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I feel so bad that I am sooo bitter now though. I'm not even trying to be bitter. I am just sick and tired of "keeping the peace", " keeping my mouth shut", "being positive", "having faith in God" and getting totally getting screwed over by all the a$$hats in the world that don't responsibility...

@turtlemoon, thank you. Your words are kind. Life can be so weird and unfair sometimes but I guess we are somehow all in this together.

I personally believe, no matter who you are, memories affect everyone, whether they realise it or not. But some of us, when we were little, were trained to shut down our feelings and not express them or else we would be abused or yelled at or shamed in some sort of way. That's not healthy and...

I literally have so much anger that I feel like breaking things. I am sooo confused. I know I tried so hard to be the best person I can be with my life for sooo many years and then... when I was in my mid 20's, I became an immature teenager ripping her life apart. And now I am 31 years old, and...

I am trying sooo hard to regain control over my life, but it seems that whenever I do, I end up feeling so angry and frustrated. I feel like saying, "I hate" to everything. On top of everything, I am trying so hard to eat well but my body seems so rebellious and it is causing me to hate being 31...

I have felt more shame from leaving my religion than for leaving my family after all the years of abuse from them growing up. And I have lost a sense of myself since leaving the religion, that I never lost when I left my family. I used to believe in a God that I was both scared of but also felt...

Sorry for all the mistypes. It wouldn't let me edit it for some reason after I posted it.

For one, when you leave a strict controlling religion like the Jehovah's witnesses that practices shunning, the response you get when you leave that religion is that it's all your fault. You must have done something wrong to get disfellowshipped or they say it was your choice to leave and you...

I know what I went through growing up was pretty harsh but sometimes I feel like it wasn't that bad and then feel horrible for reacting so badly to everything these last couple of years instead of continuing to hold it together and stay strong.

In the process of healing your symptoms of PTSD and improving your quality of life, have you ever felt yourself resisting healing? Almost as if you were subconsciously thinking life with the symptoms is better than without? I have and I think for me, people around me at the time either seemed...

This whole shame thread you have started, has been so helpful to me. Thank you

That sounds like fun to me... NOT! Sorry you are going through this. Not fair! Don't you love it when ppl do that to you! Ugghhh!

Me too! And I'm getting better at it. I didn't use to stand up for myself or call people out on things though. I just used to play the sweet, nice, peace-making card and that doesn't work out too well.

I LOVE your response to Freedomfighter's post. So many people in general are so quick to judge or speak nasty st#t when they don't even know what they are talking about. And when someone is having a hard time, they like to take advantage of it to make themselves look or feel better about...

It hurts to be judged and misunderstood. Sometimes people are just ignorant or don't take the time to understand us. Sometimes people use other people's hardships and hurts in bad ways to boost their own egos. Other times, people may just have too much going on in their own lives or too...

Me too! And that's partly why I'm on here

Shame is what has brought me into therapy. I personally hate shame even more than all the painful abuse I have endured. I feel like I have to fix myself or there is something awefully wrong with me. Shame is what has turned me into a perfectionist. And then when I am a perfectionist, I feel...