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Thank you!! I feel normal suddenly :)

I am so sorry you had to experience this kind of behavior. Hope that you will find someone more compationet and professional.

I used to have T who cried in few meetings. And I didn't even speak about the abuse. Just my childhood and my feelings. It was strange. Never knew what to do when she cried. So I don't need my T to start sobbing. Just be compationet. More human. Well, who am I kidding. I need her to behave...

I don't care!!!! I need her to be more human. "I am sorry that you had to experience that" will work for me. If she is "professional" in my most sensitive moments I feel unseen. Like I don't exist. Like nothing I said matter. I don't know... Maybe I am too emotional about this. And yet after...

Hoenstly, I also feel that she doesn't have experience with this kind of trauma. And yet, what kind of behavior should I expect from her? She is therapist not my mother. She can't behave in the way my mother was supposed to behave (in a warm and loving way. Or Save me from him for example)...

Do you feel sometimes that your T don't understand you or is distant from you? In the last few meetings I tell her about my flashbacks / recovered memories form the sexual abused in my childhood. It is very difficult for me to speak about it. Sometimes few seconds between the words. And after I...

Yep. It's an issue with me too. Maybe because my T looks very good and I am fat I feel the need to dress the best I can. I don't think she cares how I dress but I am afraid to be judged. Maybe because my mother used to judged my apearence and the way I dressed I am afraid to be judged by my T.

Thanks for the YouTube recommendation. Just watched one of the movies about memories. They explain it simple and clear. Thank you :)

I wish I could cry

Thank you for your answer kailani but I don't think the flashbacks are real because I see my self with this person as I am now and not as a child. He died 5 years ago. So it can't be true. Thanks for your kind and warm words

I can't stand the new flashbacks. its driving me nuts. i am in therapy for about a year and about a month ago sexual abuse that I didn’t remember from childhood came up (honestly I wasn’t very surprise because I always felt something bad happened that I have to hide). the thing is that until...

My T say that healthy attachment is good. That there are no relationship without attachment. All my life I don't trust people not even my own family. I used to cut long term friendships in a minute without looking back. never missed them. With my T I really miss her when she is on vacation and...

I wonder why we are so attached to our T. I went to her a year before the abuse came up. She could take as much holidays as she wanted I couldn't care less. But when the abuse came up and I started to tell her really personal staff I became attached like a child. Strange...

It's very difficult. My T took 10 day vacation and I felt like an abundant child. Tried to be a grownup about it but at the end disconnected myself from feelings. Only felt anger. And when she came back she told me that she has to be away again and our next meeting is canceled. I said no...

Hi everybody I had a meeting with my T today. This was the first thing that I asked. She told me that the situation I am dealing with is very difficult and she is with me in the process. But no matter how much she will say it's difficult it's not as difficult as I am feeling it. No matter...

thank you :-)

May I ask what did you do or say when your psychologist said that?

Hi Giorgii. Thank you for your answer. I am going to talk to her next meeting. By the way she was not sexual abused (thank god) she told me.

I am afraid that her subconscious said that. She is also human.

Yes. I am going to although I am afraid to do that

I really love and respect my T. It's the first time that I trust someone and told her so many thing that I never told no one. I feel comfortable with her. But when the sexual abuse came up a month ago I was worried that maybe it's too difficult subject for her to deal with. And I asked her many...

Yep I know the getting up issue :)

Hi Katz. Thanks for the advice about the journal. I used to write a journal since 8 years old until 25. I love writing. I have to get use to it again. Regarding the room I meant to say that although I sit evry meeting in the same place. After I go home and remember things about the meeting I...

Katz - Hi, i am trying to write a journal but it is very difficult for me. like if i will write things it will become true and part of me dont want it to be true. in my last meeting with my T she said that she is very sad for me because of the things i told her. i didnt understand why she is so...

thank youu all for taking the time and answer. i couldnt reply because i was very sad. in happiness i think that i mean the freedom to find my own happiness without being afraid of what other people will think. the freedom to be me. feeling comfortable in my own skin. feeling relaxed and...