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@hoopflier it has happened to me as well, with no memory to pin it to. In fact, it's what led me to finally go and see a T, even though I'd had "nervous breakdowns" before, I was too stupid to realise I had PTSD. A few months ago I was triggered in an argument with my husband, and suddenly...

Well, drove for a bit over 5 hrs today, all up, to visit my parents. Was a bit worried about taking the trip with my three teenagers, as they do sometimes fight, and I didn't need the stress. Couple of stressy bits but I held it together. I did it!! Better than I expected. Very, very tired...

I've been ok today, which is better than I've been lately. Still got a bit stressed a couple of times, but got through. Nervous about tomorrow, as I'm driving my 3 teenage sons to see my parents who live 2 1/2 hours away, so 5 hours of driving. I've done it before, and it never used to bother...

This is the only kind I have - flashbacks without memory that is. Both visual and emotional, as now I'm being treated I realise that there are emotional ones too. I've had them almost all my life. There is utter terror associated with them, including the memory of the flashbacks in childhood...

Every baby born is worthy of life, and worthy of being loved. You were born with those rights, and though your family rejected you, it only means that they had some very mistaken ideas. It doesn't mean you weren't worthy. Being attacked as you were was not your fault either. You are not...

I absolutely love that you've done this, on so many levels! She does look like such a sweetie!

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Numb, numb, and numb. If I let anything but numbness in, I'll crack. I have to be numb, as my husband is now emotionally unavailable, even though I try very hard not to burden him. He's over my having PTSD, and feels I should be better by now (I've only been seeing someone since Oct, when it...

AL - I mentioned earlier on that I too was having concerns over whether my experience in EMDR may have reflected a real memory or not, and that I would post here when I'd heard what my T had to say about it. Well - I saw her today. She said that the emotions are real - however there is no way...

Yes. I hope you can get some clarity soon with a diagnosis.

Very tired. Didn't sleep well at all. Going to see my T this morning, and hopefully get to work out what on earth is going on post-EMDR (actually, also what on earth went on in EMDR, for that matter).

Do you have a diagnosis?

@Animalliberator I am glad you asked this question, as I have been wondering as well. I had my first EMDR last week, and had a similar experience of a kind, except I did not have have visual, detailed images. Instead, it was terror and distress, followed by a memory of not being in my body at...

I see it is several hours since you posted this - I hope you have been able to find some peace by now. I would have been upset in this situation too. I wish I had advice for you - however I'm still learning to handle this kind of thing as well. One thing my T has taught me is a breathing...

I have PTSD, which was undiagnosed most of my life, and grew up with my father having PTSD as well, which was also undiagnosed. I love him very much, but unfortunately have never succeeded in feeling very close to him. He was a large, frightening man. He had also experienced neglect in...

I realise that I feel like a fraud, despite evidence that something traumatic happened, because I cannot remember it. I realise that I minimise and invalidate myself often! I realise that I dissociate much more than I thought I did.

Well doing what I like has so far gone a bit wrong. I thought I'd have a nap, and I had a nightmare about the trauma re-enactment play I did as a child, which led into to "the real thing". My worst nightmares are usually about murderers, so I've never dreamt about this before, (I can't bring...

I am going to try and just do whatever I feel like today, for myself for a change. (I'm always looking after my family rather than myself, but I have a chance today to do what I want).

Something in you led you down that actual walk, and it sounds like it helped you connect some things in your mind. Well done indeed!! You were brave then, you had the courage to pursue what you loved despite how you were treated for it. You are brave now, to face what is still terrifying. Of...

Same. I seem to have a lot of disconnections too, and I can't access stuff. It's full on having emotional flashbacks with nothing to connect it to. For me it's like it happened to someone else, but I can feel it all. I do get visual flashbacks, but there are less common for me, and I still...

Hi and Welcome! I too have no memory of any incident, but the flashbacks make it feel pretty real! I would only have been a little girl also, and though I'd had flashbacks all my life, I hadn't realised they were flashbacks, as I'd "always" had those experiences and I guess I thought everybody...

That description really resonated with me! Thanks! That freaked me out, as after the flashback occurred and I had become badly dissociated, I heard a small child's voice say "why did they hurt me?". Grip the seats peeps, the crazy ride is starting! I hope not, but that was surreal, and I'm...

Went to a football game with my husband and son. I almost decided to stay home, but went anyway! Though I was a little annoyed at a couple of invasions of my space, I'm glad I managed to go!

@Abstract Well, I'm glad I did it, I think, though I really need to talk it over with my therapist. I feel like there is still stuff unresolved. When I finally dreamed (3 days later) like was supposed to happen that night, I dreamt that a hard chunk of crystal-like substance as big as my fist...

Hoping very much that you are indeed a good match! Let us know when you can. Fingers crossed!