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I’m going to use this post to work through some feelings and belief about happiness. I know that after being lied to by a guy I was seeing about his intentions I decided that I didn’t want to be happy anymore. I saw it as a dangerous feeling that could overwhelm my senses and make me stupid...

I was about to make a post about this when it popped up in the similar threads. I’m so glad because I’m dealing with exactly this. I know the exact moments I decided that I wouldn’t be happy anymore and trying to turn it around has been hard. It’s particularly stubborn. @FFnerd Thank you for...

Movie: If with Ryan Reynolds. Was alright, kind of disappointing. Tv show: Total Drama: Pahkitew Island. Most boring season so far.

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There’s mild version at least for Jamaican patties.

I’m not really sure how to manage my stress really. According to the link, doing things that are positive or joyous can help. I’m a bit disconnected from those at the moment. I guess I have to keep working on that. This is so true. The more I try to fight it the worse it becomes. I was actually...

I’ve been disconnected from what’s happening around me like I will look at words but not really be able to comprehend their meaning unless I try to focus more. Today in addition to that I’ve been falling asleep and having voices say something about relationships. I try to combat cognitive...

I went a family party. It was interesting. I had never met that side of the family and it was really awkward not knowing anyone besides who I came with. It was weird seeing them be so genuinely loving. It was a sharp contrast to my own family. I felt kind of lonely and like I didn’t belong. I...

Are you Jamaican? My family is.

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I’m getting this uncomfortable pain in my arm and hand while I’m doing work. I wonder if it’s tied to the excessive sense of obligation. It feels better as I relax but I’m not quite sure why I feel so tense. I think maybe I have a belief around responsibility that is causing this. Or maybe I’ve...

I was reading about cognitive errors. I realized that I’m always using should/ought to/have to statements. It’s my default mode for some reason. I also realized that it kept me from being able to care for myself more. I was elevating everything to the level of a moral or social obligation when...

Wow! I never thought about a kit that would help with that. I know that I usually get really lethargic, crampy, and just down on myself when it happens. I’ve been able to predict when it will happen with a 1-2 day margin of error. I even set a calendar event to remind me but the day-to-day of...

Background: I had a particularly stressful day when I discovered that I had a period leak that stained my computer chair maybe half an hour before I had to leave to pick my brother up. This event was made worse by the usual lethargy and general gross feeling of being on my period. It only got...

Throughout the day, I’ll have the feeling that I’m in trouble. It is usually worse around the time my mom would come home as a kid. It’s tied to childhood where I would get punished for anything that they didn’t like even if it made sense to do. Them being upset always equated to getting beat...

I also think that work can trigger me at times because making mistakes triggers me. The idea of being wrong scares me and I feel anxious and worthless. But I have to remind myself that being wrong just means being incorrect or inaccurate. It’s not the end of the world. Something that’s...

I realize that my family literally drains my happiness and sense of fulfillment. I can never truly feel content around them. They will always want more and always see me as lacking in some way because it’s never enough for them. No wonder it’s so hard to feel joy and happiness or even to hope...

I acknowledge that my family can’t ever give me the care and love that I need. That’s something I’ve always known but I thought that one day it would be different. I used to think if I just spoke to them and educated them that they would change. Quite the opposite, I became enemy number one...

Work has some triggering things lately. Thankfully I can choose not to work on those projects and leave it to someone else. I’m afraid to come in contact with anything close to violence and sexual assault or even talking about it. I think getting hit as a child really affects my daily life too...

I definitely relate to those sensations having been sexually assaulted in my sleep. It’s rough. I’m really sorry that happened to you. I can tell you that what works for me is reminding myself that I am not there anymore. I remind myself that the assault is not happening currently and will not...

I initially voted later since it could be a triggering topic but it makes sense to put it at the beginning for those suffering with suicidal thoughts to learn ways of dealing with it.

I was feeling very triggered by the mention of sex so I looked up the definition. Sex being the act of coupling makes me feel better about it. It’s not just about specific body parts interacting but forming a relationship. That makes me feel a lot better about it. It’s not so triggering. It...

I learned that behind my dissociation especially at work is the feeling of worthlessness. It feels faint meaning that I’m either disconnected from it or have lessened it to some degree. I also realized that I don’t want to be happy or successful which could be why I subconsciously sabotage...

It’s odd though. I find that my mind replays interacting with others after it’s done in a loop. Thinking about and anticipating what they would say about certain things. It would be fine if it wasn’t hard to come back down to reality and focus on the present. It’s like the experience sticks to...