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@DharmaGirl yeah I like horror books, games and movies it’s almost a coping mechanism

@RuffledFeathers hey, glad to hear you are back with us. I am sorry you had such a bad experience with the psych unit. They certainly can be overwhelming and traumatic. I agree with Eve and think you may be in protective/survival mode so you’re shutting down from everyone so they don’t hurt you...

I have 2.5 dachshunds (one is a mix) and they are characters. They burrow, snort, get zoomies, randomly appear in my fenced garden when I’m in there, snore loudly, think they have to taste test everything I eat, howl and harmonize with each other, one dog carried a lime with him for a few weeks...

The Stand by Stephen King and Calvin and Hobbes :)

I think it’s possible. I can shut down and feel empty for days. I am trying to reconnect, learn and identify feelings again. It’s slow going. I can identify intense feelings if I have them like anger but otherwise it takes a lot of introspection to figure out how I am feeling in the moment about...

@RuffledFeathers how are you doing today? I agree w others about taking some more steps for treatment. I understand where you’re at, when you just want it all to stop and there seems to be no point. It’s all too much. Depression lies to you. It makes things so much more difficult, it will tell...

I haven’t had sexual trauma. I’ve had physical and emotional. I find I dissociate and disconnect. I feel like I have to have a sex life at times so I’ll pressure myself to find someone so I can feel normal. But I don’t feel normal. I feel nothing. Emotionally and physically. I’m not sure if this...

I’m late to the party on this one. Yes, I have given my therapist the number of 2 people, one happens to be a friend, one my brother. I was super edgy about it bc I didn’t know how trigger happy she would be with calling them. However, I can say in the 6 years I’ve worked w her, she’s only...

I’ve been w my trauma T almost 6 years now, I didn’t even know I needed a trauma therapist and just happened to find her after failed attempts at therapy with a hippie who tried to tell me I was an alcoholic when I went to her for grief counseling (I’m truly not), and the guy that fell asleep in...

@Friday I may have to do that. I feel weak. For the most part I know I will be fine but I have those fleeting moments that are like “hey, die” and if my day is bad enough, I’ll really start considering it. I know there’s a big difference between thinking and then action, it’s been awhile since...

@AnD and @ladee thanks for responding. I have some lock boxes I could put them in and then put them somewhere inconvenient. I know what you’re saying about if it’s inconvenient to get to I’m less likely to be impulsive. I’m usually fine w normal prescription meds for like acid reflux but I get...

Had to get refills on almost all my meds and the new one of Ativan and it’s hard to not think about suicide and taking everything. Over 1000 pills. Struggling w medical issues, had another setback today w an appt. I see the pills and a voice from no where after doing ok just yells “end it” and I...

@Tornadic Thoughts have you tried vegan brownies with avocados in them? I try to be supportive and mindful. I have some dietary restrictions and in general as trying to be healthier and lose weight and I get a lot of push back for that and I know she gets push back for being vegan which is BS...

@Friday that sounds amazing. I love baking bread in my Dutch oven!! My dad in the kitchen is a joke, he once tried to grill a frozen pizza, burnt the bottom and the top was still frozen. Lol. Those sandwiches sound great. I think I really have under estimated sandwiches.

@Friday i totally wanted to make miso soup, but was afraid to make it and I couldn’t find an ok base recipe. It also took me a long time to find miso paste. I’ll have to find dashi now. I do love it. I’ve seen recipes w mushrooms, green onions, kale, spinach, etc but never a good base recipe so...

@OctoberMaple I'm sorry you’ve had to experience all of that. I would also agree that most all of us at one time or another had shitty therapists. I had a guy who regularly fell sleep in session and routinely broke confidentiality. Then I had a hippy lady who insisted meditation, sand raking...

Carrots, golden delicious apples, cheese pizza preferably homemade, still in search of the best chocolate chip cookie recipe. Music fluctuates: I can listen to Linkin Park, Evanescence, ska or Motown when I’m happy or sad.

What are some healthy comfort foods people like?

I’m not sure if this is where to post this but I’d anyone else feeling mildly triggered by the whole families being separated across the US? I personally have had a really hard time listening to it, aside from the obvious reasons. Especially when psychologists were listing long term effects on...

@bumbles are you a part of the new space army? Lol jk. It does make sense. I try to not sit still bc then I start thinking. I’ve been working on art projects I’ve been putting off and cleaning.

My brother, friend and therapist who are my core support system are all out of town this week. So it’s been interesting. I feel ok but I also feel myself closing off from them which I have a habit of doing and I hate. I have 2 semi stressful doctor appts this week bc I’ve had undiagnosed side...

@Stephernovas Let me preface this w everyone is different. That said, I’ve been in therapy w the same therapist over 5 years. I think it took me about 3 to start minorly trusting her. And it’s not her it’s me. I trust her more now but it can wane at a moments notice if I don’t feel safe or...

I had the same problem w the book. I would dissociate pretty badly, even when trying to break it down. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve reread parts of it. It was like an “ah ha” moment for my T. Now we are trying to read “Safely Embodied” by Diedre Fay. So far I kinda remember the forward.

That’s so true!

When you weedwhack the tulips instead of the weeds next to it