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As others have said..... some therapists apply casual phrasing rather than being in clinical explanation mode all the time. It’s different experience for everyone, my therapist talks in my language comfort, using real life language that I would feel comfortable relating too. My T once said...

I’m in the reverse position, I work on the security team in a hospital. I had to respond to a violent patient whom suffered dementia, had pace maker surgery that same day. Stitches opened, IV lines tore. Sadly I had to apply significant force on the patient because I was also badly injured in...

It got bad enough that I preferred the drunk over the self tooting perfection she became. There were days I’d pray to my higher power that she fell into the bottle just for a change of pace. While I am never one to willingly assist someone to fall. I can assure you I had dreams of me driving to...

I have always viewed AA with the understanding that it’s one method in a line of potential assistance available. Kind of like prescription medication. Penicillin works for some, it can hurt others. But there are alternative options. I have seen the program work successfully for many, I have...

Right now I have to have a serious conversation with my Psychologist about the wording of his reports and overall observation. All through the reports it states that PTSD and Acute Stress Disorder are present. But, the incident that got me these round of sessions is not being worded strongly...

Six months just doesn’t seem long enough to know everything about someone. I can’t say what...... but! Something changed for sure. Not to be an instigator. Given that this is the first time she addressed PTSD and you ask if someone else would be better may have shut down communication. You let...

It’s why I’m not a big fan of these ‘after context’ videos against law enforcement. In fact in my history. I have only ever seen one video that showed everything that went wrong and deserved airtime. Because it showed everything from beginning to end. But yeah..... I still lose sleep some night...

Thank you for this post! I had a troubling experience ongoing in my Emerge unit for a period several months. I’ve never truly felt safe to discuss one issue. I had 16 year old girl absolutely damaged by Meth addiction, from previous experiences, I know what hardbound drug abusers are willing...

I can attest to the compassionate part of doctors, I work with them, I promise you, you want the detached seemingly uncompassionate one. They’re cold and clinical. It’s means they’re in the game of solving a problem not wrestling with an emotion over the problem. As far as investigative...

My friend, you deserve to feel that pride and sense of significance to the history in which you served. I’m happy you’re avoiding your time frame but very proud that you’re embracing the legacy. Try to remember, whatever brought you to where you are today, you ran forward against everyone...

A friend of mine is a former police officer with our National Police Force which is known as the RCMP up here in Canada. It’s full of crazy long standing history. My friend got clocked for PTSD and can no longer perform. But he was incredibly proud of his time, his performance, his investment...

I’m raging tonight........ I’m just so damn angry with the case worker I dealt with. Because of the things they said. They kept pressing on Firearms trauma example....... god dammit, I have dealt with patients whose blood was far more damaging than a bullet and damn gun in my presence. I would...

Are the triggers because he is probing what is wrong or his behaviour naturally reminding you of your past that leave you feeling threatened?

You’re not a bad person, all of us with traumas move forward at the present trying to bury the past. That’s just us trying to find normalcy. Nothing with that. Before I offer my next advice, your current relationship is supportive of you, he’s not doing anything that triggers your past?

While the short term is presenting terrible challenges, today felt like a ‘give up’ day. Instead you wrote it out here. Which makes me smile because inside you’re still in the long term mode. That’s why I keep writing here...... because I know the short term is hell. But I feel the long term...

Is your current relationship aware of your past abuse? If he is, I’m sure it wouldn’t be a surprise for him to know you’re melting down and why.

I do this often. From forgetting where I am driving to putting the peanut butter in fridge. The best is when I forget to turn off the tap on dishes sitting in the sink and walk to find 30 minutes later that soap suds have invaded my apartment with a ton of water. It’s a sign of many things...

It’s hard to admit that you fell, even harder when you need to justify your fall. My compensation was granted based on an incident that is now deemed ‘returnable to work’, while this incident allowed for more exploration of PTSD, the specific incident does not qualify for continued coverage. As...

I recently finished Max Tegmark’s - Mathematical Universe and the theories of a Multiverse. It gave me enouragement to think that another version of myselves made the right choice. I’m just the sacrificial lamb for a greater good so that my other selves have a greater purpose and better...

Well today was a bust....... I’m angry because all the forces that are allowing me to have these sessions are now conspiring to minimize my experiences. Today I truly wanted to talk about an experience that has forever altered me. Instead.... I get to unleash it here because I was too busy...

@LuckiLee - I am too! It made me proud to see him stand up straight for a moment and realize he was in command and respected again. I don’t know where he is now. I’m hopeful. He did finish the program though! There’s a reason I wear my family name as a tattoo over my heart. My granddad was...

I’ll share a story for you, it’s a tough story, one that is a stinger for me. While I wear a different uniform than military, there is a respect from one uniform to another. It’s hard for us uniforms to admit failure. I know you’re looking for answers about how others deal with trauma. Us...

Not to fear..... 43 Year old male in a hectic world of hospital emergency unit, long story behind my 42 year old plush Koala. My mom used to restuff it when I was a kid. I loved the bear, it went everywhere with me. It was well used. My mom was going to reline, recondition and stuff my bear...

I’m off to see my therapist today, in preparation for a meeting with case worker and my employers. I’m angry because this microscope I’m under has put me in a position of feeling like I’m a horrible employee for breaking down. I’m trying to remind myself of all the events where I made absolute...

Right now I’m pushing for long term disability with hopes for career retraining to get out of this industry. I truly don’t want to go back into that environment. Especially now that I’ve seen how they meticulously pick events apart into what is justifiable or not. Because the short term program...