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I hate this so much. Everything is messed up.

People will always use the excuse that it makes them feel uncomfortable. Have they ever stopped to wonder how uncomfortable it is to live with PTSD your whole life? Or to have your identity taken from you to the point you develop DID or a Personality Disorder? People like that get the privilege...

I think I just wish I could be open with my family. The only ones who truly love me are halfway across the world, but I don’t know how I would tell them. It’s easier for me to tell friends or my roommate about it, but that’s because my roommate has a degree in psychology and has trauma of her...

I feel very strongly that I have to keep my new diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder hidden. I say that because I feel like if I’d tell someone they’d either deny its existence in me or they’d avoid me like the plague for seeing me as dangerous.

About two years ago a veil and a rug have been pulled out from on top and under me. All my life I’ve been traumatized, but was made out to believe that there was something inherently bad or wrong with me as a child. My personality has been warped due to the trauma I dealt with as a child. I’ve...

I’ve read everyone’s feedback and am now thinking of using it to help with my binge eating disorder since I heard that it can help with that.

So I found three communities that offer free classes. There’s the sheriffs office that offers free self-defense classes, a local church, and then a non-profit Christian organization that offers classes free of monthly charges. I’m not sure how the last one works. My only gripe is that I’m an...

I think it may have to do with the fact that I asked some friends to hang out with me by watching a movie on Discord, but we can’t because our schedules clash and it’s online friendships that take place halfway across the world. I don’t hold it above their head because I understand we’re adults...

I too had psychosis from anxiety and depression, as well as undiagnosed C-PTSD and BPD. Though the main trigger was that of my insomnia and that went away once I started sleeping thanks to trazodone and left my abusive family’s home. Stress can definitely be a huge trigger for hallucinations...

No idea.

First I started noticing negative feelings that have been coming up. Then I basically went down a spiral where I would have these crying spells. My thoughts slowly started turning towards the thought of harming myself and then of harming my father for all the times he assaulted me. Now I just...

Yeah, I do it even when I feel like shit. It’s what I’m feeling right now.

I doubt I have it. I’m not getting distracted anymore now that I have the right help.

I tried EMDR, but wasn’t ready for it. Right now I’m in DBT and my therapist is trying to incorporate somatic therapy into it. I’ve only been seeing her for two months. Before that I’ve been jumping from therapist to therapist to help me for the past several months.

BPD, trauma, and dissociative symptoms can mimic ADHD as well. Especially when you’re a young child. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 8 and then again at 13. I was medicated and treated for it and I am not going through that again. It made everything 10 times worse. It forced me to concentrate but...

Yeah I tend to not really think about what I’m writing when I’m upset. It used to get me in trouble, but not so much anymore.

Thank you, there was a lot of guilt associated with it. Like the fact she’s in her 80s and family members would beg for me to talk to her. They’d mention how she misses me and that I’m her first grandchild. One of my online friends told me that what my grandmother did was evil. I don’t know if...

Oh I’m already noticing myself getting increasingly enraged at the thought, but thank you for your input. I feel like you always have a way with words that always manages to make me feel better. So thank you for that.

I can’t say that I’m surprised, but that doesn’t make it any less upsetting. Personality disordered traits tend to run on my mother’s side of the family. I was raised by two narcissists. My mother has traits of NPD, but unsurprisingly would not get treatment. I am currently medicated for...

A lot of it involves getting out of my head, but that’s all I’ve ever done was be inside my head. I overanalyze, intellectualize, and overthink my way out of feeling things. Part of me wants to just talk, but my therapist feels like I think too much and that focusing too much on thoughts is...

That’s pretty much what happened to me when I was triggered to the point of retraumatization. Every time my mom was in the background with my dad on the phone, she would put in her two cents. That caused me to regress into a terrified little girl. I’ve had PTSD since I was 5. At the age of 28 I...

I would verbally place boundaries, but I’m also afraid of being gaslit and that if I fight back I’d be forced into silence.

The idea was to cut her off, but I realized that if I keep at it then I’d be shooting myself in the foot at this point in my life.

So I might have to get in touch with my grandmother after all because I have to play nice with my abusers. However, I don’t have any qualms about cutting some family members off in the future now that I’ve had a small taste of it.

I guess I must have a long way to go if I’m already struggling with this. I really want to go through EMDR to really get into some deep level healing.