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I get the need to go live in the woods when things are going badly. Mostly because I don't want to deal with people. The worst things get the more I want to get away. Its a last resort when I feel like I can't get anything right and everything/everybody sucks.

What were you running from?

@Rose White its an anery striped Kenyan sand boa. Shes a sweet snake, most of the time she is underground. But she generally comes to the door to be held a couple times a day. Never bites unless you startle her in her cage. She likes her chin rubbed.

Never been a cat person but I got ziggy about 12 years ago for my daughter. We found him abandoned as a kitten and I bottle fed him and tamed him. When we split she gave ziggy to a tweaker. I stole him back. The tweaker was not happy. Had him ever since. He's a pretty good cat. Edit-...

I don't have the knowledge of some of the moderators on here so all i can do is relate to the things or not and share insights about myself that may apply to you. Im not trying to make it all about me. But ill continue. This sounds alot like me when im frazzled or circling the drain. Except for...

It took me 20 years and the threat of possible imprisonment for me to ask for help. I get what youre saying. But i would consider the fact that you are here now is a good sign. Nobody is going to help you if you dont ask for help. Do you want help? When im at my worst there is no middle ground...

I'm just waiting on the VA people to get off holiday leave.

No, there is no where to go and its to cold to be homeless. He is drinking alot. I don't have alot of cloths so I basically have to do laundry everyday if I am to shower like I'm supposed to. He is constantly messing with my clothes, making sure I put it on the setting he wants me to. Constantly...

My childhood was rough. Drug addicted mom, alcoholic dad who would beat me when he got too sloshed. Abused by the child support system when my mom was MIA running drugs for the cartels with her boyfriend. Long story short hes been on an extended bender and its giving me constant anxiety...

Sticks and stones AAF

I am probably talking out of my rear because maybe talking about it is a temporary stopgap that stops working after a while but if putting this all down and it didn't help is it possible you have feelings for the person you won't even admit to yourself?

Youre tying yourself up in knots over something you can't fix and may not even need fixing. Its good you wrote this and told us tho. I always feel better after I tell someone when the ruminating is bad. Do you feel better after writing this?

When I first contacted the va for help I told the therapist that I remember iraq not being that bad but I could barely remember anything about so I started digging. Eventually I found my unit on a Facebook account I made to try to remember. I tried to contact some of them with no success and...

Its hard to say because there is me when im good and functioning and then there is me when im not so good and dysfunctional and withdrawn.

1. a deep-seated need for approval from others I generally dont care about what anyone thinks except for the people that i do care about what they think. But i try very hard to be a good person. Helping children with christmas presents and whatnot. Getting them bicycles. When i shut down i dont...

Maybe idk its hard to say. Whats me and whats CPTSD.

I think i am definitely codependent based on that. But i dont drink(abusive alcoholic dad) and im not controlling(same). Maybe i am controlling in a different way. I internalize it as a failure but ive never tried to stop my significant others from going out or anything. My only rule was if you...

Would codependency resemble driving 8 hours every single weekend for a year to just to spend time with her while working 50-60 hours a week? Being hyper protective and cutting anyone off that she didnt like or slighting her in anyway?

I think this is what I do until the stress becomes to much. I give and I give until I break. But I can't be sure.

Thank you all for your replies.

Can someone explain what fawn mode is? Not trying to hijack. Sorry.

For God giving me the ability to not hurt people when I really really want to.

Right now? Not alot. I've been forcing myself to shower and brush my teeth and drink lots of water. Ive been reading your stories and point of views which has honestly helped the most.. All the va people that process claims are on leave over the holidays and I've been shutdown for a while now...

Thats the worst. I'm sorry.