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Gaaaaaaaaaaah I just am so miffed. I do NOT get it... Why?!?!?! How?!?!?! :mad: *Whimpers* :(

Wow, I am so sorry that your mom did this to you as well. It is honestly very horrible. I feel like when I tell people they think that it doesn't sound all that bad... But it was. I also posted many other things and they go more in depth to what he did... Anyway, thank you for the validation. I...

This really gets me riled up... How can he do this? This is below is what I am feeling in regards to something my dad said to me...!!! :stomp: I feel responsible for my r*pe. It doesn't help that my dad told me that it wasn't r*pe because I didn't fight back... Instead I just laid there and took...

This actually affected me more than I thought it did. I think I have been lying to myself. Thinking it doesn't really bother or affect me anymore... Anyway, thanks you all.

Thanks for believing and allowing me to be on this site. The support means so much! This was hard to write and any insight and comments accepted.

Thank you all for accepting me and allowing me to be here. This was hard for me... Any comments, views, or anything appreciated.

Thank you so much. Safe :hug: for you.

* I am sorry this will end up rambly but I HAVE to get it out. This has to do with the lack of support from my dad in relation to his best friend who r*ped me 3 months ago (09/22/12). Bear in mind that the majority of the first part is redundant and may not seem important in relation to the r*pe...

C was my first everything. I was very naive and innocent in some ways. I trusted him. He was so cunning and he told me everything that I wanted to hear. I believed him. Who knows maybe he did love me at the time in his own sick and warped way... It doesn't really matter. It was perfect for the...

Didn't Have a Chance This confusion will not cease, You've broken me in many ways. Will I ever get any peace? Have you got nothing at all to say? Did you think you were doing right by me? Did I even matter to you at all? I was just your scapegoat to sanity, It didn't matter if it caused...

Remorse I loved you so much; we were all hurt so bad. If you're reading this you might think I'm mad. You hurt me, I hurt you, mean and harsh words were never few; Everything was always so misconstrued. As I'm lying here writing and thinking about what I saw, Also I am thinking...

Feeling at a loss for words Needing to speak the words that lack. Wanting to be free like the birds Flying away and never looking back. Flying back in time before the tears Happy and without a care. Seeing she is now a hollow shell of fears Breaks her heart beyond repair. Screaming just to...

Sorry if this offends anyone. I know it will probably seem to a lot of people that this isn't bad at all but it scarred me beyond belief. Emotionally and mentally, it has taken a huge toll on me. I again do not wish to offend anyone. I am sorry. Feel free to comment if you have any input and...

Before you think about quitting T (because I KNOW I have) or about how it even helps, try and look at it this way... Now you don't have to agree with me but as a nurse I have this type of viewpoint and I find it makes a lot of sense... So here it is: If you break a bone bad enough (or hurt any...

It is kind of a letter? Not sure. Hugs, insight, prayers, support, would be nice. I will give you hugs and support back! I support you all regardless though I hope you all know that. Here is a shout out to all of you who have ever hurt me, used me, abused me, or screwed me over. (Not...

I hope this is OK to have on here. This particular post isn't really regarding sexual abuse I don't think. I hope that is OK. Back in July I found an old journal that I wrote as a child and there were things in it that I had written that I forgot about or pushed down inside. I re-rememberd...

Thank you! It means a lot! Right now I have to live at home. Thank you for your concern. Blessings during these holidays.

Thank you for the kind and insightful reply anndeb. It means so much to me. I can't even say. Blessings to you. Sorry I am short on words. I am so tired. Safe :hug: if OK.

Thank you both so much. It means a lot. Truly. I am honestly short on words but what you both said means the world. Sometimes I think that to him there were no sexual thoughts... Just him playing with his little girl. Tickling her all over and turning her into his best friend and patting her on...

Thanks Chrissyy. It means a lot that you reply to yhis. I hope you are OK. My T says the same thing. That I rationalize too much for him... I don't know... Anyway, thanks! You both have given me a lot to think about and ponder. Blessings to you!

Thank you for the reply. It means so much to me. It truly does. I am short on words but want you to know that I REALLY am very thankful for your reply. It has helped me a lot. I hope you are well. Blessings to you. Thank you for the validation.

Can someone please help me? I just need some insight, hugs, prayers, support, advice, anything. I am so lost and confused and hurt. I have NO CLUE..... :cry:

Yes. I am a Christian and it helps me immensely.

I have been diagnosed with ADHD since I was 9. The thing is, I had the ADHD before the PTSD. And actually I haven't been officially diagnosed with PTSD but my T says she is very sure I have it. I show a lot of the signs. She says in the nest few sessions she will evaluate me but she says it is...

Welcome!~ I hope you find it helpful to your healing journey! I support you! Safe :hug:if OK with you.