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    Death This Is My Breath !

    It is about loosing faith in humanity. Not being able to trust in athority and their ability to love true. I have endured a harsh life; yet, I have never let go of my true love and greater light within. It is the Way of the Ronin spirit. To endure hell fire itsellf to be united with the...
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    I Finaly Understand My Purpose.

    I have been here before. As I looked back at my life and pondered all the ups and downs. All the light and all the dark. I realized; that I am very old in regard to the flow of time. My spirit has always been vibrant beyound the colors. But; I am like a reluctant rock standing in the great...
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    Canticle

    If I open the window to my soul and let the light in, my heart will see the joy and smile. If I focus my minds eye on the beautiful ones and the good life, my path in life is blessed with compassion and fun loving adventure. If I speak with eloquence and devine words; but, lack love; I am...
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    The Rapist Gets Released This Year

    I understand and no worries; you are not blubbering. You are brave and have right to feel the way you do. I just wish I could do something to help you more then just words. I was so relieved when the people that raped me were sent to prison. It is where people like that belong. I wish I...
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    Death This Is My Breath !

    When I went the Ronin way sheading my skin, you asked me why, why why? Hell all the diamonds and gold won't say it true! Time stands still... hearts beating black; Stumbling down like fools, Bending down on my sunshine. So I hang my breath, I embrace my death! Hell yeah; now you have my Buckskin...
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    Canticle

    For those that can turn darkness to light Deep down the night. Feathers turned down; not falling, not stumbling, not hiding; But riding, Flying down there... Crying deep down! Shine on, you are beyound Beaitiful
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    Why Don't They See Me?

    Yes there is anger and pain. Half the sorrow was that I had to be alone when I was standing right in front of those that should have been strong enough to love me true. They were all chasing after pearls and diamonds. From breath to death many fail to see that the greatest prize is true love...
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    I'm So Sorry.

    Shhhh, calm the storm now. Hell; that apathy belongs to them. You are loved and respected here. The first wound deep down wants to scream. Let it breathe, you are not alone there. The second wound is not theirs to give. I know it hurts like hell right now. Let it breathe and let it be...
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    I Am Surprised I Am Still Around...

    This is the end~ For the true colors I adore, falling down all the doors... Deep blue and flowing down; Beneath, the Catholicism dancing under the skin... What was the only Sin? Was it my turned down light; was it your turned down eye, or was it all just a lie??? Hell; you have to love your...
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    Pms And Ptsd (tmi Warning For Men)

    Please do not think I am lacking insight because I am a male. First of all I want to thank you for sharing this and reaching out. I can relate with the the rush of blood and the emotional chaos. I was two years old when I was first injured and faded into my lonely PTSD out of faze reality...
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    I Am Still Running Through The Night!

    Please tell my heart to stay! Hell I was 12 years old running down the night. The old quide marridian road. Creatures of the night were sniffing down my trail. Hunting me with a thirst of souls. My heart told me to keep on running don't stop go. I ran the souls of my shoes off, pounding...
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    Why Don't They See Me?

    Damn and double damn, they still don't know me! For my Family... I was a thousand miles away when that God damn phone rang. The Rine Stone Cowboy was playing on the vinal. The damn phone rang and my heart stopped. Not one damn word; just a dead ring, I already knew you see. Grandpa and I...
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    Canticle

    The sound of silence shattered under hoof. Stamping down on my sorrow. The raging bull screams into my darkness... My eyes begging, pleading, fading. Please stay. He smells my fear, he is chasing after my racing heart; I am the one. Please stay; but, my tears drown out voice and flood my heart...
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    Canticle

    The sound of silence shatters under hoof. A raging storm stomping down on my terror. Time froze me there, screaming like a demon in my darkness. My eyes pleading, begging and fading. Clouds that darken my eye. Tears that flood my heart. Please stay... I will face the raging bull He is running...
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    There Must Be Something Wrong With Me

    Wow sweetheart your words regarding the anger really rings true in my soul. I can not face the intensity of my anger their. I know that it is not my fault; but, I am so angry with myself. I am afrraid andunwilling to direct my anger towards the ones that hurt me deep. I love them to much to...
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    Testing Therapist?

    Congradulations on your baby. So happy for you and the blessing. I feel that it is a normal reaction for those of us that survive the burden of PTSD. It is our way of self presorvation. You are making very positive and difficult progress on your path towards healing the physiological...
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    Canticle

    It was not so hard in the rain; down on me... Candy canes and Christmas tree fire; walking down the funneral pire... Hell; I just had to stop time and breathe! Bend the love down here. Step accross my sky; Listing to my song and let it cry... Wisper in my storm; Islands of paradigms... Pearls...
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    There Must Be Something Wrong With Me

    With hope all things are possible. With love; the sorrow is soothed, and the shame fades. You have never lost the hope and therefore you have the love within. You protected yourself, your children and you loved true along the way. You are a kind hearted warrior and damn the downfall of...
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    Canticle

    They cast their shadows down shedding stones of sorrow and flames within. Scalding the shame beneath my skin, Their enequities belong to me. Waves of apathy that crash deep below; echo, the undertow of humanity. Every drop of flame Lights my fire within this lost love Is my only sin...
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    I Am The

    Thank you I appreciate that so very much. Love, resoect and honor. You gave me a heart smile. Thank you heart and soul for the blessing.
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    I Am The

    I gave everything I am as an adult. I loved with all my spirit and they kept on keeping on. Taking bits and peaces of my soul. I turned my cheek and loved them stronger. They kept on keeping on; stealing my happiness and light within. I walked away and left them all my hard earned life...
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    It Burns Me Deep!

    Absolutely yes. It is the way of love and kindred spirits. I will do the same on my path to healing. It has been forever since I have been this broken and the old wounds are like new. I never time stamped them way back when. I burried the shame deep within and kept on keeping on. It is...
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    It Burns Me Deep!

    Wow truly beautiful words and wise. You struck a cord deep within my soul. I broke me first when I fell into the dark. I fought like hell to get back home and carry some very deep wounds there. I never did break a bone. I was faster then the pain running wild and free. You are a healer to...
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    It Burns Me Deep!

    Reminds me of me and my Sony. We were absolutely inseparable. Hahaha, he would have sat proper at a school desk if they allowed him. One of my greatest blessings was his unfathomed and forever love for me! He was a husky and timberline wolf mix. Huge, proud, old soul and loyal throughout...
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    It Burns Me Deep!

    What burns me is that all life is sacred. From breath till death and beyound. We all must find our way back or fade. Let love rule and hold on tight, because it's going to be one hell of a ride!
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