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It's everything for "us." Loud high pitch ringing in ears, eyesight goes fuzzy, blinking increases, inability to get comfortable, inability to make any eye contact, our hands feel odd as if they have to hold onto something, shallow breathing, flight feeling/panic attack leaving us feeling...

I have experienced exactly what you have and sometimes I don't have structural experiences leaving me deeply depressed, confused and hopeless. My T and I are working on it and its the scariest to experience and I'm sure to watch. Wish I had better advice

And that is spot on how I live my life daily, almost in fragments but its the only way I can survive right now and to think that, is devastating.

My T, like many, will point out the positives for obvious reasons. I've expressed the inability to work, be the everything at home all while I'm trying to work on the disaster inside. I like my T and I'm not interested with finding a new one. Inpatient has only proved to set me backwards as...

I always tried to make them later in the day and it usually works out. But, I am aware I'm not the only client so sometimes I take what I can. It doesn't change the random morning appts and when the session is particularly hard, I'm no longer going into work. My appt was at 9am and I was due to...

Without the recovery time, the more isolated and horrible I feel. I too like to sit next to the river, in the sun to help bring back some regulation but I don't have time on the books so no pay. Its a vicious cycle to be in...

Its been almost two hours session has been over. But, it was especially tough as we are embarking on uncharted territory. The dissociation was high and remains high despite efforts to ground. So, for those with DID and everything else it can take hours, even a few days to re regulate but right...

The tiny slivers of hair feeling I've had before. Its having the sensations of feeling everything on my clothes such as dog hair and it drives me crazy. I end up taking the clothes off and inspecting every inch so I can justify my behavior. I've tried benadryl and it doesn't really help. I've...

I dissociate all day, everyday. I have all the symptoms that go with it. More recently though, I hear things- muffled version of people talking, birds chirping at night, the noise from the highway as cars zip by and a lawnmower also at night. I also have fuzzy eyesight and I struggle to read...

As if having major depressive d/o, GAD, PTSD, and Borderline personality wasn't enough, add Dissociative identity d/o NOs. I am one of those people who grew up thinking everyone had different parts. Yes, I know the average dissociates but I'm not talking about that version. So, thanks to a few...

Both physically and emotionally. I want to focus on the physical since I believe is the result of all the emotional pain. Now that the humidity is here, it exasperates the chronic muscle pain. I have fibromyalgia and have had it since a young age. It can come and go but in the last few, more...

Co-worker comes into the office and says hi to every person- but me. Like it was a deliberate action. And my feelings are hurt. And all the parts talk and give their opinions towards that as well as morphing into every single self hatred. This is going to be a long lonely day

Hi, I've been through DBT twice but like everything else, I have to do again and again. I remember teachers being puzzled by my lack of ability to recall any information. I seem to go into my own world and it wasn't until my adulthood I was diagnosed with ADD. It's very frustrating Thank you...

It usually does open her eyes: literally. Because some draw things too

Me too. If my not so nice parts would allow the journal to be seen by my T, she will hopefully have more understanding. I get she wants to point out any positives but its as if something bad needs to happen for a response. She knows the evil parts want us gone- for good. But she doesn't know the...

Thank you. On a day like this, I feel so alone. I'm very similar to you because I have past stuff and more recently newer trauma's. They provoke/trigger everything. My parts are everywhere and everyone of them has tons to say. I like my T and she's qualified and I don't feel a need to go...

I've been through DBT twice and my brain is still like this. I'm frustrated and everything else

Its not only BPD. Its the DID and constant switching. Its text messages from my husband at 6:30am telling me how he's trying and failing at everything and how I'm disguisted by him since I don't do it with him consistently. Then says he'd rather be gone. Yea, great way to start the day for...

The hospital tends to only put me backwards and adds an entirely different group of people and over medicated. Been 2x in the past and unless my provider suggests it/tells me, I'm staying out. Our state only has 2 psych hospitals and to get in takes upwards of a week spent in the ER waiting for...

That's how I feel too, not being given the chance to work on it. At 38, I'm tired of dealing with my past so I thought I'd deal with it since I've had additional traumas in the last 2 long years. But, how? If anything, its made me more depreseed, angry, obsessed with things I can't control etc...

I can't focus on the work in therapy and do everything else expected of me. Such as: work full time, be the wife my husband requires, be the mom I need to be, I have little to no friends left because I trust no one and I have no time left at work and work is a huge trigger. Overwhelmed, and very...

So today a part of me decided: I don't care that others see and hear me talk to myself. People have already made statements about my mental health, all negative so oh well right?? Don't care anymore. I'm different, weird, and everything else. Screw em. Anyone else at that point?

I can't control myself when I get that way and unfortunately I ran my fingernails down my face and chest multiple times...not my best

My husband is correct: he can't say anything critical to me or I'll flip out. Little does he know my angry part comes out and now its fight or flight. He doesn't allow me to leave and then I'm taken over. Its as if I can feel anger running through my blood and things get thrown. I'm screaming at...

Just throwing the following dx's out: MDD, GAD, Borderline personality, Ptsd and DID. That being said, in the 10 years of being in active MH treatment, has it really helped? Yes. I wouldn't be typing this if not. Yes, I had 2.5 years of DBT training (plus individual DBT focused therapy. Yes...