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    In Public With Loud Children-- Do You Say Anything?

    That's a good idea. I'll try that. I would feel super grumpy if I felt like I was being chased out of places, but if I always had earplugs, that would help give another option.
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    In Public With Loud Children-- Do You Say Anything?

    I also hate that, on one hand, it's relevant to say "I have PTSD and this is seriously troubling." But mostly I don't think I (or anyone) should have to disclose that just for people to be more responsible.
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    In Public With Loud Children-- Do You Say Anything?

    I don't have any children of my own, so I never know what I feel entitled to say/or do in situations that involve other people's parenting skills. However, I do know what it's like to have PTSD and an exaggerated startle impulse, as well as heightened senses. And, as I'm sure many of you...
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    I Can Ride The Bus Again!

    For months now, I've been having major problems with riding the bus, and I don't drive right now. The bus has been making me dissociate something awful, in addition to filling me with fear and violent imaginings much of the time. But last week for the first time in ages, I just felt like I...
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    Having Trouble Being Open To Sleep

    These are all good ideas, and I really appreciate you all taking the time to share them. One thing that I do when I'm clear-headed enough to get anywhere is to just try to kind of step outside myself so I can ask myself what I need to feel safe. And I've realized that a lot of times...
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    Having Trouble Being Open To Sleep

    Between ptsd symptoms and hypomania i've experienced lately, my sleep has really taken a hit. I can take up to 250 mg trazodone for sleep, and i can also use melatonin. However, it's so hard for me to accept taking it. it will be time to take it, and I'll just think of all the things that...
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    Calling Out The Flakes

    Yeah, that all makes sense. Though my mother has this problem as well--asking emptily what she can do and then disregarding any answer I give--and I don't want to cut her out even though it's really hurtful. So I don't know if I can prepare the same little thing to say whenever this comes up...
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    Calling Out The Flakes

    That's true, and you're right. I do need to be prepared to lose these "friendships" that are not at all mutual or reciprocal. And I think some people would want a chance to do better. And I have the same problem re always being the one to initiate contact. Sometimes I feel like a pest...
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    Calling Out The Flakes

    So, I've noticed a pattern in some of the people around me, most specifically my mother and this married couple that I know. The problem is that these people will pay lip service to the idea of doing helpful things for me but don't follow through. In my mother's case, I feel like it doesn't...
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    Boundaries And Self-care

    Thank you. It's a good idea. I live in the US in the Upper Midwest, though, where it's quite cold, and I have cold weather asthma so even bundling up and getting outside doesn't help much. But there are probably some indoor spaces with at least plants and stuff that I can find.
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    Boundaries And Self-care

    Not sure what to call this thread, so that will do. I was letting my self-care lapse and lapse and didn't even realize how much until it, along with my self-esteem, had pretty much disappeared. For the past few weeks, I've been having a manic episode, so it was harder to care for myself during...
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    Do You Think Traumas Play A Role In Making You Honest/dishonest?

    I think it also depends who you lie to and why. Sometimes I have lied to people, for example, about why I couldn't do this or that when really I just didn't think the person would understand that I was too triggered and instead said I had a migraine or something. Other times have been less...
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    Feeling Ugly

    Thank you both. (It was 12 or 1 here, yes.) I always feel like I am done with body loathing, but sometimes it returns like this. risingsun, you reminded me of an excellent counter-argument, which is that I would probably even be drawn to someone who looks like myself. I wouldn't be this hard...
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    Feeling Ugly

    I have PTSD and also bipolar II. I have been manic for the past three weeks, which is also agitating some PTSD symptoms. I've begun feeling very very ugly and have said a lot of disparaging things to myself about my body. I'm used to those thoughts coming with depression, but I had never...
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    Hypersexuality

    This makes a lot of sense. I hadn't really considered the grounding benefits of sex in quite that way, though I know it does help take the edge off. Which is great; it's just that that fades and I want more of it, and down the road I hear from someone I must have had sex with but can't remember...
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    Hypersexuality

    Like other people here in a couple older threads I read, I experience hypersexuality sometimes. Though I have had a lot of sexual trauma over the years (and have also made choices that just led to me re-injuring myself), I never know know what my hypersexuality and promiscuity are "about." For...
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    I Just Want The Shaking To Stop

    Those are good ideas. Thank you. I remember when I was in DBT that we had to make a self-soothe kit that appealed to our senses, so tapping into them is a great suggestion. And good timing since I have an order en route from my favorite perfume company! I will also try the somatic movement, as...
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    Functioning Despite Struggling

    Thank you, scout! I think that courage paid off after I posted because I was able to calmly and directly tell my mother to stop guilt-tripping me, which has been a huge source of stress lately. I know I am doing really well on a lot of levels even if I am not relaxed yet. Fake it till you...
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    Functioning Despite Struggling

    I am struggling very much right now with a kind of superstitious indecision. My adrenaline will spike and I will just sit around freaking out because I am convinced my day will go differently depending on whether I check my email before or after I brush my teeth. Given those conditions, it is...
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    I Just Want The Shaking To Stop

    Though I have a whole barrel full of symptoms right now, perhaps it is trembling constantly that bothers me the most. My psychiatrist has taken me off benzos because I was drinking on them, and I wasn't offered anything different for anxiety. Because of my healthcare, the only way I can see a...
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    Bouncing Between Mania And Sleepiness

    The fire was two weeks ago today. I think that being creative does help, but I also get kind of tired of it at a certain point when I want my brain to stop focusing on wordplay or sometimes images I want to create so I can do other things or just relax. I try different visualizations and such...
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    Bouncing Between Mania And Sleepiness

    Hello everyone, In the aftermath of a fire in my apartment which has left me temporarily homeless and destroyed all my clothes, I've been having some odd new symptoms and don't know where to land with all of this. I should point out that I may or ,may not be bipolar type II. My doctors are...
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    Anger For The Non-angry Type

    Anger is still a fairly new emotion for me to feel and allow myself to have. Growing up, my father was the only one who "had permission" to get angry and act out, and the rest of us were just expected to internalize everything. I have done work in therapy on feeling anger in my adult life (I am...
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    Should I Quit Guitar

    I would suggest looking for a new teacher/space before quitting altogether. That is, if you enjoy the lessons otherwise. If you still want to stay with your current teacher, is there at least another place you could meet?
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    Ptsd Interfering With Professional Obligations

    Thank you, @Wounded Scribe. That gives me a palpable sense of relief.
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