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It's really important to have the option to back away when we go through bad spells and I have yet to actually confess this to an employer.

Boy is this helpful. What kind of boss or management works well?

Go get em!

In about a year I am relocating out of state. The move requires I get a mortgage on my new home, which means an employment track record, so I am transitioning my career right now, well in advance of the move. I can't keep my current job and move, but I can consult for them. The level of BS...

Go straight to the people who hired you, the top folks and tell them you have PTSD. Tell them what happened, how you felt, how this impacts your life differently than another person who gets fired. There is a Yiddish phrase called giving someone "the greesha" (phonetic spelling my bad), which...

OMG the up and down cycles suck rocks. (New England saying) Hurray for Prozac, it smooths them out a tad, until I get triggered. When that happens, Houston we have a problem, and I crash.

Wow it is very intense to connect with others who deal with this. It is a highly specific, toxic, like a near-dissociative state. Spent Sunday afternoon sitting in a graveyard (again) wishing I was dead and realizing I am too responsible to do that to my family. Kind of a bad spot -- want to...

You are so dear and I am grateful. I know it's in there, I will keep on keeping on. I think I matter to many people, but we can't get self-respect from anywhere but within. xoxoxox

Acknowledgment that I did a good job. It makes me feel hollow because it's never enough approval to quell the urge to overachieve. My former T said I was one of those PTSD patients who looks really together but is a mess inside. I think I am less of a mess than 10 years go, but through this...

I guess I keep running after approval, running harder than anyone else, and only when there are superhuman results do I feel temporarily good. This results in huge energy swings up and down. When I think about altering this course I feel a chemical resistance in my body -- "no you have to go...

Just went back on meds (SSRI) after several years off, trying valiantly to cope "naturally." Unfortunately my brain didn't play along and all the exercise and therapy and positive outlook did not rewire my fight/flight instinct. So I am with you: this is chemical. Yes we need talk/therapy...

Okay I can get behind that advice. If you slow down you can't do everything. It would feel like vacation all the time. It's like living intentionally -- with deliberation and purpose. Do you have the condition where your body chemicals for fight/flight fire constantly? Mine do. The...

This is similar to what my husband says. Be kind to yourself. That is so hard when your brain is always firing ***PANIC*** chemicals. How did you wind down -- with professional colleagues, friends, family, all?

Does anyone else crash from exhaustion periodically? I work so hard, for income, for approval, for my future. Last week I overdid it and since Friday have been zero energy. I force myself to rally and keep going but inside all I want is to climb in bed. I had a big trigger last week too...

I had a mega trigger last week too. Out of nowhere. Sitting on the floor shaking and dissociating. WTF?? This is a chronic disease that is so damned draining.

Trauma twins. New circus act.

Freaking out over nothing. Boy I am an expert on that. Crying helps though because whatever is inside is really big, and some needs to get out. When I bawl in the shower at least I don't ruin makeup. HA. You better today?

I love this board, I am with my own kind! ;) Today's biochemical brain pain is over paying the bills. Why? Well, there is some financial insecurity right now in my household but that doesn't warrant my gnawing grinding belly ball of stress and fear. I get that sometimes we have dough...

remember your brain is lying to you when you are triggered. I am just like you. It helps me a lot when I realize that the circumstances on the ground -- whatever REAL that is happening in your life -- do not match your current emotional state. Your brain is firing like you're being chased by...

Anyone else struggle to retrieve emails or voice messages? I find it harrowing, more so with voice messages. I get scared about the bad news on the other end, which is generally absurd.

This is genius. I now have a plan.

I have gotten a lot of good guidance from this community on family relationships that resulted in my CPTSD. I am the only one of 4 sibs who got this disease, they are all at least a decade older than I am. Although I informed them about my unique challenges on several occasions since CPTSD...

Am 52, in the middle of menopause, with CPTSD. This is godawful. Has been months since I felt anywhere close to balanced. I can't tell which reactions are due to hormones or to trauma. I can't move forward learning about my triggers and getting them to heal when you add this latest chemical...

Congratulations!! You handled this so well! Allow yourself the satisfaction of identifying and responding to a trigger. Congratulate you and your wife for your resiliency, celebrate an excellent job. Re: building trust forever. I try and think about only one day at a time....long horizons...

FridayJones is a smart cookie. Here is my stupid PTSD logic: you are damaged inside and made a lot of bad choices. The probability is high you will make more bad choices. Further, you don't really need/deserve a nice retirement spot. It won't work. You can't live near the beach, because...