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I realize this is a little late but I just joined, sorry. I think your therapist is/was seriously crossing boundaries or at least blurring them and for someone with severe trauma (I’m assuming here, since you refer to yourself in plural often), that can be very detrimental to you, some of your...

Those were my long term misdiagnoses (schizoaffective bipolar) I’m actually adhd and have severe dissociative symptoms along with CPTSD and unstable mood…but I’ll tell you what worked for me. Lithium made me cool as a cucumber and leveled me right out but gave me a tremor (that went away when I...

Hey so my Psych NP put me on Rexulti 1mg because she said if I go to shepherd Pratt as is I will be too dissociative to participate and get the most out of it. She said I’m not psychotic even though it’s an antipsychotic. She said it’s also an antidepressant. I have a chosen family and my...

I was having severe OSDD-1b plus DP/DR type dissociative symptoms due to underlying CPTSD for months. Since I relapsed yesterday with self harm and started doing it regularly again I have not dissociated that I know of. Is this weird or normal? I am very mad at/disappointed in myself for self...

I don’t know where to post this thread, so feel free to relocate it, mods. I relapsed yesterday after 29 months and 13 days. I relapsed after my therapist faxed in my referral to shepherd Pratt complex trauma hospital. I’ve been fighting not to relapse for months and yesterday I failed. I did...

Yeah I’m an adult engineering student and last semester it happened so often I started to call it “time traveling”. Id be in class or whatever and then suddenly be god knows where/when some random time in my past, for about 2 seconds and then id blink and be back, but it would take 45 minutes or...

Thanks. I like safe hugs. 🙏

Thanks for replying. Sorry to take so long to get back to you. I was scoping out the site and trying to gauge what conversations are like here. Chronic trauma in the therapy room can mess you up for sure. Whether it’s perpetrated by the therapist or just in front of the therapist. Im honestly...

Hi, thanks. It was/is nice to be accepted here so quickly, although I still doubt that I belong. I just had a conversation with my “chosen mom” about how I didn’t believe any of the CSA stuff could possibly be real since my memory of the family friend’s house and the therapist’s office are...

I’m so sorry that happened to you. Sexual abuse is awful no matter who or when or in what form. My mother didn’t commit actual incest or overt sexual abuse, but she did some seriously questionable stuff that was very unfortunately timed so as to correspond almost exactly with my first sexual...

I've had CPTSD probably most of my life and regular PTSD since age 3 but was just diagnosed correctly a few years ago. Any type of PTSD diagnosis is very isolating. Im sorry it happened to you too. I hope you can find support here.

To the OP—I Definitely relate. I realize rationally that I meet all of the criteria for CPTSD…and that it is the simplest most straightforward explanation of my symptoms and behavior for the past several decades, but it is still almost impossible to convince me that it’s true. I also had...

Welcome. I am brand new to this forum having introduced myself 2 days ago. I already feel seen and heard here. I hope you find what you need here.

I can assure you you’re not alone. I went through 10+ years of CSA (by a variety of non-family members, one in particular) and decades of psychological and emotional abuse from two narcissistic parents that mutually enabled each other, as well as by a bunch of different therapists who enabled my...

This may seem *really* strange (I don’t get it myself) but a good deal of my trauma in childhood was sexual in nature, and I have more than a few songs downloaded on my phone that have rape/sexual abuse/assault themes, *always* from the point of view of the victim/survivor. For example the...

I struggle with rage, fury, hatred of abusers that I was conditioned to idealize, toxic shame, overwhelming guilt about one thing I did when I was a teenager, guilt about hating my abusers (because my religion teaches me to love EVERYONE), and any other emotion that used to lead me to self harm...

Because actually feeling anger and it’s derivatives are new to me in the last 6 months (since I started withdrawing from Trilafon.) I seem to feel both “outraged” and “enraged” at the same time a lot, and sometimes just “rage” at the same time. For me “outraged” feels like I’m SO angry because...

I am brand new to this so take anything I say with a lot of grains of salt. I am currently tapering off a high dose of a typical antipsychotic (I was misdiagnosed as schizophrenic/schizoaffective/bipolar for 13 years, I don’t actually have any of those). I’m now 50% off that med. What I’m...

Hi everyone. Get ready for the new girl CPTSD brain dump, ADHD nonstop word vomit style. I am sorry if this is way too much. I’m terrible at intros. I'm cisfemale (she/her) I have been asexual for the past 7 years due to a lot of childhood/adolescent trauma starting to come to light in my 30’s...