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@Jane.l, this is the first time in my life I've ever questioned my sexuality. I've always been attracted to men even if I wasn't interested in dating them. But now I'm not sure. @jmni, it definitely is an intimacy issue. I've told my T that I don't want to be in an emotionally intimate...

Hey @paidfor, believe me I know not all Christians are judgemental or against homosexuality. But this specific church I belonged to and my friends still belong to are blatantly against it - they teach against it. Not hate, especially no where near the extent of the Westboro Baptist group, but...

@mrsps, people do surprise me sometimes. I know I wouldn't really have to worry about my parents accepting it if this were the case (again I don't know, in the questioning phase right now), but it is outright blatant comments from other family towards same sex relationships. I don't think they...

I saw my T today. She noticed the bruises on my arms pretty much right away, she asked me what happened. I told her that I didn't remember anything, which is the truth. We ended up getting onto the topic of me having a male co-worker over to my house. I actually socialized with someone, which...

@KwanYingirl, I don't remember the events surrounding the bruises at all. I remember being at work, then at home, nothing in-between. I work outside during the week, so I breathe fresh air all day. My T noticed the bruises very quickly, and asked about them. Obviously I couldn't tell her...

@xena21, actually police checks are required by law in my province to work or volunteer with certain types of people (disabled, elderly, children, etc), there is nothing negative about it. I do have support systems already in place.

Hey @FindingMyself88, I'm the same way. When I fight my dissociation like my T has been helping me to learn to do I find I get very snappy with people, and I can be very short with them. My T is trying to help me learn that there are times when it is safe to allow myself to dissociate and there...

@jmni, a police check is a background check so you can work with vulnerable people. They pull your criminal records to show whether you can work with kids/elderly.

@Justmehere, I'm scared of them locking me up because I dissociate so much that I'm afraid they will think I'm safer that way. I don't see any point in emailing my T about it... what do I say? "Oh I screwed up again, I don't remember how or what I did, but I got myself into a dangerous situation...

@Justmehere, I'm trying to be careful with the inhaler. It's for exercise induced asthma, but I've had to use it just during the day recently. @jmni, right now I don't really let myself have dreams for a better life because I don't want to feel disappointment. Just spending time with my...

I feel like I've just been sad for so long that when something bad happens it doesn't even get a reaction out of me. I don't cry, I just sit there, numb. I feel like I've completely shut down, I feel like I don't even exist. The only thing that lets me know I'm here is the physical pain I feel...

This is one of the many reasons why I never want to date again, or marry - I've never had consensual sex before and the thought of it terrifies/disgusts me. I'm perfectly ok with never having sex.

Not sure how this weeks appointment will go. I had such an intense reaction to our conversation last week. My T said something last week that stuck with me, and it even keeps playing over in my dreams too. She said that as victims (people who have been victimized) the reason we blame ourselves...

Haven't ever heard of it before, but if it exists that would be me to a t.

I don't feel like the comment was out of line. Your psych doctor was probably just trying to make sure that you had thought this decision through to its entirety. What happens if you are overwhelmed, what plan do you have in place for that situation? Are you going to have help living with you or...

@scout86, I'm assuming you mean "good for you" for actually going through with this and sharing it with my T? It was a "weird" experience for sure, different from anything I've experienced before. I've had intense flashbacks before, but usually it is being completely immersed into a memory -...

I had the session today. I wrote it all out on my iPad and brought that with me. I gave that to her to read, I didn't have a flashback right away but a short while later in the session I went into one that really screwed with my head. I saw my uncle come into my T's office. He was screaming and...

I figured I would try and write out what I wanted to say to my T on Thursday. This is what I've come up with after a while of writing, I don't want to be long winded about it in case I get upset, but I also want to get the information across to her. I'm very nervous about approaching this with...

@ghotiff, I like your idea. I like the idea of planning out what I want to say, it will take some pressure off of me by writing it out or typing it out first. Then moving up the levels by imaging myself telling my T. I will definitely take your suggestion and try this. Thank you...

@scout86, thank you for writing out the worst case scenario saying. That actually makes it easier to think about. Yeah, worst case I have a really bad flashback, but at least it would happen where I have someone I trust to help me recover from it - plus it may help her to help me more. And I may...

@BloomInWinter, I know it is a topic I want to discuss with her because it is causing so many problems for me right now, but I don't know how to approach it with her. I trust her with every part of me, she has never given me a reason to question that, and has given me every reason to trust in...

I don't think she is speaking out of line, we are on the topic of abuse, which in my case was sexual in nature. She was speaking about how sometimes people don't even know they are abused until they have sex for the first time and it all comes flooding back then. My T always respects my...

Please do not confuse the title "Struggles in Therapy" with "struggles with therapist". I have a really good therapeutic relationship with my T. Just because I have a good relationship with my T doesn't mean I don't have struggles in therapy, but I also have a lot of positives in therapy with my...

The issue between the new social worker and I has been somewhat resolved. After the blow up of my appointment being cancelled, not finding out until less than an hour before, and the off-handed way the social worker handled the whole situation I had no intentions of ever seeing her again or...

@NovemberStar, I also have 2 rats, but I've had them since before Christmas.