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I had a chat with my T but it didn't go well. I took out all my negative emotions on her, I blamed her for everything. As if that was not bad enough, I also sent her many emails :( Maybe tomorrow will be a better. I'm going back to my cave tomorrow morning.

I haven't been home in 9 months, so I decided I should go visit my mother and everyone else at home but I think I wasn't ready for it. I only stayed one night and I'm in a very bad place. Every wall, window and door in that house knows my pain. It wasn't long when everything started coming...

Well done Gloww33, I will try some of your advice East healthy and go to gym. I can hardly sleep over 3 hours, sleeping pills are also not helping much.

The session went well and there was no reason for me to feel the way I was feeling., she asked me questions I didn't know how to answer. Like why did I want to cancel, why did I feel so scared. She also reassured me that she's not upset or angry and that our relationship was strong. She also...

I've sent her an email and she asked me not to cancel. So I guess in 4hrs time I'll be having my session. Even though she's asked me not to cancel a big part of me still wants to. To be honest I don't even know how I feel. I can only wait and hope the session will go well. I feel so afraid of...

After last week's screaming match with t, I'm not sure if I'm ready to go back. I have a booked session today and for the life of me I'm just too scared to talk to her today. I thought by today I would have been over what happened last week but I'm not. I feel like sending her an email and just...

I'm so sorry Panda, I would have probably walked out on her. Get another therapist. (((Hugs)))

Thank you all, I feel a lot better now

Irelocated beginning of this year because I wanted to far from my abuser and moving has helped me. Though I have to admit the first few weeks were hard. I didn't know anyone and had no ssupport. But I'm glad I related

Lol, thank you Shimmerz for making me to laugh. I don't think I'll get an ice cream. Jane.I, I'm actually thinking of getting someone this side but I'm also scared. It takes me long to open up and trust someone. I don't like the idea of starting afresh and I might be moving back home early next...

I just feel like I said some stupid things to her and I don't even know where they came from. When she asked me what I wanted from her I then raised my voice and said I want her to love me, take me to the park and buy me ice cream. Who says such things to a T, truth is I wished I had those...

I don't where we are now, I apologised for upsetting her and she said she was sorry that I'm in a bad place. She knows how to make me laugh so she said a few funny things so I could laugh and be in a better space. she also said she'll talk to me next week and I said yes. I don't of our...

And then I just cried, I could have just hung up on her but I have promised her I will never hang up my phone on her

She was frustrated about me canceling all my sessions them calling her for a session. She said things which made me to think really hard and wonder what she meant. her voice was raised I even asked her if she was upset and she said she was frustrated and that she needs me to decide what I want...

It's been a while since I've been online, as most of you know that I've moved to a new province early this year and things have been challenging. I still talk to my t over the phone and email because I'm not ready to start with a new t. This week I've been in a bad space and I think I've pushed...

I'm in my home town and staying with my boyfriend, the main reason I'm here is that I have exams in a few days and I thought being in a familiar place would help me concentrate better. Last night things went to the left with him, I had kept having images of my abuser so I decided to let myself...

I agree with The albertros, when I am with people who know about my condition I normally just stop talking completely then they would know that I am not ok with the particular thing. With my therapist I use colors so when I say black she knows we have to change the subject immediately, when I...

You are not being a horrible friend. I would just ignore the texts.

I have started going to some church 2 weeks ago. I'm looking at getting more involved and meeting people.

Digger1, it wasn't the best support system but not being alone every time helped me stay strong or working hard on hiding my symptoms. I will talk to my t about her helping me find someone this side. TimeToHeal, my current t is 2000km's away. She is also aware that I am a little too...

Digger1, I was referred to the specialist by the dr I saw in the ER. I have thought of getting a therapist near me but there's a lot of fear in me. I've had a bad therapist before and I am afraid I might end up with another bad one. I am also dreading starting all over again. however I scheduled...

The past few weeks things have been really bad. My symptoms are getting worse and I do not have anyone around here. I have been in an emergency room a couple of times. On Tuesday I dessociated during my phone session with my t and it was really bad. It took her a while to bring me back. This...

I think my partner would relate well you, he has gone through the same thing with me at times he got really frustrated. I am in therapy for sexual abuse and when i get flashbacks and all that I take it out on him. We separated for 5years and got back together in 2010. What I have noticed is...

A call from someone dear to my heart, a good funny movie sometimes.

I guess I am in a different boat, I sleep all day and all night. I just can't stay up. I am taking vitamins and other meds to help me stay up even with that I struggle to stay up. I wait for the weekends so I can sleep it off, I am not sure which is better between less sleep and too much sleep...