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I'm positive there has to be someone who can relate to me. February is a difficult month because it's when my life spiraled down a deep hole that took up till recently to mostly recover from last year. It's also the month following the assault 4 years ago, when I spent most days incredibly...

It really does! I don't think I've cared so much for myself (appearance, health...) since last february. It just feels great!

Competitions were always stressful for me too. I painted competitively and tested in Spanish. For three years straight I could never get past the regional competition no matter how many hours I spent working and it was so frustrating to see the people I lost to. Last year was the worst as it was...

January should typically be a triggering month for me considering it's when the abuse began, but so far this has been one of the best months I've had in a year. I've made such simple and small changes, but they all just feel so great! I chopped off most of my hair to a shoulder length bob and it...

Thank you everybody for the kind responses :) they've all been incredibly helpful, especially the article attached. I' still working on it and I think I'll just start carrying a journal with me again and teach myself to write when I feel the need or desire to rather than forcing myself to vomit...

For months now I've just wanted to write about how I've felt in the past year in order to make some sense of my emotions. But, every time I try, the words just don't come to me or it becomes too difficult. Even in therapy I can never get what I really feel out. I just would rather have it stay...

Hah, there's never been really any physical intimacy and that's mainly at my fault since I cringe at the idea of him even holding my hand. The most I do is a quick hug.

So I've been a bit MIA lately because my life has been steadily improving although I definitely have my off days. I recently noticed I've been steadily weaving my way through the steps of grief...if there's a word to describe this past year then it would be, hectic. I'm just hoping that I can...

I know that I've said quite a few hateful and angry things in posts about my mother but at the end of the day I know that I love her and she loves me even though we both struggle to love in a healthy way. I found out recently (ok, it wasnt that big of a surprise) that I struggle to express love...

@Solara I would never let my children near my father who sexually abused me. That's why I said that I know I'm not going to go back and contact him. I just miss my father before everything happened. The one I had before all of the mess happened when I was 13. Oh believe me I know she's trying to...

Thank you for the responses :) . I'm pretty sure there's no turning back for me and getting back in contact with my father, but just admitting how I really feel just seems like it might be a step on the right direction...In my direction. @Seagreen The reason my therapist had to tell my mom we...

I believe it's about time I just completely opened up about how I really feel. Posting on the forums have helped me more than any diary can because others are reading and others are offering me support in ways other can't. I don't know how long this post is going to be, but I'm just going to...

Feeling guilty is a normal response when someone you love is hurting even though you couldn't have changed the situation. He's probably pale from crying and it's good that he is able to move his arms.

How hard was the floor and exactly how did he land on the floor (his back, belly, head?). How old is your baby brother? You're baby brother is responsive and is crying so that is good, I have been around babies who have fallen from high heights and are fine afterwards but I recommend pushing...

Today has just been a fantastic day, I can't remember the last time I've felt so good and full of energy. I got my haircut, which is actually a big deal for me since my hair cutter is a really good friend of mine and she still thought I was in california. I had to get over my fear of...

Alright so worst case scenario didn't happen and I wasn't yelled at and told how stupid I am and every other negative thought I can think of (come on brain stop freaking me out all of the time). She said she needs a few weeks, but she would live to have coffee with me sometime and then we had a...

Well I messaged her and she just responded. I can't bring myself to see what she said. My hands are shaking and my heart is beating out of my chest. See, I not only think up the worst case scenario, but u expect the worst case scenario to happen. Which in this case would be, putting my heart in...

Thank you for all of the responses. Let me clarify a few things and add a bit of background. First of all, @risingsun this coworker recently moved cross state and no longer sees tabitha due to the move. So tabitha is the closest friend I've ever had to date and she was practically my sister...

First, let me clarify. When I say ex I mean my ex best friend who dropped all contact with me two months ago. This morning a concerned coworker of hers (who happens to be my friend) called me with concern for "Tabitha". Apparently Tabitha's boyfriend broke up with her last week. She's had...

So my therapist keeps encouraging me to set up a visit with my doctor about my depression. She's not the first to advise that and I'm just curious, what exactly will the doctor visit do? I mean, I don't exactly know if I'm comfortable with the idea of medication yet so what else would it...

I'm stuck. I'm at a loss for words. This project started because I had to cover a topic that is very misunderstood, so I chose suicidality because it felt so personal to me. But, then it began to expand into depression as well. I never expected the responses I heard from so many people that I...

As I delve further into the study, the more my questions are evolving and how I look at the topic. You're completely correct. Suicide and suicidal ideation are two completely different topics, but not many realize that. Now I'll begin to focus this study more on suicidal ideation rather than why...

@sun seeker the reason I worded the question as such is because many of the people I've interviewed did not indicate they had personal experience with depression, but you're absolutely free to answer what it has been like for you. I'm so much more interested in the reality of depression rather...

@Lucycat. As solara said, I did ask in a previous thread if the members on the forum were fine with me putting up the results of the survey online for them to read. Several said they were interested in seeing the results and I hadn't seen a response stating they were uncomfortable with the idea...

Warning: This is, so far, one of the most frustrating responses I've received. Name: Lynn, Age: 19-20, No relationship which I know of. Response to question 1: "They consider/commit suicide because they reach a point where they give up on themselves. Some people feel they are not loved...