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Thanks for your responses I think I want it badly to work outpatient because I have some stuff planned in October with a friend we are going away and I want to and we have to but tickets and stuff and I just don't want to do that to her like sorry I can't get my life in order so screw your over...

It's hard my best friend died of her eating disorder 2 years ago this August sad I know the risks and damage already done but it's just a constant struggle. I was doing ok then some shit happened and I became well a mess. I can look at River Oaks never heard of it before. I just need to be ok in...

Thank you so much for your support i am happy i found this website because no one in my real life understands me so i just keep it to myself besides my treatment team. i can even have a good day and be tired like today i just want to be normal sometimes and not have to deal with all this and the...

Sorry PIW was so bad I don't know much about trauma programs but good to know what to avoid. when i go into regular psych units i just stop eating and no one cares at all i know i have done damage being anorexic 31 years at this point. i wish i didn't feel how i feel i did do something nice...

We don't have breaks as it is a daycare parents would lose their minds lol...but anyway i don't know about IOP programs around me i don't really think we have any for trauma my therapist can't even find a trauma support group close to me. i think i can still perform my job i am struggling a lot...

Thank you for the advice. My therapist always considered my eating disorder passively suicidal because it's like a slow way for me to die without actually killing myself and I admit to that . I can manage for a little while just not good right now. If I went to the hospital as much as I don't...

I have a nutritionist I see tomorrow. There are ed programs around me but they don't help me. I don't know if any trauma programs around me and I am sure my therapist would have told me or looked into it. We can't even find trauma support groups around me. And ed programs tend to make me...

Thank you for the support. I some how got through work now home and exhausted. Not feeling great and journaled some at work. I have therapy tomorrow I don't want to say I am still feeling sort of suicidal I don't want to go to a hospital ...

I am so exhausted at work today it's such a struggle to get through I love the kids it's just exhausting...my thoughts are all over the place... I made an appointment with my psychiatrist it's not until August but something she is in communication with my therapist so that helps but I just feel...

I had book club last night but was so exhausted I could hardly enjoy it...I have work today I will probably just come home and relax or try to. Sometimes I can't get out of my head so hopefully tv will be enough to distract me tonight I should go grocery shopping but with an eating disorder it...

Thanks for the support. I know my therapist was just talking for like safety purposes even though last week she mentioned long term trauma treatment. I am not in a great place i see my therapist twice a week for double sessions If i went somewhere i like the idea of my therapist being involved...

At a low right now been struggling really bad with my depression and just hopelessness ...my nightmares are terrible as are flashbacks...my therapist feels I have regressed a lot recently and am going backwards. I said a lot in texts to her and she said the way I talk is passively suicidal and...

I have read about complex ptsd and felt it really related to me though i never brought it up to my treatment team. My therapist read about it and found and article and told me today she feels it really fits my situation and my behaviors and everything. I have thought it a long time so its kind...

I can't really work part time at my job as I am head teacher and really no one is part time so that doesn't really work and I love my job. It's one of the few things I do enjoy even when it is stressful. That is why I don't want to go to a long term treatment program and leave it I am struggling...

Thanks for the support. I am the head teacher at a daycare and work with toddlers ages 1-3 it is very demanding work but like this year i got a raise and idk its difficult to think of leaving my classroom and my kids and even if i could take a leave of absence no one at works know about my...

So my therapist just brought up long term trauma treatment again...I was doing better she saw growth but now she feels I have regressed. Nightmares and flashbacks have ramped up I have fallen into bad depression and my eating disorder has been not great and we had a session Thursday she sent me...

thanks everyone i am going to keep working thats all i can do it is a struggle but i have her support she will help if i have to reduce sessions she doesn't want me to worry about that for right now as i tis not happening right now she said for some things we will cross that bridge when we come...

I have never really been told i have co-dependence problems and i am doing ok not like great and there is a lot of new stuff being dealt with that could lead to a major set back and already has but i have made progress at the same time its confusing. I am in a lot of ways independent i just like...

I have been in therapy a long time with my therapist about 9 years I would say now and have known her longer as she did a day program i was in for about 2 years straight in and out of inpatient at that point and back to the day program. she is wonderful and i trust her more than anyone i feel...

My therapist hugs me after every session it did take years to get to a point where i would allow it as i was very severely sexually abused and did not like any touch from anyone and never really had safe touch. that is kind of why she started it and now i like sometimes ask for more than one...

Thank you for the support. I am not planning on pressing charges I know that would be too much for me and i am not in a state where that would be ok...i am still in my anorexia and struggling with nightmares and flashbacks like crazy and self harm and suicidal ideation...I know you are right. my...

I don't know where to post this. I was abused by my brother as mentioned in other posts it was horrific my psychiatrist told my therapist when she told her some of the things he did to me that only a monster can do that sadly that is my brother. I don't think my mom doesn't believe me but she...

I spent so long being stuck like literally so long it takes time sometimes.i think for me this approach is best and i trust my therapist more than anyone and i am learning a lot and she does teach me skills i just don't always listen lol...it takes me time to find the right things to help me and...

thank you i understand what you are saying yes i have had other issues i believe everyone has different experiences and need different things my situation is complicated for sure ...

My therapist also believes i have stockholm syndrome in some ways do to the way my abuse was and i protected my abuser for a long time and also am protecting my brother as well but this was before that came out and its hard to deal with those issues i am not sure she would say the same but she...