?

3/16/17 The day I quit klonopin. Three months have gone by and the first two in acute where sheer hell. But today I can say I feel like I'm healing. I have free floating anxiety that doesn't go away. I wake up nervous and anxed. Hot flashes and cold sweats. I was put on klonopin to help my OCD...

It's the only thing that helps my anxiety. I really don't have the desire to abuse it anymore. I notice if I take a pill sooner than before I get kinda manic and that's that rush I would look for in the past. Yes it has a paradoxical reaction to it and turns on you,

I understand there are other avenues I can take instead of a benzo. My last pdoc just pulled out the big guns just to passify me. IT worked but I'm having a Change of heart. Where I want to do therapy. I have an excellent therapist.

I'm sorry. I'm taking this to far. I'm on a lot of meds. It sucks. But I'm ok. If I wasn't in them I would be in a psychward. The Dr knew I wouldn't take my medication without klonopin but I wished he did have a spine. I had so much time to do God's will. I feel sad now that I can't do...