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    How Long Do Your Disassociations / Depersonalizations Last?

    My dissociations are usually 30 minutes to a few hours. Sometimes it can last most of the day which is a pain in the arse. Scott
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    Derealization And Depersonalization

    I have similar sensations. Dont know what to do about it though.
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    Ptsd And Altzheimers

    Does anyone know of any link between PTSD and Altzheimer's disease? I have Altz. in both sides of my family Scott
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    What Are You Avoiding Doing, That You Really Must Do In Order To Gain, Regain Or Maintain Wellness?

    You had my mind racing for a bit there, i was trying for Latin words starting with O... Scott
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    Analogy: My Ptsd Feels Like...

    I forgot to add: Like a mirror crack'd from side to side.
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    Analogy: My Ptsd Feels Like...

    my ptsd feels like hell but better than living with my mother (a labotomy in slow motion). Anyone else here have ultra tense shoulders? And a tremor and breathless and i want to crawl away and hide when I'm triggered. Damned wardrobe was my escape from Yeti. I don't have claustrophobia in...
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    Welp

    PTSD could be co-morbid with any of them. From what you've told us it probably is but you need to get it checked out. Scott
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    It's Not My Fault

    One of the things that irritates me about ptsd in the wider community, is the view that if you can't get over something, it must be your fault and you must be weak or defective somehow. Some people try to 'toughen you up' which doesn't help... I hate that. Scott
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    Welp

    You've joined the right club. I have had PTSD for about that long too. Scott
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    Poll Who Traumatized You

    Yeti has NPD. That doesnt mean she has a mental illness. That means she's just mental. Scott
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    Medications (etc) And Dissociation

    I used alcohol to remember. Now i know I'm weird lol. I used alcohol to get to a state where i could remember what happenned but without the usual inhibitions. I was a fairly erratic drunk and it was getting WORSE. I would frequently dissociate into an 'out-of-body' experience. Has anyone else...
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    Derealisation And Depersonalisation

    I've had the feeling of falling while I was sitting in a chair before. Fully conscious, sitting, just falling. I didn't even fall off the chair or anything. Scott
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    Derealisation And Depersonalisation

    I've been derealising and depersonalising sinc as long as i can remember. I can remember at 4 years old wondering what the difference between dreams and reality was. There wasn't much difference for me. When i get really stressed out i feel as though i am floating above myself looking down at...
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    Complex Trauma From Parents

    Yep me too. How can you tell what happened and what didn't when you have a compulsive pathological liar in charge, as happened when you lived with your parents? I question everything that happened too. Scott
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    Letting Go

    Have any of you wondered how much your trauma has taken over your identity? I have. It seems as though i am "becoming" my trauma. It's all i think about. Yeti is always in my head. I really feel like i am grasping at it and i should be letting go of it. She really was that bad though, I've...
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    Complex Trauma From Parents

    Yeti used to bitch about Joan Crawford, saying what a bad parent she was. Yeti must have identified very much with her because Yeti was worse. Scott
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    Complex Trauma From Parents

    Oh yes it can be, particularly if it feeds into their feelings of being superior, special, saved, or somehow otherwise better than everyone else. Its their narcissistic supply. Yeti's very religious, when it suits her, she's changed religions so often that she doesnt know what she is but she's...
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    Inner Critic: What Does That Mean To You?

    Yeti used to criticise me for not accepting criticism well enough. God i wish I could evict that bitch from my head. And Dud looking on, agreeing with Yeti in case she turned on him as well... As for me merging Yeti and my own inner critic, given that my inner critic is pathologically malignant...
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    Personalities Due To Trauma

    I have certainly had the feeling of someone/thing in control of me. I would answer a question and think "That did not come from me". A few times I have had a thought, and KNEW I THOUGHT IT TWICE (telling someone to shut up). Holy shit maybe I'm more dissociative than i thought... Scott
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    Complex Trauma From Parents

    Sounds more like religious addiction to me. Dud was forever making excuses for his second wife, after making a career of BEING the excuse for his first wifey dearest (Yeti). And guess who he blamed? The kids of course. I didn't want to be there either. Scott
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    What Cant You Get Out Of Your Mind?

    Yep, me too but thats during the day. I had a crash with Yeti too, but the bad one I was in a rollover. At night it's about the people I'd like to smash, instead of the smashes I've had. Scott
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    Child Abuse And Guilt

    Me too :-). Bed time was Yeti at her Best. And once she asked me "Why do you do it" boo hoo hoo, I was 15 and I'd told her to piss off. She was going to top herself. I honestly wonder what would have happened if I had offered to help... maybe I should have. Scott
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    EMDR Lashback - When EMDR Goes Wrong

    I've had a bad exposure to a therapist ;-) First words out of his mouth (AND THE LITTLE SHIT INTERRUPTED ME) was "All you do is bitch about your mother". I STILL want to rip the little prick's head off. That was THE END of that therapist. Took me a while to regain my speech, I told him i was...
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    Child Abuse And Guilt

    I thought I might 'protect' Yeti and Dud from what I think of them, by also telling them what I think of them. I simply have nothing to do with either of them. They are living in my head already (flashbacks etc) and I want to evict them. And believe me, they are in rent arrears. They've done...
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    Child Abuse And Guilt

    Yeti was UNIQUELY EMPATHETIC. Every muscle and every eye movement she is UNIQUELY attuned to and scanning. Constantly. And she is UNIQUELY manipulative. Everyone feels exactly what she wants them to feel. Makes me think about wax dolls and knitting needles. She's superhumanly gifted. What she...
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