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    Sexual Assault Betrayal In The Worst Way

    Gaaaaaaaaaaah I just am so miffed. I do NOT get it... Why?!?!?! How?!?!?! :mad: *Whimpers* :(
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    Sexual Assault Covert/emotional Incest

    Wow, I am so sorry that your mom did this to you as well. It is honestly very horrible. I feel like when I tell people they think that it doesn't sound all that bad... But it was. I also posted many other things and they go more in depth to what he did... Anyway, thank you for the validation. I...
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    Sexual Assault Betrayal In The Worst Way

    This really gets me riled up... How can he do this? This is below is what I am feeling in regards to something my dad said to me...!!! :stomp: I feel responsible for my r*pe. It doesn't help that my dad told me that it wasn't r*pe because I didn't fight back... Instead I just laid there and took...
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    Sexual Assault Domestic Violence And Sexual Abuse

    This actually affected me more than I thought it did. I think I have been lying to myself. Thinking it doesn't really bother or affect me anymore... Anyway, thanks you all.
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    Sexual Assault Covert/emotional Incest

    Thanks for believing and allowing me to be on this site. The support means so much! This was hard to write and any insight and comments accepted.
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    Sexual Assault Scared Child

    Thank you all for accepting me and allowing me to be here. This was hard for me... Any comments, views, or anything appreciated.
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    Sexual Assault A Shout Out: Venting And Apologizing

    Thank you so much. Safe :hug: for you.
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    Sexual Assault Betrayal In The Worst Way

    * I am sorry this will end up rambly but I HAVE to get it out. This has to do with the lack of support from my dad in relation to his best friend who r*ped me 3 months ago (09/22/12). Bear in mind that the majority of the first part is redundant and may not seem important in relation to the r*pe...
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    Sexual Assault Domestic Violence And Sexual Abuse

    C was my first everything. I was very naive and innocent in some ways. I trusted him. He was so cunning and he told me everything that I wanted to hear. I believed him. Who knows maybe he did love me at the time in his own sick and warped way... It doesn't really matter. It was perfect for the...
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    Didn't Have A Chance

    Didn't Have a Chance This confusion will not cease, You've broken me in many ways. Will I ever get any peace? Have you got nothing at all to say? Did you think you were doing right by me? Did I even matter to you at all? I was just your scapegoat to sanity, It didn't matter if it caused...
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    Remorse

    Remorse I loved you so much; we were all hurt so bad. If you're reading this you might think I'm mad. You hurt me, I hurt you, mean and harsh words were never few; Everything was always so misconstrued. As I'm lying here writing and thinking about what I saw, Also I am thinking...
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    Never Be The Same

    Feeling at a loss for words Needing to speak the words that lack. Wanting to be free like the birds Flying away and never looking back. Flying back in time before the tears Happy and without a care. Seeing she is now a hollow shell of fears Breaks her heart beyond repair. Screaming just to...
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    Sexual Assault Covert/emotional Incest

    Sorry if this offends anyone. I know it will probably seem to a lot of people that this isn't bad at all but it scarred me beyond belief. Emotionally and mentally, it has taken a huge toll on me. I again do not wish to offend anyone. I am sorry. Feel free to comment if you have any input and...
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    Before You Think About Quitting T

    Before you think about quitting T (because I KNOW I have) or about how it even helps, try and look at it this way... Now you don't have to agree with me but as a nurse I have this type of viewpoint and I find it makes a lot of sense... So here it is: If you break a bone bad enough (or hurt any...
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    Sexual Assault A Shout Out: Venting And Apologizing

    It is kind of a letter? Not sure. Hugs, insight, prayers, support, would be nice. I will give you hugs and support back! I support you all regardless though I hope you all know that. Here is a shout out to all of you who have ever hurt me, used me, abused me, or screwed me over. (Not...
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    Sexual Assault Scared Child

    I hope this is OK to have on here. This particular post isn't really regarding sexual abuse I don't think. I hope that is OK. Back in July I found an old journal that I wrote as a child and there were things in it that I had written that I forgot about or pushed down inside. I re-rememberd...
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    New Member

    Thank you! It means a lot! Right now I have to live at home. Thank you for your concern. Blessings during these holidays.
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    Sexual Assault Love, Fun, Pain: Confusion

    Thank you for the kind and insightful reply anndeb. It means so much to me. I can't even say. Blessings to you. Sorry I am short on words. I am so tired. Safe :hug: if OK.
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    Sexual Assault Love, Fun, Pain: Confusion

    Thank you both so much. It means a lot. Truly. I am honestly short on words but what you both said means the world. Sometimes I think that to him there were no sexual thoughts... Just him playing with his little girl. Tickling her all over and turning her into his best friend and patting her on...
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    Sexual Assault Love, Fun, Pain: Confusion

    Thanks Chrissyy. It means a lot that you reply to yhis. I hope you are OK. My T says the same thing. That I rationalize too much for him... I don't know... Anyway, thanks! You both have given me a lot to think about and ponder. Blessings to you!
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    Sexual Assault Love, Fun, Pain: Confusion

    Thank you for the reply. It means so much to me. It truly does. I am short on words but want you to know that I REALLY am very thankful for your reply. It has helped me a lot. I hope you are well. Blessings to you. Thank you for the validation.
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    Sexual Assault Love, Fun, Pain: Confusion

    Can someone please help me? I just need some insight, hugs, prayers, support, advice, anything. I am so lost and confused and hurt. I have NO CLUE..... :cry:
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    Poll Does Prayer Help You Feel Safer?

    Yes. I am a Christian and it helps me immensely.
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    Poll Does Anyone Have ADHD in Addition to PTSD?

    I have been diagnosed with ADHD since I was 9. The thing is, I had the ADHD before the PTSD. And actually I haven't been officially diagnosed with PTSD but my T says she is very sure I have it. I show a lot of the signs. She says in the nest few sessions she will evaluate me but she says it is...
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    Hi, Been Here A While Just Introducing Myself

    Welcome!~ I hope you find it helpful to your healing journey! I support you! Safe :hug:if OK with you.
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