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  1. K

    What are you good at???

    I can understand that 100%. You have to listen to your body or it will get your attention in unpleasant ways. I hope you find what works best for you and that you enjoy things to the fullest. It was a fun project. I've walked a good distance of the Donner Trail and am inspired by their...
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    Kittie's Journal

    Nice to meet you too! My concern is my reply won't come out as intended and someone will end up feeling offended. I want to boost people up and not add to the problem by my mismanagement of words. It seems many here are very proper and eloquent with their language writing skills. I'm sorry to...
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    Kittie's Journal

    My cat is back to normal! What a relief! I've finally slept well and was working around the yard/garage/shed to get ready for winter when I noticed a lot of things missing from the shed. I tried to review the security system and it locked me out. I'm very annoyed right now. I left a...
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    Anyone else feel guilty?

    Just that I may never find the answer I'm hoping to find. Life is like a deck of cards. I got a red card instead of a black one that day. No scientific reason, just random luck. I've also wondered if I haven't already fulfilled my purpose by caring for my family until the end. I'm still here...
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    Anyone else feel guilty?

    I completely understand that. I hope you and other seekers find the purpose and the peace that comes with it! I've come to the conclusion that I may never know and that I'll just have to accept life as it is. The best improvement I can make is to create my own purpose.
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    Anyone else feel guilty?

    I know I survived for a reason, I believed that reason was to raise my son and care for my mom in her later years. I suppose now my reason is to care for my cats. There must be more to it than that. Minds/brains are complex, especially with emotions added in. Why I wasn't one of the 112 who...
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    Anyone else feel guilty?

    I feel guilty for surviving, that feeling has stuck with me and no amount of counseling has improved it.
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    Kittie's Journal

    A Thanksgiving miracle! My cat has improved slightly! Not "out of the woods", but a huge relief! She was acting more like her normal self so much that I went ahead and went to the dinner I was invited to. My neighbor has a large family but I had never met most of them. The food was fantastic...
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    Sufferer Survivor and would-be researcher - childhood abuse

    Welcome! Looking forward to the discoveries you make and share!
  10. K

    Kittie's Journal

    Thank you! 15 minutes ago, she just showed a slight improvement! Keeping hope!
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    Kittie's Journal

    Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, but to me, its just another day. I'm thankful every day but having no family left to share a big meal makes the holiday depressing. Instead of being gloomy, I'll do the usual routine...housework, yard work, play with the cats, maybe spin in the afternoon. I have a...
  12. K

    What are you good at???

    Sorry you had to deal with elevated cortisol also. For me, its like being in panic mode all the time, even when I'm calm. It gives me energy to get things done on the plus side, but the downside is high blood pressure and anxiety...which leads to major weight loss. If I keep on the medication...
  13. K

    What are you good at???

    Yep, 55, the "double-nickle"...gettin' old! I have 2 things working against me (besides age, haha!), one is that its a big challenge to put weight on and keep it on, I consume as many calories as possible. The wheel is 26 pounds (add 16 more pounds if Simon the Ragdoll cat spins with me), so I...
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    Kittie's Journal

    Thank you, I feel like a whiney one sometimes but typing things out helps put things in order, especially with helpful feedback. I'm not looking to impress anyone, I seek peace, like everyone else here. Companionship would be a bonus, for sure! I literally can't stand being alone but it beats...
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    Kittie's Journal

    I sense there was a lot of "difficulty" (for lack of a better word) in his family. I "feel" what he showed himself to be at work and off the job was an act to try to fit in, but deep within, there's a lot of misery. As he became more comfortable with me, he didn't spend the energy to hide it...
  16. K

    Coping with being a family "Embarrassment"

    Sending peaceful vibes your way! When one family member hurts, the whole family hurts. I can relate to looking and feeling different, not feeling beautiful. My husband divorced me because my looks had changed. It wasn't until much later that I learned true beauty is on the inside. You have...
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    Kittie's Journal

    Thank you, I feel I've dodged one, too. I went with my gut instinct, which didn't kick in for a while. I was hoping through rose-colored glasses until it didn't feel like the right thing anymore. I know the input from people here influenced me to stay true to myself! I lean towards the...
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    Kittie's Journal

    The soap opera has come to an end! I have mixed feelings...a mixture of relief, calmness, a little disappointment and annoyance (that I'll be over by the time I finish typing this) and satisfaction with just a touch of pride for standing up for myself. It started as a normal chat, the one I...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    It's hard on the emotions to stay committed to therapy when it gets uncomfortable. If you find one who you're comfortable and who is tuned in to your feelings, I think it would be a plus...it means they truly care. A lot hit you all at once out of the blue, that had to be hard. I like how you...
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    Kittie's Journal

    Thank you for being there and caring! I understand turning a blind eye to the small stuff and could be willing to do that, nothings perfect. I think its just part of getting along, to a point. I'm also learning I could find myself "alone" with another person. The right balance is what counts...
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    Sufferer PTSD from childhood trauma, working in a prison, and cleaning up nephew’s suicide.

    You've found the right place to be heard and understood. It's shattering what you went through, I'm sorry it happened. I'm glad you're finding help, that's where healing begins. Its a heavy load on your heart. In parts of your description of grief, it spoke to my own heart. You aren't alone in...
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    Supporter Hi everyone!! Newlyweds dealing with PTSD

    Welcome! You'll find lots of support here! Best wishes for you both!
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    Kittie's Journal

    I'm sorry you had to deal with the dishonesty and lies. They say the signs are there, we have to look and be aware. That sure isn't easy, even when its plain as day. Yes, people can be weird! I'll count myself in that category, too! I'm glad you're out of that bad situation and can focus on...
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    Kittie's Journal

    I'm thankful for having the balance of the thoughts and ideas of others, it helps me sort out the whirlwind in my mind. For a while, the "red flags" were just yellow...little things that got my attention and stuck with me to make me give the individual ideas more consideration. As they...
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    Kittie's Journal

    Time to re-evaluate if My Guy is right for me! I know he never displays emotion except for being excited to move, but yesterday evening he got a message from his brother (I didn't know he had one!) that he tested positive for Covid. I said I was sorry to hear that and I hope his brother would...
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