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I've been regressing this week. All of the progress I've made, or thought I've made, in the past few months just went down the drain. I'm so tired of this. I'm so tired of moving forward even though I know I have so much potential. I feel so lonely, such a hopeless loneliness. And I wish that I...

I start a new job in two hours and I have to leave for my college in 45 minutes, but I can barely get myself out of bed as I feel the incoming onslaught of a panic attack. I woke up under the overwhelming realization of the situation between my father and I. The part that tries to forget and...

I like this a lot :)

No need for apologies considering my soapbox was pretty lengthy ;) . It's a real issue and I just hate how contradictory our society is

I came across this picture today and I just love what this guy said. If anybody here has the memory of an elephant (I don't) than you may remember that I dropped out of my pretty conservative college this past September due to my mental state. I never really wanted to go to the college in the...

Nope, I'm never ever ever ever ever going to seek council from a church. I had REALLY bad experience when my mom brought the pastor home who pretty much forced me to tell him everything. Terrible terrible experience. I'm still considering going back to my old therapist after a 2 month hiatus...

@digger she never told me I was selfish, but I''ve always felt like I was selfish when I told her. Like i just wanted attention or something, but in truth I just needed help. I've even been told that it's selfish of me unloading something as heavy as my past. It's frustrating to me because I'm...

Thankfully I was able to put myself together this morning and I think I may have actually achieved an A on the test thanks to previous study sessions. I'll definately look into the disability services because although I haven't had an episode at college yet, I may in the future. After analyzing...

I'm sorry, I know I just posted, but my episode is just getting worst. And amongst all of my convulated thoughts attacking me, the one that keeps bothering me the most is, how am I the selfish one? Last year, I trusted a teacher with my secret because it was too much for me. I needed someone to...

No, I'm not. I always thought that diabilitiy services were for people with physical impairments. I should look into it, but even then why would they believe me. I look fine and everyone has setbacks

I have a test tomorrow that I really need to continue studying for and I've been desperately trying for the past 4 or 5 hours, but nothing is registering in my brain. I don't really know if I'm dissociating (I don't really understand what a dissociative episode feels like) but this is the time...

With my teacher, who is a trusted adult in my life, I hinted at sexual abuse because I was having a complete meltdown in my life. With my friend, she found out that my father was threatening me in June (she accidentally overheard a phone call where he was screaming in the phone) and her parents...

I don't think the good can anywhere near compensate for the bad which he inflicted either. What I'm trying to get at is that the good wasn't done with bad intentions. Those thoughts are what keep me fairly sane lately. Hugs

Lately, I've been really struggling with not being able to speak to any friends about what I've been through. I suppose it doesn't help that I haven't seen my therapist for more than a month (I know, I'm going to try returning once I switch to my new, less time consuming job, in two weeks) but I...

So I've been doing a lot of processing for the past two weeks and I think I can say that I've been making actual progress. For years and years I have split my father into two different people; good guy and bad guy who I shove into a closet in order to ignore his existence. That was my way of...

I haven't been keeping up much with your previous posts so I don't know your relationship to this guy and a lot of the back story but I still feel the need to comment. I'm sorry if this sounds harsh, but if I were this guy I think I'd block my Facebook posts too. I can't stand when others obsess...

Alright strange topic, but I'm genuinely curious. So I recently saw a promo for Switched at Birth (ABC family drama) and I decided to see what all the fuss was about with their most recent episodes. I've never cared much for any of ABC's dramas, but I was pretty impressed. The show is attempting...

I'm genuinely happy for you :) :) :). If anything good ever came out of PTSD in my life, it is that the small, what others would name insignificant accomplishments in my life can bring me so much joy. Hugs!! :hug:

I struggle so so so so so so very much with dermatillomania. It frustrates me even more so that so many people don't believe me when i say that it is a real disorder and I just can't stop picking at my skin. In my case, it's not triggered by anything; I just do it mindlessly. My problem area is...

This is the new legal definition as of 2013, at least in my state. For me, it's important specifically if I ever do decide to reopen the case or not

So a few months ago when I had to file a police report on what happened several years ago, the detective asked if I had been raped, and I said no, that it was just one time assault. That was it (I've always diminished the significance of events that happen to me, I think it's my way of coping)...

I may be. I struggled with depression from November 2013 to this summer and then in the fall it became very severe which is when I began to see my therapist. As I said, I've improved a lot and I don't struggle with it as much

That was me in october. I became so numb that I had several meltdowns and I had to drop out of college and go to the therapist. I improved tremendously and in December my therapist even asked if I still wanted to continue seeing her (she specializes in sexual violence) because I didn't seem to...

I was but I stopped in January because of my schedule. That and I didn't feel like I was getting anywhere with my therapist

The thing is I've grown numb since october, not just the month of february and it's only been getting worse each month