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I have been in emdr for 1-1/2 years now for multiple traumas going back to childhood. I have felt exactly like you on many, many occasions. I continue to underestimate the amount of time and the number of sessions it will take to actually see results. You are not doing anything wrong. You...

Thank you all so much for the support, stories and encouragement. I think it's going to be a good week.

One more update to kind of "end" this part of the story. I had another session on Friday. It was really intense. My T had to work hard to ground me in the present. I just kept seeing me with my young adult self in the bedroom. It was like I was seeing the trauma through her eyes. Like she...

Update: I had my session on Friday. I did read the letters to my x before I went and started crying immediately. Once I got in his office I started stalling. Just chatting about daily stuff. He is always quick to use an obvious shifting statement like "ok so anyway" to signal me that we...

Hashi - such good insight. Thank you for your opinion. And your encouragement.

Maddog, thanks so much for this. I know that I will have to parent this girl myself. That's why I figure we will talk about the challenge of sending her to "play" with my T. :) Everyone - here's a question: My session is tomorrow. I have a double session booked tomorrow and next Friday...

I completely understand how you feel. Especially with emdr. It can be so painful. Many times I am so nervous while waiting in the waiting room (which is the worst) I have broken out in hives by the time I see him. He's the nicest guy ever. I'm just dreading all of the emotional crap we are...

Honestly - hearing these stories makes me feel better. I contacted my T yesterday because I just couldn't focus at work. He suggested I tell her I have to work and could she please think about a pleasant memory, some trip she took or play a movie she enjoyed. None of that was working for me...

I don't feel profound. :) Today is one of those days where I just want to quit therapy and try to put everything back like it was. I feel completely out of control. My emotions are ruling me right now and I start to worry it will show at work. It's a miserable feeling. I tried to get an...

These stories are so comforting for me and I see so much of what I'm going through in them. That young adult self is completely overwhelmed with guilt and shame. We asked her why she wouldn't leave the room and she said she is afraid of being rejected. My adult self would prefer to leave her...

Solara, thanks for the reply. There is such a conflict for me. I'm trying to help her, but I still struggle with all of that being her fault. (My fault.) Not only is the relationship her fault, but since I am still single at 43 it feels like that is her fault too.

I have been working deep in EMDR for a year now. We are finally down to my identity and the parts of myself that are holding me back or I'm holding them back. I was sexually and emotionally traumatized as a young adult and that part of me is so hard to reach. This is going to sound bonkers to...

Ok. Sorry I assumed it was from the session. :) Sounds like you have alot of stress going on. I completely understand. I'm very glad that your therapist stayed with you. emdr is hard work. We have gotten mostly through a sexual trauma and moved on to other things, but I had another...

I have had these same sort of nightmares. Dark figure, no face, coming towards me. I have been doing emdr for over a year now and I haven't had one of those in a long time. I'm so sorry he was in your safe place. I understand being disoriented too. I have left my therapists office and driven...

Hi Tif, I've been doing emdr for about a year and a half. I would love to share experiences with you. I find it really hard but really helpful sometimes. :) Welcome to the forum. Samson

Hi everyone, I've been up and down for a while now. Had to cut back on therapy due to finances. I'm only meeting my T every other week now for an hour and we are trying to hold off on emdr while I move, sell my house, etc. Lots of stressful things happening - trying not to add more by doing...

Hi Grace511, I'm sorry this is happening to you. I have had experiences like that from some sexual assault. I wake up feeling like he is in the bed with me, or doing something to me. My therapist says these are flashbacks for me. Because I know the event actually happened, my body is holding...

Thank you for the comments and encouragement. I believe it is both the depressing memories and grief - all at the same time. My therapist says I have to grieve some things from my past. I'm just in an overload situation right now with therapy and present day stress. I've increased my Zoloft...

Hi, I have just worked through a set of traumatic sexual assault memories. It took me a year. I felt really good for a couple of weeks and then we went onto another set of memories concerning childhood - not sexual abuse - but trauma nonetheless. I have been really fighting depression. I'm...

My therapist called me back yesterday. I was glad because I was allowing myself to believe he really didn't care that I was hurting, which couldn't have been further from the truth. I just began to ramble on about all of the things I had been feeling and was honest to tell him that I have...

I have had a tough weekend. Parts of a flashback that I thought I had worked through resurfaced and it has set me spinning. My T has told me to call him when I need some extra help in between sessions. I have left him messages before, but I've never come out and asked him to call. So he...

It is totally going to be worth it in the end. It can get really discouraging in the middle. I can feel really good for a few weeks and then BAM - I'm down again with anxiety and fear. My T has told me this will start to go faster. He has described what you are saying that people begin to...

Earth to Samantha, emdr can only take a few sessions. It just depends on how many traumas you are processing. A single trauma may be processed in 3 - 6 sessions. Therapy bankrupt, thanks so much for your encouragement. My T can't really tell me how many sessions we will have. I...

Sick of Fear - I encourage you to return to therapy. If you want. I have tried to fix myself over the years and have now discovered that I didn't really even know what the problem was. I would have never understood without the help of a therapist. Thanks to all of you for your encouragement...

I'm somewhat discouraged by the ups and downs nature of therapy. We work really hard to progress through trauma work only to be met nearly immediately by the next thing that your brain wants you to fix. On one hand it's encouraging that your brain wants to continue to heal, on the other hand...